Life in Snapshots

2008-11-18T14:47:00.006-06:00

Dear Readers,

I'm not too sure when I'll be back at Blogger, but if you happen to stumble here (at this site again), it is likely because of poetry that brought you here.

Here is my poetry journal: Poetry by Lotus. Enjoy!

Love,

A~Lotus

Temporary Transition

2006-07-03T17:37:00.002-05:00

Just those two words are awkward, but I'm writing in here to let you know that I haven't really disappeared. I tend to switch back and forth from Livejournal to here.

So...

I'm over at LJ. If you wanna catch up on the good ol' days, see me at ambiguitylotus@LJ!

Lots of <3 and hugs,

A~Lotus

2005-10-20T23:28:00.000-05:00

Finally watched Final Destination this past weekend. It was awesome. Ah, the Design of Death. We can't escape death, yadiya, yadiya... You get the idea, but it was a great thriller/semi-horror movie (not scary though). I also had a two-day semester break, which I've used to catch up on sleep. I needed it badly. So by the time this past Wednesday rolled around, I was so not ready to go back to the school mode, but at least I felt happy that I finally feel rested this week, which is, using Orwell's 1984 terminology, "doubleplus good," instead of saying "excellent, fantastic, etc." "Why complicate life with so many synonyms?" is one of the ideas of the novel. Okay, now just talking about that book makes me fall into nostalgia of high school, which was so long ago, it seems.

Anyway, dear everyone:

I'm so terribly sorry for neglecting you all as well as neglecting to write in my journal. I wish I had the surplus amount of time I once had to WRITE, WRITE, WRITE, and BE HAPPY FOREVER WRITING, and COMMENTING on your journals/websites... *sigh* I haven't used the Internet for fun as much these days. Even if I did, I only use about an hour's worth of fun, like going to Neopets or stopping by and visiting randomly from my buddy list. Otherwise, I've become an almost full-fledged scholar, doing nothing but research for my classes in psychology. Plus, I'm running a very tight schedule. And then it makes me feel even worse that April and I kept making semi-plans to hang out and meet each other for the first time off-line, off-blogging basis that is (LOL), and it just so happens that our schedules seem to be conflicting or crazy!! Arrghh!! But I'm still trying to make time for everything... No wonder my beloved planner has become my savior; since when did I become that dependent on it?? LOL. Sometimes it's funny, other times, I think it's sad.

Anyway, until further notice, it seems like I'd be able to visit anyone who comments in my blog/site. I wish I can do so for everyone like I always do, but I can't now, with time constraints and I've been far too busy with too much to take care of... So I'm terribly sorry for that, BUT you won't be taken off of my buddy list. Fair enough?

Oh, and I'm excited to register for my classes next year, at least generally what I'm planning to take (see below):

-Research in Social Psychology (good for Social Work, which I'm considering as my 3rd option? for after my bachelor's degree in psych)
-Creative Writing: Poetry!! (yay!! Now you know that I won't have an excuse for NOT posting next year, eh? At least you'll get to read my poems, and hopefully, I'll be able to write more next year---and get back to writing! I miss it so!)
-Psychometrics
-Bioethics
-Public Speaking? (This is a Tues./Thurs. 8 am class, which I don't like. Not a morning person, and plus, I want to avoid traffic jams. So I might switch and try to find another class at another time if I can...)

So, hopefully I'll get some kind of schedule like I want above, plus I'll still be working on campus anyway (and probably training new office workers, if any) and running my presidency term for the Psi Chi Honor Society/Psychology Club.

Some people say I have too much to do. Well yeah, if I don't have anything else to do. I like applying myself out there in the world and doing things. What's the use of living if you do nothing? (Okay, maybe some folks think like that, and I respect that, but I think life should be fruitful.)

Enough of my ramblings.

Happy early Halloween, Hallow's Eve, Fall Holiday, or whatever you want to call it, to you all (just in case if I don't post within this same month)!!

Miss you all!

<3,

Kathy

P.S. My gosh, it seems like the whole nation has gotten the Astros-ian fever!! Haha. Kudos to them for contributing to Houston's history.

2005-10-01T23:18:00.000-05:00

Friday night: watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose with my cousins. It's not as scary as I thought it would be---not really a horror movie either. I'd say it's more of a psychological-court case-freaky movie with religious connotations on some of the dialogue. But overall, it's pretty good!

Am now sick with an icky throat (I have difficulty in swallowing...) and fever and frequent sniffles and sneezes. Therefore, I'm constantly thirsty, and oftentimes my body's shivering with cold and burning like hell.

I have so many things due on Tuesday:

1 history exam
1 history book review/report
2 mini-activities reports for Experimental Psych
1 Career Expo event I think I would need to go to
1 Psi Chi/Psych Club meeting to conduct and organize
1 possible pop-up quiz for Metaphysics on some reading material

Can't figure out which I need to do first...

G'night, dear friends. I'm exhausted and sick...

P.S. My house has been turned into a full-fledged daycare for my 2 cousins and their families. Remember I was telling you all about them in the last entry, since they now have to stay with us because of Hurricane Rita? Well, screaming and crying babies and toddlers are driving me crazy. It's so hard to get anything done around here, which adds more to my stressful situation... Now, I think I need Supernanny. Maybe she'll help us devise ways to have everyone's schedules work together efficiently...and perhaps peacefully... *winks*

2005-09-26T20:50:00.000-05:00

Dear God,

Thank you for keeping us safe (from Hurricane Rita)... and alive! Houston is spared! Although we still have gas and food shortages (food as in bread, canned goods, etc.)...

Dear Friends,

Thank you for keeping us in your thoughts and prayers... And thank you for helping us in this time of need.

In a nutshell (from last week):

Wednesday - went home about 4ish pm from school; traffic was bumper-to-bumper-jammed going I-45 N; packed.

Thursday - 4 am when I woke up; 5 am drive to Spring, Texas (northwest suburban Houston), where my paternal grandparents and my aunt live; it took us 5 and 1/2 hours to get there, because we wanted to avoid I-45 N; stayed overnight; read A Durable Fire by Virginia Bernhard for history class' book report; glad I've finally finished it by Friday before we left.

Friday - 12 pm, finally left Houston; checked maps and found ways to avoid I-45 N as well as the Metro Bus from Bellaire that exploded and created more traffic; arrived at Amarillo, Texas at 10:30 pm much to my aunt, uncle, and cousins' teary relief that we were all okay; slept overnight.

Saturday - slept and rested; ate great homemade food; watched cable TV (I miss having cable!); went to the end of a football game (at least my cousin's high school won their homecoming game); chilled, chatted, etc.

Sunday - 10 am church; eat out at Golden Corral; left Amarillo at 3 pm; made a few stops, especially at Fort Worth to see my other cousins.

Monday - 2:30 am, finally home, tired as ever... Went to bed at 5 am (I love my comfy bed! I missed it!)

If we'd stayed in Amarillo longer, I would've gone with my cousin to her college and go to classes with her... and I would've gone to the movies and hung out, etc.

But I guess my dad was homesick. And he wanted to go home.

Anyway, the things I absolutely miss:

1) Being a blogger lurker and avid reader. I'm just so upset with how I can't visit everyone on my buddy list as often. And I miss everybody!! I go home dog-tired from school, work, and chauffeuring people everywhere... I'm robbed of sleep and leisure time... But I have to work to pay for gas for my car and my tuition...

2) Working on my lovely mini-website!! *cries*

Well, where I live from what I've heard and read from the news, there were fallen trees and power lines (?) and an apartment complex that was on fire... but other than that, everything's all okay.

Right now, I'm so glad my relatives from Port Arthur (this is one of the places where Hurricane Rita hit the hardest...) are all okay... And they're here now at my house. They really look exhausted and hungry. Poor things. I can't believe the stories they're telling me: flooding, roofs flying off, etc...

Anyway, thanks everyone for your concern. *huggles*

Will post a happier entry later. :)

2005-09-07T21:27:00.000-05:00

I forgot to document some things I've watched and read over the summer and just recently (And besides, sometimes I like to remind myself that I've read/watched these things already... I rarely read novels twice, but I can see a GOOD movie a certain number of times before I get sick of it...):

a) Watched most of the episodes of The Prince of Tennis - a really good anime, with cute guys who are tennis players (*winks*)
b) Read Blue Moon - Laurell K. Hamilton (I totally heart this author!)
c) Read Harry Potter & the Order of the Phoenix... Now I have yet to read the newest book.
d) Watched Final Destination 2 - a really great thriller movie... I'm gonna catch up on a whole bunch of other movies I've been wanting to see pretty soon.

Anyway, now for a semi-poem(?) I finally composed after all of these years (I haven't been writing any poems for almost 3 years already...) And after you've read this, close your eyes and try to imagine this, it's simply beautiful and relaxing. Then, read the poem again and tell me what you think:

The Denouement of Autumn

a fluttering breeze danced along
on a spiral staircase of airborne green lily pads
that led toward the pastel blue sky...
to think that it's only the wind fondly brushing
its fingertips against this tree...
each leaf dancing to the wind's seductive melody,
rippling one after another,
seconds apart from each other...
just like when she's sweeping her fingers
across the piano keyboard from the lowest note
to the highest note...
and finally,
her gaze penetrates past
the golden dust of the sun...
to see its spicy orangeness--
a perfect sphere of tricolored reds
that makes Nature indescribable...
everything is blurry-illuminated
like a mixture of fog and light...
then a single maple leaf,
curls into its own secret,
as it falls down from its tree...
and when it finally touches the ground,
the copper, red, and orange open up
and have already replaced the very last
drop of green of summer.

Today, one of my friends told me that today feels like autumn. I'm so glad that I'm not the only one sensing/feeling the early beginnings of autumn. Hence, this poem. Enjoy! (I'll do revisions to this little poem when I get around to it! :) )

Love you all! *huggles*

2005-09-03T22:24:00.000-05:00

I am inspired with calmness and reassurance. This is a rare feeling. What does it mean to be free? At ease? Today I've felt free and at ease--for the first time in so many months? years? I've realized that I have overcome so many limitations, so many painful events in my life. To have this feeling, to know that there are people who share the same thoughts, words, and actions just like I do...

It's mesmerizing--a mystery. Something hard to explain, but yet it's there...

Despite the chaotic and tragic stories of the many hundreds and hundreds of people who have come over to Houston from the Hurricane Katrina disaster, I held on for them. I cried a little, knowing that losing homes and even the people you love can be just more than overwhelming. So I turned off the TV. It was just too much. I'm planning to help them soon--around the 12th-13th of this month at the George R. Brown Convention Center (aside from donating)...

I've realized that there are just so many things in my life that are incomparable to the events that are happening now (Louisiana & Mississippi). I have to admit that 9/11 didn't affect me that much. Yes, it was a tragic event, but I think it's because of other factors that made this Hurricane Katrina disaster a whole lot more tragic. Maybe it's the location of the tragedy, maybe it's Mother Nature, maybe it's because there are more problems to be fixed and more people to be taken care of physically and emotionally (than 9/11, which were buildings that can be rebuilt, etc.)... I mean, these people are more than displaced. They'd have to readjust! and then trying to figure out or planning out where to go from here--taking it one day at a time...

And before I did my chores today, I gazed at the peaceful pastel swirls of the clouds and the sunset and knew that I am content--just to be where I am today, especially how fortunate I am to know that Texas had escaped from the hurricane unscathed (even though we had rain and thunderstorms). Knowing that my own heart lies with those who are in need, who are tormented, who need help... Here, I follow my own destiny, my own dreams to use my heart, my wisdom, my knowledge, and my service for the world.

I've finally realized that UST has been THE perfect place for me to grow in every way. Even though there are so many transitions, changes, and challenges I'm getting adjusted to, I know that I am able to go through it all. It is my home and my strength...

I... am actually indebted to this certain person who has helped me realized this. A friend who has gone through nearly the same things I've done and thought about...

Yes, busy-ness and workaholicism seem to be the two things I bury myself under, just because I'm afraid to be consumed in such depression, frustration, and worries. These two things helped me resurface a bit and helped me stay afloat while I'm battling my way out.

Friends do help me stay sane. My family too (under normal conditions).

Escapism is lovely whenever it's needed, but ignorance is not bliss. The human intellect/will has the infinite desire to know... Just sometimes it will defend itself to act blindly and be ignorant of what's real or what's truth...

And with that, I leave you all (whoever is celebrating this holiday) with a happy and safe Labor Day (I'm just happy this is a day off. I have so much catching up to do...).

Good night, my dear friends.

2005-08-25T11:28:00.000-05:00

Just got home from the gas station to get an oil change for my car...

And I met this really interesting man, who looked like Santa Claus from a distance!! Teehee!! As he got closer, I noticed that he wore an old blue cap, black-rimmed glasses (which at first I thought were his shades), and brown boots. He looked like a cross between Santa Claus (he did have a long, fluffy white beard) and a fisherman (with the boots)... But interestingly, he got to the station on a nice red-and-black Yamaha motorcycle to get it inspected. (I told him half-jokingly and half-seriously that it would be nice if I got a motorcyle. I like the wind, but I'm so tired of the gas prices going up. I have to spend like $50 a week on gas! *screams in frustration*)

He was telling me how I-45S, Nasa Road, etc. used to be a 2-lane freeway 30 years ago until the city added more lanes... Then he told me about how he used to drive his motorcycle (not the one that got inspected today though) to work some 5-10 years ago... Oh yeah, he did have to wear a rain suit and galoshes to keep dry on rainy days. And wore gloves to get a good grip on the handle bars on rainy/cold days as well. It's kinda amusing just listening to him ramble on about the advantages and disadvantages of riding a motorcycle versus ways to convserve gas and the importance of conservation/environmental concerns, etc. vs. driving 4-cylinder cars (like mine: Honda Accord) or at least fuel-efficient cars... And all the while, I'm thinking of that book we used to read in high school?... What was it??

Oh...

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance

I wondered if he read that book.

Plus, he has such an energetic personality... It was contagious. All the employees at the gas station were a bit more talkative and non-soporific. (I just think they were bored before I even got there.)

Ah, at least I'm glad I don't have to wait at a gas station that long for the mechanics to finish the services I paid for. I'm telling you, next to waiting in the doc's office for an appointment is waiting at a gas station/mechanic/body shop... It always takes forever!!!

But just for today, it was only 20 minutes AND I went home happy.

2005-08-18T22:30:00.000-05:00

Edited for the 3rd time (because I'm a scholarly perfectionist)...

Happy Greetings to my fellow friends! My gosh, it's August already! I know, I've been on another monthly hiatus yet again. (Yes, Angel, I know you're supposed to be the one disappearing often INSTEAD of me. LOL.) Thank you, everyone, for still lurking by my site to amuse me. *huggles* Ah, friends... *sniffles & wipes tears* You all are the best!

Anyway, here are some recent happenings:

- My maternal? grandfather at the nursing home near my house (Does that make any sense? He was my mother's father.) has just recently passed away on the 10th of this month. He looked just like a baby, sleeping so peacefully. He didn't even look like he's dead in the casket. Everything seemed so surreal when I went through the whole thing and when I heard the news... Anyway, I'll miss him.

- Family reunions are just so overwhelming. Sometimes, I keep forgetting how HUUUUGGGEEE my extended family is.

- My sister's birthday was yesterday. I'm so glad she liked her present. I gave her a certain manga book she wanted plus a nice bookbag to get a head start on college. Hehe. :-p

- My self-paced, self-taught GRE practices have been put on hold, and so did my summer psychology research. (I'm going to have to email my professor and tell him about the reasons why I couldn't finish my research. I'm going to have to turn in my stuff late.)

- I bought my school books today. I'm set for back to school. However, I'm going to return 2 books and get them at Borders instead (the one at Kirby & W. Alabama), 'cause they're cheaper. I'd already tried Ebay and Half.com---all still too expensive. Besides, these books I'll use for one semester! I know for sure that I'm not going to need them in the future! So, why buy things new? LOL.

- I did a lot of exploring/driving around where I live now---just to get used to where I'm living now. (I live smack in the middle of the boundaries between Friendswood and Pasadena.) Unfortunately for me, I keep driving back to my old house, then mentally smacking my forehead, and feeling stupid, realizing that I don't live there anymore!! Arrgh. LOL. It's so silly...

- Gas prices are almost reaching 3 bucks a gallon... while Iraqis pay 6 cents a gallon. I'm disappointed. Maybe I should start driving/buying those hybrid fuel-and-gas efficient cars...

- I start school on the 29th (Yay!)... *sigh* Will someone PLEASE switch places with me? I'm soooo bored (intellectually and perhaps physically). I think it's because I'm jobless. If I don't have something productive to do, I'm extremely bored. Hey, it really isn't my fault that I can't get a job. I had plenty of job offers, but I had to turn them down, because it just wouldn't work with my schedule. I have to work around everybody's schedules. And if you're the eldest sister, who has to be the substitute "mother" of the house while both parents are at work, then it's hard to ever get a job---or EVEN a part-time job. Talk about me going crazy. So... I have been applying to lots of random places...

- I live in Houston all my life and I still do not understand why the weather can simultaneously raining while the sun is burning bright. Plus, it makes driving hard---or rather, driving blindly.

- Everyone should be on FaceBook (I'm not sure if non-United States colleges are allowed.) and/or on MySpace. These two places are fun!

- I miss you all, and what's more, I miss reading your entries, because you all are very wonderful and amusing writers. I'm going to have a Post-It Note and give a trophy for each of you, with one word describing why I like reading your blogs/sites. Yeah... maybe I should do that. *smiles*

Well, mes amis. Love you! Take care! And thanks for coming by and leaving wonderful greetings and comments! *huggles*

Until next time (hopefully not a month later)...

A~Lotus

P.S. I'll stop by everyone's sites/blogs as soon as I can. I have so much catching up to do! And I've missed you guys so much!

2005-07-19T15:39:00.000-05:00

Working backwards with my brain is sometimes hard. I'm sorry April if I missed you again. You said you called last Monday and no one picked up? That sure is strange, because I was home all day---plus, it was raining... Well, *huggles* there will always be more opportunities. Besides, my sis is going to be a UH student this fall. :)

I just realized that I can make a pretty good detective... Or I can be an off/online stalker, and no one would even know it. Someone once told me that I have a knack for finding people... Hmmm, maybe I should work at a "Missing Persons" hotline. Plus, I'm always trying to find people in my dreams, and I'm always reading some sort of mystery/thriller/scary book anyway. Hehe. :p

-Finished with Bloody Bones by L.K. Hamilton
-Done with The Forgotten Man by Robert Crais
-Watched War of the Worlds (I think the ending ended a bit too abruptly--wasn't developed as well, but overall, the movie was good.)

Awesome, awesome books...and movie.

If only summer would go just a little bit faster, I'm already ready for school. Yeah... I'm such a workaholic. Sometimes, I need to learn how to have a little fun every now and then... LOL. People tell me that ALL the time.

2005-07-15T17:27:00.000-05:00

Be careful what you wish for; you may REALLY/LITERALLY get it.

Well, I had asked the Hot, Burning Sky for rain, and it was pouring for 3 days straight already... We got thunderstorms and semi-flooded streets, but on the upside of things, at least the trees, grass, and plants will finally have water... I mean, with this much sun, the vegetation was scorched and burnt! You can see patches of brown and yellow grass and trees... Since when did Houston become this hot? But even though it was pouring, I'm glad we finally have rain.

I saw several of my old high school friends a couple of days ago. It was really nice. We went out to eat at Hungry's and hung out at Borders. (I really love origami books, especially folding flowers.) I've realized how much I really missed them, and it's been so long since I've seen them! Ah, friends are wonderful. <3

Oh, and I'm glad seeing my friends took away a few pieces of my insanity.

Lately, I've been having disturbing dreams that are depressing and the scenarios seemed so hopeless. I'm finding myself falling into a dark abyss---falling down forever with no one to just grab my hand to stop me from falling. And then, I'm finding myself invisible and ignored by people I care so much about. This is what I call abandonment magnified by infinity. It was so scary and depressing that I woke up drenched in sweat---horrified with the thought of anyone living and being so alone like that. *shudder*

-Read Lips Together, Teeth Apart by Terrence McNally (a great play)
-Read A Stroke of Midnight by Laurell K. Hamilton (This new series is getting better!)

Well, gotta go now! I'm gonna post pictures soon! :)

2005-07-08T20:25:00.000-05:00

On hiatus for nearly a month. *whistles*

And wow! Blogger has finally added a photo gadget dealio to post photos/pictures! About time! *dances* Have I been gone that long? What else did I miss? LOL. Is the photo gadget thing that reliable?

Post-It Note: Need/Want to bloghop. Seriously miss everyone immensely.

Things I did since:

-watched High Tension (USA-dubbed?); was extremely disturbing
-watched The Perfect Score; I needed a laugh. :)
-read Burnt Offerings, The Killing Dance, and The Laughing Corpse by L.K. Hamilton (my fav author!)... and a short-story anthology, Bite
-read Ordinary People by Judith Guest (Wow... family drama)
-read Fast Food Nation by Eric Schlosser (You would never want to go to McDonald's again... Some ugly facts you don't know or want to know... I highly recommend you reading this on an empty stomach. LOL. But gosh, this is an extremely fantastic book.)
-read Prozac Nation by Elizabeth Wurtzel (More wow-ness... I'm amazed that I'm finally enjoying reading nonfiction books!)
-did and am still doing pain-in-the-butt scholarships... These's this one in particular that I'm trying to write a kick-@$$ autobiography/essay on, and I'm working really hard on it too... To me, it's more than a scholarship. It's a chance to be heard---TCW 2005 in Austin, Texas! Wish me luck!
-am dwelling in and out of this place... my LJ, so I'm still out and about if you still want to hunt me down... I'm everywhere...
-Blame this on my sister: I've been listening to too many Japanese pop songs everyday, because she has it blasting thru the Internet radio everyday! Oy, she's giving me such a headache...

Some things I've recently discovered:

-when you live in a new residential area, salespeople come by knocking on your door to get you to buy their offers of the best security systems, carpet cleanings, window blinds, and God knows what else is there... "Go away, you leeches! I'm not interested!" I feel like screaming that at them. LOL.
-unfortunately, I'm still working on this site, so bear with me, dear friends.. my last resort is that I'm going to host some of the pages on Geocities... unless if someone can help me with FTP or however that works... LOL. But don't worry, I'm still keeping my main page here with the same name! LOL.
-I'm impressed with how everyone's been moving to new URLs and changing new layouts... LOL. But cool! Some of you need to email me your new links or at least comment on here so I'll know. :) I got most of your new links for those of you who often come by, but I need another Post-It Note to go and change them!
-talking and seeing people in the past is a change for me--I think it's good. :)
-there are so many ants...some spiders... !!!!EEEEE!!! I've lost count on how many I killed and squashed... How in the heck did they get in the house?
-There's been no rain. I hate the months of July thru September. Hot as hell! Ugh.

Well, take care, everyone, until my next ramble! Miss you all as always. Stay tuned for my next visit! :)

2005-06-12T19:40:00.000-05:00

Shortest post ever! I think I've posted like 2 or 3 times this week. Boredom can really catch up to you! Oh, wait, it's actually restlessness for me...

Anyway, check out the cool layout and the new workable mini-site I have here! *smiles* Don't mind me if there are some things that need some fixin'. I'm still working on it... Happy early week to you all! *huggles*

2005-06-10T15:44:00.000-05:00

Because I thought this is interesting, and so I'm posting it. *smiles*

Wish

Try to do this without cheating... See how close it comes to how you actually
are...

Feng Shui Horoscope

This is cool. You really need to try without
cheating...

Take just a couple of minutes to take this test and see what happens!

If you are honest, this tells the truth -- it's pretty good.

Write your answers on a piece of paper, and NO cheating!!

The answers are at the bottom.

1. Which is your favorite color: red, black, blue, green, or yellow? (I'm blue.)

2. Your first initial? (K, of course.)

3. Your month of birth? (November)

4. Which color do you like more, black or white? (black)

5. Name of a person of the same sex as you. (N - I'm not saying the person's name on here out of confidentiality.)

6. Your favorite number? (9)

7. Do you like California or Florida more? (California)

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean more? (lake/ocean--it depends on my mood...)

9. Write down a wish (a realistic one). (That's for me to know!)

When you're done, scroll down. (Don't cheat)...

:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:+:

Answers:

1. If you chose:

Red - You are alert and your life is full of love.

Black - You are conservative and aggressive.

Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back.

Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses and affection from the ones you love.

Yellow - You are a very happy person and give good advice to those who are down.

2. If your initial is:

A - K: You have a lot of love and friendships in your life.

L - R: You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your love life is soon to blossom.

S - Z: You like to help others and your future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and you will discover that you fall in love with someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love relationship that will last long but the memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great, but eventually you will find your soul mate.

4. If you chose...

Black: Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, and you will be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely confides in you and would do anything for you, but you may not realize it.

5. This person is your best friend.

6. This is how many close friends you have in your lifetime.

7. If you chose:

California: You like adventure.

Florida: You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:

Lake: You are loyal to your friends and your lover and are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please people.

9. This wish will come true! Only if you repost this in 1 hour will your wish come true. (I highly doubt this.)

2005-06-06T21:00:00.000-05:00

I can't tell you all how good it feels to be back!!! Yayness!! It feels like I've been gone forever!

I finally finished moving to my new home on the 28th of last month... after my sister's graduation. I finally have the Internet back plus a new easy-to-remember phone number!

My Amarillo cousins visited us this past week, and so everything was pretty hectic! And so now, I have to clean my room AGAIN, since I reserved my room for them to sleep in. I mean, they slept in my room more days that I did (I only slept in my room 3 nights). Can't you believe it?

I want more zzz's. I drove so much these past couple of weeks. I'm glad gas prices are a bit low--but not by much. I should've applied for a job as a chauffeur, because I've been driving everybody everywhere! Gosh, it was so tiring... Maybe a limo service? Yeah, I should get paid for being a chauffeur...

I NEED a job--something different. However, I'm still waiting for those Sam Goody folks to call me... Oh, and if you guys need a perfectionist-competent secretary, give me a holler. I'm a whiz at working in the administrative offices, etc. I GET THINGS DONE!

I'm really sad that I can't go to summer school this summer, because I can't afford it, and my finances are weird. It's a creative writing class I need to take so that I can minor in Creative Writing... *sigh*

It is so hot outside that I now have a tan. I now weigh 100 lbs. I guess I've lost so much weight these past couple of weeks, because there were lots of moving stuff and driving and walking everybody around Houston. Whew!

Plus, I tagged along with my sister to UH today, and I went by the Graduate School of Social Work Building! April, I didn't know the campus changed that much! New buildings! Plus I now know where the MD Anderson Library is, because I'm doing my research there... My professor just assigned me a couple of books to read. Ah, I love being intellectually stimulated over the summer.

I'm content as a kitten. Can't life be any more grand? I love being with people, I love what I'm doing... Yayness!

Oh, and P.S. I miss you guys!!! I need that bloghop...

2005-05-25T10:11:00.000-05:00

Racial issues like this always bug the heck out of me:

I was watching the news a couple of days ago about this school district in Texas(?) that distributed the yearbooks out to students. And on this certain photograph, it shows all of the Honor students. Unfortunately, if you read the caption below this photo, one of the names of the students is "Black Girl." (She was the only black/African-American girl in this photo, but that doesn't mean her name should be labeled that way! *shakes fists*)

The yearbook company must have someone on its staff with a sick, twisted, and disrespectful mind and heart. And the school itself plans to take back all of the yearbooks and have that company fix it! (It created a controversial issue as you can see. Everyone didn't know that that happened until after the yearbooks were distributed.)

Yeah, would that make anyone mad if they replace your name with something offensive in the yearbook?

Anyway, this is my LAST post coming from home. By the end of this week, I'm gone. Hectically (if that's a word), my sister's grad day is also on Saturday, there's also a small grad party for her (actually, we're planning an eat-out at some all-you-can-eat Oriental buffet), moving out last minute heavy load/stuff is also on Saturday, and my out-of-town relatives are also planning to come down to Houston all on Saturday. In addition to this, no more Internet for God knows how long... Plus bye-bye phone-line...

Summer school for me starts after Memorial Day. I'm taking a Creative Writing class that concentrates on Poetry as a part of my Creative Writing minor.

Work for me starts on June 4th. Hopefully, those folks better call soon, because the phone line will be disconnected fairly soon.

And I'm still waiting for my psych prof to email me about my research project over the summer... *shrug*

And then my sister's Freshman Orientation is on June 2th-3rd. She's going to UH! And on June 11th, my brother's taking his ACT.

And the list goes on...

Did I mention that I wish I could just duplicate myself whenever I feel it's necessary? I cannot save the world all within 2 weeks or less!!

Wish me luck that nothing goes wrong, and wish me luck that I am able to do all of the above stuff and to survive it at least!

But I'll miss you guys! *huggles* I'll come back again for bloghops, okay? *smiles*

And if it happens that I do bloghop to your lovely sites/blogs, it's because I'm using the net at school... (Shhh, don't tell anyone. I'm doing my "homework." *wink*)

Signing off now!

Happy summer days!

Love,

A~Lo

2005-05-18T14:01:00.000-05:00

Did I mention how much I hate packing?? It's hypnotizing me to sleep (and boredom)! So much stuff to discard in the trash bin! So much to sort out! Too many boxes... I can't wait for this week to be over! Next week: move. I want my own room NOW, not next week: privacy is a privilege (and bliss!)... Hint my being anxious here...

Next week: my sister's high school graduation... (What am I going to wear??)

Current dilemma: Trying to decide if my personal schedule and financial aid will be agreeable enough (to a certain extent, so juggling 100 circus balls will not stress me out too much) so that I can change my schedule (for this Fall 2005 semester) from Public Speaking to Experimental Psychology. That'll bump up to 17 credit hours. Yikes...

I scored 100%. This was a part of my "Brain Injury & Neuropsychological Assessment" presentation for my clinical psych class, except that this is animated and I had a different version of this test.

For some strange reason, I actually like this movie despite all of the mixed reviews: Lemony Snicket's: A Series of Unfortunate Events, even though I've never read the books to it... I'm gonna check out the books and add them to my leisure summer reading marathon.

I posted this play I've written that was a part of my Playwriting portfolio and my final exam if you're interested in reading it. It's called Homecoming for Surprises. I actually like the drama of it. *smiles* Enjoy.

Love... Errr... (Why do people kept asking me about this??) It's now a slightly-faraway-sensitive subject for me now. While I can tell others how wonderful love is and how fortunate they are to be in love or to be in any relationship for that matter, I myself am content with my lifestyle. I just don't have the time to put any more of my energy and heart for love. It's kind of disturbing to know that I don't have any strong feelings for a guy I would like. It's based on a more mutual respect and friendship rather than a gradual-head-over-heels love (which I will attach that phrase to my high school years before I was bitterly heartbroken). I wonder if my heart had metaphorically turned into a stone... or I guess just maybe I've grown up and matured to a point where I know that love is just something I will have someday if I want it, and that I am just not in the mood for it now (aka I just don't have the time for it)... Yeah... *nods* My epiphany! (It's funny how my cousin said that "love is all in the head." True. And if that's the case, I think I've pushed love all the way down to the abyss of my busy priority list.)

And for those who are in love or are in any relationship (marital, intimate, etc.): A big kudos to you all, for knowing and finding that love, for love (for me, at least) should be something spiritually, physically, mentally, emotionally, intellectually, etc. beneficial to both parties.... Right? If so, hear hear!! *raises glass*

Signing off now!

Happy hump day!

<3,

A~Lo

P.S. Give someone a kiss and a hug today just because I've talked about this subject of love! *smooches & huggles to you all*

2005-05-12T18:05:00.000-05:00

Hi, everyone! My, this month has been one heck of a month! And I can't believe it! It's almost summer! As of today, I'm officially done with school (for now)! No more exams or papers or writing portfolios or any other insane school stuff! I'm FREE, FREE, FREE at last!! Back to regain those lost hours of sleep and read for leisure...

So now... the only thing I need to focus on is moving my stuff to my new home! And yes, things are hectic now. My dad has brought home a bunch of cardboard boxes... Most of them are all new, and I have no clue where he got them... but those boxes are for our stuff, since we're not renting moving vans... We got enough of our own "moving vans" as it is. Hehe.

This past Mother's Day was sweet... but gosh, the weather decided to throw a tantrum, and we are blessed/cursed? with a rainy Sunday Mother's Day... But I'm really happy with the fact that I've worked hours on trying to make an origami white rose for my mom, when I should've been working on my playwriting portfolio. This rose took me so long to fold... The stem and leaf are both easy to make, but gosh, the rose took me forever! Yesterday was my brother's birthday... I keep forgetting how old he is, because he looks mature for his age. And of course, he's my baby brother and my only brother, he's younger than me, so at least I could remember that. LOL. *sniffles* Everyone is growing up... *sighs* But anyway, the pizza was good... When was the last time I ate pizza??

<---Isn't that a cute emoticon? Anyway, I'm just amused. Lately, I've been watching movies... Kung Fu Hustle was funny and things look abstract and surreal, but there's a little sweet romantic story (no kissing involved with this movie--or at least, not really) despite all of the kung-fu fighting going on. Assault on Precinct 13 is one of the worst movies ever. Every line is filled with foul language, followed by a series of gun shots and people getting killed. I feel that both the plot and the characters were under-developed, and not complex enough to call this movie a drama! Worst movie ever... *shudder*

Well, I think that's it for now. I'm not really sure what I'm babbling about now, other than my brain is relieved from all of the hard work I've done this whole year, and I'm just too ready for the summer! And I miss you guys! Gonna go back to bloghoppin' in a jiffy... Luv ya! *smooches*

2005-04-30T18:28:00.000-05:00

For my own amusement:

Your Birthdate: November 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable. This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research. You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

1. Barbeque goodness for dinner! Mmmm! I can't wait! It smells sooooo awesome! I haven't had barbeque since last summer!

2. I'm the new President for the Psi Chi Honor Society for Psychology for the next school year! More responsibilities and busy-ness for me! The induction ceremony was lovely and the food was Italian! I <3 Italian food!

3. My research presentation project (for my clinical psych class) on brain injury was awesome! I'm so happy that my whole class enjoyed it!

4. I went to my school's production of Hedda Gabler (by Henrik Ibsen) last weekend. I never understood why I was never sucked into the world of theatre before, but since I've been to a few plays for this semester (as a requirement for my Playwriting class), it made me appreciate its intimate world and see the beauty of it all. I mean, these days we're always glued to the visual advantages of films and movies, and there's no interaction on the audience's part. With theater, you're sucked into its world and are able to laugh and cry along with the actors on stage. That is awesome. I think people need to go to plays more often... I wonder if I can do behind-the-scenes stuff...

5. The semester is almost over! Wow... I'm so amazed at how fast I'm progressing through my studies. Hopefully, I'll graduate sometime in 2007... But for now, I'm afraid of the final exams, which begin (for me at least) this upcoming Friday... Fortunately, I have big gaps between days to study. Wish me luck.

6. Funny... These days when I forget something, I can't ever remember it, and it's a good thing that one of my good friends has helped me realize that, which I didn't really notice before. For example, I want to say something to someone, but then something happens and interrupts my train of thought, and then when that person asks me what I wanted to say, I just tell them that I forgot.... Argh!! Does that ever happen to you guys? It frustrates me sometimes. I mean, most of the time, it's not really important, but it just irks me that I forget... But other than that, I have a pretty good photographic memory with things (like when I remember stuff from books, etc.), and I remember important dates of events and appointments and whatnot...

Anyway, it's been a while since I've been here blogging. So many things have kept me occupied (i.e. papers, last minute extra credit stuff to turn in... eeeee!! help me!!). I miss you guys! If I don't come back here, then you'll know that I'm busy crying over exams and moving last minute junk to my new house! So that'll take a month to adjust to a zillion of things! So much love to you all! *waves, huggles* Take care, ok? :)

2005-04-19T12:10:00.000-05:00

4.11.05 entry:

Thank God for small miracles.

I think my parents would've done more than just freak out at the thought of ever knowing that I've driven to school today without my driver's license OR even my registration card (They're both in my purse, and I left it at home! Arggh!). That was so stupid and careless of me. How can I be forgetful today of all days? I deserve a smack on the forehead. I realized I've forgotten both of those things, when I finally got to school and pulled on the drive-way towards the parking garage. I was like "OMG!" I was freaking out, but not too excessively; otherwise, I'd probably lost control of the car. Eh, just one of those days when the "good girl" persona gone wrong. *sigh* Good thing I used my head within a split of a second (instead of letting a panic attack take the better part of me) and found myself another parking place AND got to my class still 10 minutes early without anyone ever knowing about my little dilemma.

The ironic thing was that yesterday was the first Sunday EVER that I'd gotten so much sleep that I actually went to school fully rested! I mean, Mondays are sleepy-lazy-don't-wanna-get-out-of-bed-and-go-to-work/school days, you know? Mondays are the one day of each week designated as the national holiday of sleep-deprivedness.

For now, I've saved my own skin, PLUS my parents will never know about this little incident (and I intend to keep it that way); otherwise, I will never hear the end of it.

Today's entry:

I have about 2 more weeks of school left, but it seems a lot less than that. I've been so sleep-deprived lately that it's not even funny. I've been pulling several all-nighters studying for exams and writing those papers. *sigh* It seems so endless!

And my head hurts now. I didn't get much sleep last night. And now the UST's chapel bells are ringing tirelessly for like almost 2 hours already, on and off, which the ringing itself is amplifying the torture of this migraine I'm now having. Yes, yes, the new pope is elected. You can stop with the ringing now. I know that I'll go home today with my mom obsessed with this news. I'll bet you a dollar that she is watching this on CNN right this moment while I'm sitting here in this psychology computer lab. The weird thing was that I knew that it would be Cardinal Ratzinger who would be elected as pope BEFORE Pope John Paul II passed away. I had no doubts about it, too. *shrug* Go figure. Sometimes I scare myself knowing these things. I wonder if I have a foreshadowing gift or talent of some kind??

Anyway...

My mind feels so cramped up right now that I can't think. I think my brain needs oxygen as a result of my fatigue, which is a result of me not getting enough sleep. I was going to say something, but I've forgotten. If I remember, I'll post it next time.

Anyway, happy week to you all!

P.S. Oh! Now I remember! I accidently banged my elbow hard on the bathroom door yesterday, and got a hideous-looking bruise for all the world to see. Sad thing is that the pain shot up my arms to my shoulders. It hurts to lift books and open the doors to my classes at school! I'm glad that people were nice enough to open doors for me today. It hurts, plus I found out that it hurts to even move my fingers when I was taking notes in philosophy class today... *sigh* Curses, curses, curses. I'm going to fully nurse myself when I get home today. Nap, massage my poor arm and elbow, and maybe find other ways to pamper myself so that I won't feel so miserable.

Am I the only one super busy and miserable on here? I sure hope not. Because I don't want you guys to fret over my bad-luck cases as of late. Okay, not really bad cases... but you know what I mean! LOL. Take care, everyone! *huggles*

2005-04-10T15:49:00.000-05:00

1. Either I'm getting busy-er with the new addition of blog-friends every time, or Time is being a pain and has given me enough to do so that I won't be stuck on the computer 24/7! Or maybe it's both. LOL.

2. I'm a hopeless romantic. And this fits me well. I want a soulmate, or am I being too picky?

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3. Seriously, I have forgotten that I'm now 20. My birthday was like 5 months ago, and I totally forgot that I'm 20! I guess as you get older, you forget what's your exact age, because then, you already know how you are (and you've already established your self-identity and habits, and you can't change them).

4. Life is good. Teachers are being oh-so-totally nice lately and so they've pushed back a test date and a paper due date. More time for me. Less headachy.

5. This conversation with my friend in stats class made me think:

E: So, how did you feel when you heard about the pope passing away?
Me: I dunno. A bit sad, mostly regret. I missed the chance of being able to see him in person when there was that World Youth Day in Canada two years ago... How about you?
E: Sad. When I was watching TV, I cried. I guess it made me realize what a strong Catholic I really am---that I'm a strong believer. I mean, I never knew him personally, and I didn't keep up with all of his travels, but the pope passing away had a big effect on me.

I nodded. It made me think. If I were to go back in time, I would've gone to Canada. And I remember that day when I first heard about the night before he was about to pass away---the condition he was in. It made me solemn and little tears were sprinkling around the edges of my eyes, but I didn't cry. Not like my friend did anyway. It made me think how strong I am as a Catholic. How much I'm a believer in Catholicism. Sure, there are some things I don't understand, but faith and doing good deeds are like the trademark of Catholicism, and Pope John Paul II is a great example. And maybe because of that trademark, I believe in miracles through prayer, faith, and doing good deeds for the benefit of humanity. And with the pope who's already passed away, it would be interesting to see the future of a papal era.

My one wish is that we would somehow keep world peace and lend a hand to others, and make it as stable as possible (even though it's not entirely, but we can all still try). It takes more than cooperation, and the world leaders and their peoples need to know and realize that... and make it happen.

6. Despite everything, I managed to set aside some little time working on my next blog layout. It fits the spring and summer seasons.

7. One more month to go before school's over! Summer is here! Time for bringing out more of the great body workout on a weekly basis! Otherwise, I'll be frying under the sun, and suffocating on a clogged heart! (I can feel it when I need a good workout!)

Love you guys! Take care, and be good!

2005-03-30T18:39:00.000-06:00

A big HELLO to all of my cyber friends!! I need to give you all lots of and for waiting so patiently for my return! You guys are so inspiring and wonderful! And for those who are always lounging around and stopping by with your hello's, I thank you for making my days a bit less stressful. This site has been a refuge and an escape from the stressors of life, where I can rant and rave and bore you to tears with my stories if I wanted to! Or... I can always entertain you. I always have some tricks up on my sleeve.

But enough with that, you guys should always know that every time you stop by here to leave a comment or even a shoutout in the tagboard, I know that you'll make me smile. And that's why I mean it when I say that YOU'RE NOT FORGOTTEN whenever you come here, even though it may take me a while to visit you, because I go down the list to EVERYONE's sites/blogs at different intervals. And voila, you're an instant friend! Say AYE if you got that in your head! *nods* Good! Now that's settles it.

Next on the agenda: I've written a really short scene that may be a part of some untitled future play. Calling out for comments and critiques! Trust me, it's really short, but I like the scene so far. But since I've joined an LJ community, it's here. Enjoy!

I just took a stats exam today, which I'm pretty sure that I aced it! My head is drained though. This Friday, I have a job interview for the New Student Orientation Coordinator position for my summer job. I'm nervous already, but I really hope that I get the job. If hired, I'll be doing summer activities for the incoming freshmen for UST and show them around... Would be cool. I like working with people and helping ohers. Ooh, speaking of which, I also plan on doing research over the summer, regarding the effectiveness of marriage counseling or marriage education classes or something similar to those topics as an extracurricular activity. I'm wedging my foot in the psychological research community, so I can get the general idea of how research studies are like, and besides I'd need all the experience I can find to go to grad school!

My family is still clearing out slowly to our new home. I think we have to leave by May, but all of the documents and papers are signed and now our house doesn't belong to us anymore!

April will be a busy time for me. The close of the academic semester with exams, projects, papers, and presentations. Oy, no wonder I feel like I'm on the verge of that panic attack! Time sure flies!

I love movies. It's a big stress reliever! Plus I play those games on Neopets. I get to know the scoop on new products coming out... And music! Gosh, you can't live without that either!

And... I hope to see some of my old friends over the summer too. I miss them. And do more reading marathons--more dark horror/mystery/gothic/paranormal romantic novels... I can't wait!

Time surely flies when you're having so much fun! Sometimes you just got to look at life in the eye and say that you love it! (And so you embrace it, no questions ask!)

Have a great week, my dear friends! *huggles*

2005-03-24T16:15:00.000-06:00

Hi, everyone! I miss you guys! *huggles* I guess from now until May, I'll be fully immerse in school, work, and ongoing projects---being busy-er than usual. But I love it! It's so much fun. I'll tell you about it later though. But for now, I'm excited with my new schedule for this coming fall semester! This time I'm on top of my finances and was able to register on time when the registration for undergrads period opened yesterday. Here's my cool schedule (although for Mondays and Wednesdays, I wish I had morning classes, but these are the only times they offer these classes):

Mon. - 1:40pm-6:45pm - Public Speaking, Inferential Statistics (psychology), & Abnormal Psychology
Tues. - 9:30am-3:30pm - Metaphysics, 3-hour boring gap, & U.S. History (first part of U.S. History before 1877)
Wed. - same as Mon.
Thurs. - same as Tues.
Fri. - No class!
Sat. - No class this time (unlike this semester)

I'm so happy that I'm on my Easter break now. School resumes Monday, of course, but whew! It's been really hectic lately! So much to do, so little time, and yet the sun is burning for the summer... I just watched The Joy Luck Club a while ago. Great drama, and I could see loads of my Vietnamese culture in there too. The Chinese and Vietnamese cultures are so terribly alike. You guys should rent it. I need to read the book though, seeing that I've enjoyed the movie. It's both for tears and laughs all with storytelling. It took me a while to piece together who's who, because they do flashbacks a lot.

Which reminds me, I used to have an English professor in my college freshman year named Amy Tan. Too bad that it's not the real Amy Tan of this novel/screenplay. Hehe. *wink*

I miss you guys, I miss you guys, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you! *huggles* Just wanted to update so you guys won't have to worry that I've fallen off the planet. *smiles* I'll be back some time soon and bug the heck out of ya with my daily hellos and comments! *winks*

In the meantime, find those Easter eggs for me, catch the Easter bunny if you can, and have a great Easter break! Love you all!

2005-03-09T15:41:00.000-06:00

Somehow this little meme is strangely 97% accurate!! It made me laugh though:

Ah, where was I? Like I said, my little vacation (Spring Break) was too short, but a huge relief, since I didn't have to worry about exams after the break (which is why I'm laughing on the inside for sympathy of my peers who are taking exams all this week). Hehe. I'm FREEEEE!!

But it was relaxing. Watched movies (you guys should check out Cellular), cleaned up more of my stuff for the move. I think we will officially settle into our new home sometime in late May or so. Couldn't get around to reading for leisure, since I had enough things to do on my hands...

Anyway, I've been gone for a while, haven't I? I guess that's a mini-break also from Blogdom. I've been out and about. And I'm still slow on time. I'm still in February-mode, not March. I guess it's because February was too short.

I'm going to have to push myself harder and transform myself into a playwriting-demon. Seriously, I have so many little stories I want to write about, but I just don't know how to start them! I love Playwriting class, but I got to have at least 1 play done by this week, because my whole portfolio will be due sometime in April! And time is fast approaching!! You guys will help me proofread, edit, and critique them, right? I will give you lots of cyber-HUGS for sure! *smiles* (*near in panic mode*)

Anyway, the next couple of weeks will be an exciting time for me. I'll be engrossing myself in some kind of psychological research on a volunteer basis. I think this new project deals with marriage... Then I'll be inducted in the Psi Chi Honor Society (it's an honor society for psychology), and maybe run for president in the Psych Club? Oh, and I almost forgot: attending my cousin's engagement party pretty soon. And doing other really neat projects and activities which I can't remember at the moment... and there are still other activities that I want to do which I don't know much about yet... So BUSY is my middle name.

I'll get around to say "boo!" and "hello" to you guys pretty soon. I miss reading all of your blogs/sites! It's been more than a week, and I've missed a lot, didn't I? *wink* Anyway, take care, everyone! *huggles*

P.S. I love this weather now. Sunny, yet cool, and a bit breezy... I like Houston this time of year, when the days are like this and NOT b****ly RAINY! (Seriously, I think the Houston skies just love throwing outrageous tantrums. We have the floods, torn-off roofs, flipped-over cars, water-buried cars, vibrating walls and windows, etc. to prove that! Luckily not in my neighborhood!)

2005-02-26T23:06:00.000-06:00

2.24.04 entry at 12:45 am:

I am still amazed. My dog, Pikachu, came back this past Monday?! (She's a mixed golden retriever.) Anyway, she's been missing for like 2 or so months already! But before some unknown individuals dognapped her, she was pregnant, and we were expecting some 3-4 pups with this litter. But she came back after all of those months! That can't be possible, because usually when dogs run away from my house at least, they don't EVER come back---of course, they're home-disciplined and not street-disciplined enough to find their way back home if they got lost somewhere far, far faraway. So... my theory is that some unknown dognapper just stole those pups from that last litter and decided to let Pikachu come back to our house. (She's all skinny now, not skin-and-bone skinny--and it's evident that she's already had her litter somewhere.) And what do you know, after opening the back door to leave for school, she was right there wagging her tail and dog-purring with desire for us to pet her---more than thrilled to see us!

Funny how life is. We got rid of all of our pets (well, just parakeets), because we'll be moving soon. And now that Pikachu is back, after all this time we thought that she's gone, well, at least we have one more pet to deal with... To keep or not to keep? At least Pikachu is more disciplined than our horribly disobedient Pichu (the son of Pikachu; he has a white doggy coat), and we gave him away, for he was more than troublesome. We got enough of complaints from neighbors (and the neighbors made it worse because I think they're prejudice, probably because we're Asians?; which I'm glad we're moving out of this neighborhood.)...

2.26.04 entry at 11:06 pm:

Shall we call on the god of Zeus?? My gosh, it's been pouring rain in madness. The first day it started raining this week, I thought the roof was going to fall over my head, because the windows were shaking, and the walls were vibrating next to me. Plus with the cracks of thunder and lightning several yards away from me, just enough for electrocution. Well, at least that reminds me of the fact that Houston is one of the top cities in America with the highest probability of people getting struck by lightning... Scary weather at times if you ask me. LOL. Err, I guess I shouldn't have mentioned that if some of you guys plan to visit Houston someday, eh? Don't worry, the rain is part of our unpredictable weather patterns. It's bipolar, and plus, it's part of the spring showers season...

And guess what? I made an "A" on my history book report! I was so worried about it too, because I'm not so great with history. But yay! I did it with flying colors!!

And well, one week of break! No school, no work this coming Monday! Gonna grab some novels to read if I can, thanks to the courtesy of Martin. Finish up chores, cleaning up my junk so that I can move whatever I can to the new house, start on projects and my playwriting portfolio, and other reading assignments and homework... Yep, one busy week. And you call that vacation?? Did I mention that I'm always on the go, or you guys have already figured that out? *wink*

Anyway, have a great weekend! *huggles*

2005-02-22T00:08:00.000-06:00

Taken from Abhi's site (with a bit of my editing/addition; I did this little game before, but it was at LJ.):

You ask me 3 questions which I have to answer honestly and truthfully to the best of my knowledge and in return you allow others to ask you questions at your blog. That way the process gets repeated, and you get to learn some interesting facts/opinions about your fellow bloggers! Of course, creativity is encouraged!

Thanks for the input! <3 *huggles*

You scored as Fall. You are FALL. You appreciate all that you have, and are willing to share with others. You are a friend in the truest sense of the word, and can easily focus your attention on those who need you, placing yourself on the back burner. You make sure your responsibilities are met before you allow yourself free time.

Fall

80%

Winter

75%

Spring

60%

Summer

55%

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You Are 22 Years Old

22

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Kinda procrastinating. Should be studying for my history exam. But what the heck, quizzes are fun and act as great diversions! I need a break! Anyway, this is a freebie entry... So it's nothing really major. Just a bunch of fun-ness! hehe! 'Til the next entry, mes amis! <3 <3 <3

2005-02-17T22:25:00.000-06:00

Dear anyone,

I did a little Google search on my lovely name, and why in the world is it on BlogShares? And how the heck did I end up being there? What is this--a Wallstreet Journal of Blog-stocks? Please someone explain to me what's going on, and about this economic stuff on shares and stocks, etc. I remember hating economics back in high school, and all the stuff never really leaked into my brain for the life of me.

Dear Abhi and Mal'akh,

I've been forever trying to comment on your websites/blogs, and my comments were never posted, because of some "authorization code" that I have to type in before they ARE posted. And every single time I post, no matter which computer I'm on, whether at school or at home, I was never able to comment on any of your entries, even though I type in the "codes" every time! It made me really sad, because I visit both of your sites on a regular basis like I do everyone else's, and it's just so sad that my comments can't be posted anymore!! So what do I do? *cry*

Okay, my dear friends. Enough with the Dear Abby, Please help me notes... These past few weeks have been one hectic chaos after another. I'm balancing school, family life, work, and leisure and at the same time, fretting over the changes that will be soon taking place. A mixture of anxiety and excitement, I should say, but nevertheless, life can never be too boring for me.

Updates of sorts:

I must be really lucky. Remember that Mardi Gras/Financial Aid Fair I went to (or actually mentioned about in my last enties or so)? That was my first time winning a drawing! I never won a drawing before, and so I won a UST bookbag with some goodies in that bag (i.e. Houston Rockets poster, more beaded necklaces, pens, pencils, a squishy soft football that could be a dog's chew toy, etc. Some people also won Best Buy gift certificates and tickets to the Houston Rockets or was it the Astros? games...)

I went to Delaney's intense, dramatic play called Somebody's Sons on the Pay-whatever-you want Friday night. Gosh, that play was edge-on-the-seat drama, because it's so sad that these people want a functional family, but each individual is dysfunctional and have a crazy past and secrets of their own.

I'll be moving out of this house soon and into my new home some time in the next couple of weeks or so. Very nervous.

I just turned in a book report for U.S. History today. I think my paper is okay. History is not really my forte, but I'm enjoying the class, and so if you guys want to read it, knock yourself out and let me know what you think.

And speaking of papers in general, I really need to update my long-abandoned site at the Reviews.

After Valentine's Day, I got an email from him. Yes, him, after all of these months. (He did email me and wished me a happy Christmas last year.) Remember the guy I was talking about in my long-past entries? Remember I talked about unrequited love? He still wants to see me. I don't know how to respond to that, but just to say I'm a busy person now and I'm doing great... Well, nevertheless, we'll see how things will play out. Personally, I didn't much celebrate Val's day nor did it even make a dent in my heart. I was more preoccupied with my sister's birthday that day.

I finished Meg Cabot's Haunted, and I wish it was longer. I like the paranormal.

Next week is nothing but exams, and nothing but studying. I'm dreading it, but at least I have a one week's worth of Spring Break after that! Yay!

Anyway, enough rambles! Now for those bloghoppin' trips! *huggles*

2005-02-09T13:36:00.000-06:00

In response to MellowYellow:

Fat Tuesday is just a day set aside for people to enjoy their last day of eating full meals until the day starts with fasting on Ash Wednesday in Catholicism or Christianity... So, enjoy it while it lasts! And strangely, I think Mardi Gras happens to be on the same day as Fat Tuesday every year...

I am hopelessly scattered-brained today. I just can't seem to concentrate on what people are saying to me. It's not the lack of sleep nor is it my stomach growling at me for food. That's it: it must be this weather on its bloody PMS! *grumbles*

On a brighter note, I finally have a play in mind to write about. Now, I gotta start writing it! Plus, there are a few plays coming up pretty soon, and I need to make plans to go see them so that I can write my reports for my Playwriting class.

I didn't even know that BlueBell's Ice-cream got a flavor called "Birthday cake." I had it for dinner last night, and hey, that ice-cream does taste and looks like a chocolate birthday cake with sprinkles and all (but in ice-cream version, of course)...

Yesterday, I had a mini-Mardi Gras celebration at UST. I think enough people gave me enough beaded necklaces. Besides, I was wearing so many of them that I could've choked on them or have my poor neck bruised by all of those beaded inprints! So now, I can tell you that I shall count the rainbows, and I have the necklaces to prove it! Hehe. But anyway, UST also held a joint celebration with a Financial Aid Fair as well, so not only do I get those rainbow beaded necklaces, I also got treats and candy and a chance to win a scholarship giveaway! And on the doubleplus side, there was a live band called Sky Blue 72 who was performing, and they were awesome!

And oh yes, I almost forgot. It's Chinese New Year's today! And we Vietnamese folks have that as a part of our tradition. So... Happy Lunar Year to everyone! Oh, did I mention that it is the year of the Rooster? You Rooster folks are the acknowledged ones today!

Happy Ash Wednesday (even if you do not celebrate it, I still wish it), Happy Belated Mardi Gras, Happy Belated Fat Tuesday, and Happy New Year!

<3 Take care! *smooches*

2005-01-31T13:22:00.000-06:00

Some reasons for my head to hurt:

a) Just had a Playwriting exam, which I think I did fairly on. It's about the "principles" of playwriting. And doesn't one hate the principles and rules to almost everything? Oy, I think I must've left my brain back at stats class, because I almost drew a blank on my paper on the exam. I was also tempted to write "I don't know," or "I don't care," or "I don't remember."

b) My pen ran out of ink during the last few minutes of the exam.

c) I want some more zzz's. I hate morning classes.

d) The hot/cold fluctuations in this crazy weather. Can't it ever make up its mind?

A reason to be anxious/excited about:

I thought we're going to move to a new home AFTER my college graduation, but I think we'll be moving pretty soon---Spring Break or summer? I don't know, it's a tentative decision on my parents' part. But yesterday, I went and got a tour of the house, and I love it. One story, with 5 bedrooms and 4 bathrooms. There's supposed to be this gameroom, but it's converted into a bathroom and bedroom, which is going to be my room; so well, that's where the 5 beds and 4 baths came about. *shrug* Fine, works for me; everyone will have a room for themselves, except my parents of course. They'll have the master's bed plus a crazy walk-in closet and the jacuzzi in the bath.

And... don't worry, I'll still be in Houston and will still finish my studies at UST. Besides, I love it there. The only bad thing is that I'd have to wake up at least 2 hours early to save an hour's worth of driving and beating traffic jams. The upside: being near Grandfather at the nursing home, access to the mall and other daily services (i.e. grocery stores, school, work, etc.), and... we'll see what else to come...

*yawn* Ok, I'm going to log off this computer and go home and have a nice lunch. (Sometimes I wonder why I'm still at school...) A good day to you all! *huggles*

2005-01-26T22:07:00.000-06:00

There are disturbing events in the news as of late. The world has gone too haywire... and sick... and stupid---really, really stupid. *shudder*

1. An unregistered sex offender is now roaming the streets of Houston. His last offense was recently raping a girl on/near the school grounds of Jones High School, where her ripped clothes were scattered on the ground. I don't know what happened to the girl, whether or not if she's alive, but this was on Channel 13/11? I forgot which channel it was. But anyway, when the TV anchor-personnel showed the school on TV, I was shocked, because I used to be at this school for 3 years for my good ol' high school days. This is a ghetto neighborhood, but I'd never imagined myself knowing that this girl was raped on/near? the school grounds, which I happened to be a former student there... I used to put MY foot on that school, walking to classes, etc. It's just shocking. So hard to believe.

2. And here's another piece of weird news in the making. All last year at UST, there had been reports of a black/African American male who is a foot fetish, who goes into the UST library and massages girls' feet, while they're napping in the library. (We have comfy couches, and on the most stressful days, students grab some zzz's.) And it's a good thing I haven't waken up to find a stranger massaging my feet yet, and I don't think I'd want to! But anyway, last year, there was also and quite possibly the same foot fetish male walking the halls of the UH library as well, going around massaging girls' feet while they nap. So UH students, be alert for that! I don't know if the security at UST have caught this recent foot fetish yet nor do I know if there are any more reports of a foot fetish freak at UH, but well, it's better to take the zzz's somewhere else!

3. Currently on the news (on Channel 26 - FOX): A man was charged $750 for stopping his car on the emergency sidelines of the freeway to help a woman with her car, because it died on the road. He felt sorry for her, because the woman was with her kids, and he was just giving them a hand. Evidently, according to some freak-of-nature-Houston's rules, he was given that $750 ticket and was asked not to do that again, because apparently, we're not supposed to do that! You can't help a person with their broken-down car nor can you park on the sidelines of the freeway for some emergency, for you'll be fined and your car will be towed within 5-10 minutes(?) or something like that. My gosh, what is wrong with the "laws" of society today?? You just wanna smack these people for the sake of pure stupidity, because they just have no common sense! Also, maybe these people just want the $$$$$. At least if they have some rules for the road, inform the citizens, okay?? (Hopefully, I got most of the facts right. I heard snippets of this piece of news on TV while doing homework plus hearing my parents' opinions, while they were ranting about this unjust "road law." I'm beginning to think that this is just wasting time and money, because it's like the same situation as officials trying to change the speed limit to 55 for driving on the freeway about a couple of years ago, because there are too many car accidents, etc. As months gradually passed, Houston citizens' complaints increased dramatically, because they think the speed limit is too slow, and eventually, the original speed limit of 60 mph came back again... And thankfully, there are no more speeding tickets given to those unfortunate drivers speeding more than 55 mph.)

Whew! Enough with that! Now for updates:

A. I'm applying for an office worker/secretarial position at UST. And I think I just might get it, because I got an email from the biology professor who will be fixing a schedule soon! I'm excited, because I'm used to doing office-kind of work; and on the plus-side, I'm already at school, and I work just about 2-3 hours per day. (Yes, I've taken into account my busy schedule with school and homework, etc.)

B. Well, it looks like my parents are gradually getting very near to a decision about home-shopping. They are narrowing it down to a few homes now. And so, if I do move, my summer break will consist of moving furniture and other heavy burdens. But I'll still be in Houston, of course... LOL. Just in a different part of the city.

C. It's good to see friends again (they're in some of my classes this semester!). But now, I want to see my old friends from high school again, who have helped me thru so much! I miss them!

D. I made it on the Dean's List for Academic Excellence at UST! I'm happy.

E. I'm also eligible for another scholarship! (UST sent me mail.) Now I gotta turn it in!

F. I want to do some undergraduate research this year (another biology prof sent email to all students announcing this). I enjoy doing hands-on experience with things.

G. Lately, I'm a chocoholic and a carot-o-holic. Translation: I'm eating lots of Ferrero Rocher chocolates (I can't resist them!) and well, carrots with Ranch salad dressing. Ha! I've turned into the chocoholic Bugs Bunny! Now you ask me where/when/how I got the craving? Answer: I'll blame my mother for having bought me this big box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates as a part of a Christmas present... And I'll blame my eggroll-radar for making me want to crave carrots. The "eggroll-radar" is just my short phrase describing whenever I'm making eggrolls, we use carrots as one of the ingredients for making eggrolls. And so, my "eggroll radar" senses the sight/smell of carrots, and triggers the craving. So you'll see me munching on carrots every other day at least.

H. Rambling must've been my hidden middle name. I wonder if it could be an anagram... Nevermind. LOL. By combining my 3 names, I don't have the letters R, M, B, L, or I.

Toodles for now! *huggles* Happy early weekend to you all!

2005-01-20T21:17:00.000-06:00

This is one of the most hilarious quizzes ever! Very classic! I think I might add this to the "About this site" section for my blog...

Voila, here are some more books I've finished so far, and I guess I won't be reading any more novels for personal entertainment for the rest of this semester, because I already have a pile of homework with lots of reading to do! So sadly, I had to return the unread books back to the library.

Addiction and Obsessed by G.H. Ephron --->Psychology + medicine = very fascinating!

In other news, I've watched this cheesy comedy film called Kung Phooey! about a couple of days ago, and the jokes they made are horribly stupid, but funny. Even the characters' names are made fun of. I recommend it to everyone, if you guys want a Friday's Laughing/Comedy Night for yourselves.

Anyway, I used to hate anime, because I used to think they're mindless, stupid cartoons, but when I started watching a few (my sister introduced the world of anime to me, by bringing loads of anime dvd's home and whatnot), some were pretty good. Of course, anime is so unAmerican and they have endings that made you think, unlike the predictable/happy/sometimes lame endings in American cartoons. Watching this stuff helped me understand what the Japanese culture is like and how it is quite feverishly popular in America today. Not only do the Japanese brainstorm some great storylines, but they are artists! I mean, look at The Grudge, for example. It is based on the Japanese version, Ju-on, and the only thing that is holding up the American version of this same storyline is that we have the famous Sarah Michelle Gellar to get the box office tons of cash! And it's the same case with the American version of The Ring as well.

Now, it would make us wonder whether America is losing its imagination. What happened to the creativity? the originality in people? Are they so full of money-greedy-minds that they are looking towards other countries to do the thinking for them, in such things like storylines for movies? I am taking Playwriting now, and I will be working on my portfolio this semester, and I can't wait! BUT... If you're going to be a screenwriter (for movies/films, etc.), be original! Don't "borrow" ideas from other countries! Have we forgotten the meaning of the true heart of the artist?! I sure hope not! (And on second thought, I also wonder if other countries borrow ideas from us as well, and some include "democracy" and our educational system. The list goes on. Oh yeah, the world does go in circles, doesn't it?)

[But to note what I've been watching recently, I've finished most of the episodes of Please Teacher!, and it's such a heartfelt story on love. A student has to marry his sexy teacher, because they were caught in this room together, and to get away from punishment they had to lie that they were married, when originally, they weren't. They barely knew each other! The thing that makes everything complicated is that the teacher is an alien, and the student has some kind of a psychological breakdown at times, which the term "standstill" is coined in this anime. But... If you really want to know, go watch! I don't really want to spoil the ending.]

Anyway, this week went by fairly quickly. I actually enjoyed all of my classes so far, and the professors are really enthusiastic and interesting. I love the methods they use for teaching their lectures (I hate textbook-ridden teachers, and non-interactive teachers who don't want to let students interact/participate in class.). And... I actually think that my U.S. History class would be enjoyable this semester. Wow! That's a change, because I always dread history, and if given any other subject, I would totally avoid it! The only class I can't wait to attend is my clinical psychology class... So I'm going to have to wait until Saturday to see how it's like.

Phooey! That's enough rambling for now! I must bore you guys to tears, right?! I sure hope not!

Love you! Signing off for now!

2005-01-13T01:23:00.000-06:00

Dear April,

I love you, girl! This layout is great (although it took me since 4ish pm today till now to finish it up; whew!)! All is well, ends well.

Dear Everyone,

After much html-full-blown-brain-workout all this time, I think I'm getting sick. Hopefully, I won't puke on this keyboard. But anyway, on a brighter note, I am finished with lots of things this week:

1. Spring cleaning (My hand-washed clothes, that is, and I own so many of them that it's nearly impossible to stuff them all in the washer, because they're all so delicate. These clothes will rip, frightfully shrink, or all the sparkly accessories, such as glitter or sequins will fall off, etc. The list goes on, and sometimes I wonder why everyone, including myself, keeps buying me these kinds of clothes. Haha. Oh yeah, and I am sooo glad that my poor mother stopped nagging me about this spring cleaning too, because I finally found the time to wash these clothes. *giggles* No, they were not horribly feet-smelly stinky, just to let you know.)
2. Mailing important documents to my scholarships for school this semester
3. Finished watching The Grudge, after the whole world has seen it
4. Finished doing a girly-romantic-comedy-novel marathon; for those with the most asterisks, I highly recommend. (Yes, these books were good enough for a good cry and a hearty laugh anytime.)

**Shopaholic & Sister by Sophie Kinsella
*Pushing 30 by Whitney Gaskell
**PS, I love you by Cecelia Ahern
*Apocalipstick by Sue Margolis
*Spin Cycle by Sue Margolis

But I still have 1 more girly book to go, plus 3 psychological thrillers to read.
5. Viola! I am happy with my schedule for this semester as follows:

Mon. - 9:00am-12:00pm - Statistics (psychology) & Playwriting
Tues. - 9:30am-3:30pm - Ethics, 3-hour boring gap, & U.S. History (*insert groans here* Oh yeah, did I ever mention that I hate history, and am forever horrible in that subject, but somehow miraculously do well enough to pass?)
Wed. - same as Mon.
Thurs. - same as Tues.
Fri. - 11:00am-12:00pm - Playwriting
Sat. - 10:00am-1:00pm - Clinical psychology

It's raining now. I never understand this Houston weather, even though I live here all my life. It's driving me nuts! But arrrgghh! I can smell the approach of the spring/summerish weather coming soon---oh, the humidity, the perspiration, the flip-flops, the shorts and tees, the blinding sun, the annoying flies, the blood-sucking critters... OH, OH, OH! *faints*

Heehee. I can't wait to see how my playwriting course is like for this semester. I'd be glad to share my works with you all, and you guys can give me critiques.

In other news, I'm worried about my elderly neighbor. She's the sweetest person ever. She called me today just to go over to her apartment to get the curtains to fully cover the light from the windows. And she couldn't reach them, because it's like 3 feet above her head, and she couldn't get up. My, I haven't seen her like this. I've always known her to be a restless walker, always preoccupied with things. And it's so sad to see her sick in bed.

And then I'm also worried about my grandfather, and according to my mom, he's not doing as well as before anymore. I haven't seen him for a week or so already, and I usually visit him every Sunday. And so, I'm worried, but I can't do much for them, except just to do the little favors they ask of me, like fixing the window curtains, and praying for them to get better, and so on. But other than that, these elderly folks are like little adorable babies---so sweet, yet wise.

Well, this has been one heck of an entry, right? I'm going to get some zzz's, for I gotta wake up tomorrow for work... Bye, everyone! Luv ya!

2005-01-10T21:01:00.000-06:00

Quizzes and Memes (out of amusement and idleness):

Your Beauty lies in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You are the girl in the little black number that no one seems to know, the eternal mystery girl. You make it a point to never let anyone know more about you than you want them to and do a very good job of it. You're there one minute and gone the next leaving them in wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally calm individual, quiet and enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own, most likely preferring night to day, you love the dark and some may find you a bit strange. You seem to be rather distant and cold making hard for people to get close to you, though you probably like the distance they usually keep. You probably wear make-up, but concentrate more around your eyes than anything. You know the effect you have and enjoy keeping people in wonder.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element: Dark, Water
Animal: Panther
Color: Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones
Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression: Sly Smile

Gemstone:
Black Diamond
Mythological Creature: Demon, Vampire
Sign: Scorpio
Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black
Eye Color:
Garnet

Quote: "In the shadows for all time."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie?
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Your aura shines Blue!

What Color Is Your Aura?
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You Are the Individualist

4

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

You scored as Lust.

Pride

50%

Lust

50%

Greed

38%

Sloth

25%

Wrath

25%

Gluttony

19%

Envy

12%

Seven deadly sins
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You scored as alternative. You're partially respected for being an individual in a conformist world yet others take you as a radical. You have no place in society because you choose not to belong there - you're the luckiest of them all, even if your parents are completely ashamed of you.

alternative

71%

Middle Class

54%

Upper middle Class

54%

Lower Class

42%

Luxurious Upper Class

29%

What Social Status are you?
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Type your name with your...

Nose: ksaz65y76y
Elbow: katrhy
Chin: k,masthyu
Feet: ikazryhy
Eyes closed and one finger: mxhmj
Back of hand: lkwthy
Palm: klaythjy
Wrist: k,azgthnhnyh

I am very much excited this semester to get back to school! I can hardly wait. Tomorrow I'm going to UST to change my schedule; and since I was put on the waiting list, I am so glad to get that stats class, which is required for my psych major! Woohoo! Also, I need to grab my grade report for my scholarships and whatnot.

In other news, I guess work for me ends this Thursday... It's been an interesting experience working in retail, but I listened to music all along, so it's good. I'm going to miss those Sam Goody folks though; they're a riot!

I was going to say something else, but for the life of me, I can't even remember now... But for my next entry, it'll be something really interesting! In the meantime, everyone, take care! And I've updated the RSS Feed link for those of you who are interested! *wink*

2005-01-04T03:40:00.000-06:00

Happy Belated New Year, everyone! Of course, I dropped by all of your blogs/sites to wish you that.

Anyway, I thought this quiz was cute, and I had a great time with these random answers...

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Wear more lacy black lingerie.

Get your resolution here

--->I already own that!

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Spend my summer vacation in cyberspace.

Get your resolution here

--->I always do this at one point or another!

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Stop making silly resolutions.

Get your resolution here

--->Some of us haven't even completed our last year's resolutions, so why make new ones? And besides, making them sometimes mean we don't keep them in the new year. Hehe. Aren't we interesting rational creatures?

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Stop refreshing this page until I get the answer I want.

Get your resolution here

--->Now this answer is priceless.

And here's another quiz---thanks to Maddie!

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Anyway, this little page here is dedicated to all nice guys. Enjoy. It's nice to know that there are still nice guys around, for the world needs more of you. Besides, I always fall for nice guys, so this is a definitely must read, right girls? --->The Nice Guy Rant (taken from my high school friend's Xanga).

I'm glad it finally snowed on Chrismas Eve! It was enough for snowball fights! I was happy, and I think it was a blessing for me and for all Houstonians who had never seen or experienced snow! And here I was complaining how Houston never snowed! It finally did! A miracle!

Other than that, Christmas was fun, but short! It's almost back to school! But I'm working---still at Sam Goody. Yay! I now do not have to listen to any more Christmas music! It's gotten into my head that I hear them while I'm sleeping! Yikes!

New Year's Eve = my car died. New Year's Day + 1 more day afterwards = firecrackers, church, shopping (I bought a beautiful formal dress and polo shirts for work), my car is finally fixed! Sleep...

I read a lot this winter break. I have like 12 more novels waiting for me in the library, and I can't wait to start on it! Which reminds me: I've finished with Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov and Incubus Dreams by Laurell K. Hamilton (I love this author!). I've also read some manga and watched movies this past Christmas...

And that's it for now! Whew, what an entry! *smooches and huggles* Until next time!

2004-12-23T14:45:00.000-06:00

Current GPA: 3.88
Cumulative GPA: 3.21

Not bad. My GPA could've been EVEN higher this semester, but taking biology and chemistry for one whole year last year sorta screwed up everything. Not only that, I was still trying to recover from my major depression period (from last year of high school--we coined the now-famous term "senioritis"), so I think I pushed myself too hard. I'm actually glad to be a college sophomore now, still trying to decide if I want to double major, travel for a couple of years, etc. But I'm certain that I'll major in psych and minor in creative writing.

Anyway, my parents are still house-hunting, and with that in mind, I might be at Prairie View or Texas A&M for grad school, but I was originally planning UH-Main, because they have the clinical neuropsychology grad program I wanted to apply for, based on the blessings of many people, including professors from Rice. So we'll see what the future holds.

It has been an interesting week for me so far. It finally feels like Christmas. I'm hoping this cold, windy weather will last till Xmas Day, because every year, it's always so warm and sunny... And of course, if you live in Houston, there's no SNOW!! *cry* Yeah, have pity. I wanted snow, and I want snow now! The last snow event I remembered was when I was in 3rd grade, and that was ages ago.

Anyway, working at Sam Goody @ Almeda Mall has been interesting. I have to work both day and night shifts, depending on the schedule... And so it's exhausting. I have fun at the same time though, but I'm more used to the professional/office kind of jobs. Working in retail is a different experience for me altogether. And since it's Xmas, I had to work as a "bouncer" (Hey, it's not my fault. My boss gave me that name, because I had to watch customers going in and out of the store, because the alarm kept beeping every 15 minutes or so.), with my walkie-talkie and all, despite my height (hehe. I'm only 5'!). Other than that, finding stuff for the customers and rearranging things are my duties for now, since I'm still in training, I think... All in all, I'm saving up for future uses with what I'm working for. So it should be worth it. Everyone's really friendly, laid-back, and cool though, so that's good.

In other news, I've finished the most recent books by Parnell Hall, And a Puzzle to Die On, and by Keith Ablow, Murder Suicide. I love mystery and psychological thrillers, especially Ablow's books. And it would be kinda cool to meet him one of these days. He's actually a famous forensic psychiatrist (working with the nation's well-known crimes) aside from being a writer!

Well, happy holidays, everyone! I'll be back soon, if not the new year for my resolutions! *wink* (I'm going to take a much-needed break from Blogdom again, plus I got Xmas parties to attend to, presents to open and give, people I want to see, novels to finish reading, movies to finish watching, and of course, my work at Sam Goody to deal with.) You are all in my thoughts, okay?? *smooches and hugs*

2004-12-11T17:10:00.000-06:00

All the things I'm done with:

1. Those 7 or so papers & child psych project
2. No more classes!
3. Service Learning (internship/community service at ESCAPE)
4. Taking care of my financial aid stuff
5. Registering for next semester's classes
6. Circus of the Damned by Laurell K. Hamilton, Killer Heels by Sheryl J. Anderson, and Fire Angels by Christine Green.

Things I'm almost done with:
1. Bloghopping
2. Xmas shopping for presents
3. Final exams (boohoo!)
4. New blog layout!

Things I need to do or will be doing:
1. Send cards and presents
2. Xmas-related things (Xmas parties, seeing people, etc...)
3. Working at Sam Goody (Dec. 18th noon shift)

Thanks to Jen for these cute holiday quizzes. (I couldn't take the last quiz that is shown on her most recent entry though...)

Rudolph: You're the one who lights up everyone's day
and you let no one get made fun of. GO YOU!!!! :o)

What Christmas character are you? (with pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

You are 'Hark! The Herald Angels Sing'. You take
Christmas very seriously. For you, it is a
religious festival, celebrating the birth of
the Saviour, and its current secularisation
really irritates you. You enjoy the period of
Advent leading up to Christmas, and attend any
local carol services you can find, as well as
the more contemplative Advent church services
each Sunday. You may be involved in Christmas
food collections or similar charity work. The
midnight service at your church, with candles
and carols, is one you look forward to all
year, and you also look forward to the family
get together on Christmas Day (plus friends).

What Christmas Carol are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Be good, be safe, and don't forget to throw away calendars... Also, don't forget your New Year's resolutions and try *cough, cough* not to get the years mixed up when you're writing... Hehe, like there was a time for like a week when I kept dating my school assignments with the previous year when it's already a new year! LOL. *holiday hugs*

2004-12-07T19:04:00.000-06:00

Hi, everyone!

Long time no blog and visiting!! *smooches* Yes, I miss every one of you!! *huggles* Finals are crammin' for me! Luckily, I'm exempt from my Modern Lit final; besides, I made an A in that class. What could be higher than that?

Anyway, while studying for my exams, I'm currently working on this new layout as you can see. I'm not really finished with it yet, but viola, I hope you enjoy the nice photos of yours truly, moi. Hehe. *wink*

I'll be back soon, okay? I'm still somewhat busy.

1 psych extra credit to turn in, 1 more Modern Lit (English) essay to turn in, 1 more Saturday of Service Learning at the ESCAPE place, and lots of study groups to attend to so that I will ace every single one of my exams. After that, I'm heading to Sam Goody to start my job this Christmas.

If I don't start blogging or visiting you guys, I have not forgotten any of you! I miss you guys terribly, but nevertheless, A BIG early HAPPY HOLIDAYS to everyone!

*huggles*

2004-11-17T13:19:00.000-06:00

My birthday was really lovely. (I'm happy, because it's been years since I've had a lovely one.) Thank you everyone for your birthday wishes, e-cards, and presents. Thank you, April, for the Lotus theme layout. It gave me an inspirational Oriental feeling. :) This weekend (I think), I will be having my 20th birthday photo posted here, so I'll be going to Star Shots at Almeda. So that'll be interesting. You guys will finally see the real life A~Lotus in person (sorta).

Remember those cheesy nature/scary attacks movies, like those movies with killer bees, giant spiders, Godzilla, etc. that dominated the earth and obliterated everything in sight, and then at the end of the movie(s), the protagonists still survived? Well, after coming home yesterday from school, my whole family and I were attacked by a swarm of JUMBO black flies! And thanks to the invention of fly swatters, we managed to kill them all! At first, we thought it was because of the humid, sticky rainy weather... but, well, it turned out that there was a dead rat in the attic, and thus, that's where all the flies were coming from!! My gosh, I thought that those flies would never stop popping up. After we killed one, there's another... SWAT! Oh, look there's another one!

Anyway, I've been noticing a certain fashion accesory to cars as of late. There are ribbon stickers on car bumpers everywhere I go, and I'm trying to figure out if that's a certain fashion trend for cars now? What is up with that? For example, pink ribbon stickers for breast cancer awareness, yellow ones for "supporting our troops," red-white-blue ones for patriotism, etc. Did I miss something? LOL. It's just interesting to note, and besides, the article I found actually kinda read my mind. Some of the writings on the ribbon stickers are soooooo tiny that you'd risk a car accident if you're trying to decipher what's written on them. What a strange world we live in. Never fails to amuse me.

Aside from these musings, I'm having a hard time trying to figure out a schedule to finish 6-7 essays by the end of this semester! I am dreading these essays, because I'm trying to figure out how will I ever pull this off? I mean, it's 7 essays!! Boohoohoo!! *moans, groans, cries*

On the bright side, I can't wait for Thanksgiving! The essence of foooood!! and of course, I have much to be thankful for!

I'm just ready for a long break, because I'm super tired.

Ooooh, guess what, you guys??! If all is well, I think I'll be working at Sam Goody at Almeda this Christmas! Yay! Not only do I need to start my own personal savings account, but did I mention that I need the cash for daily necessities?? Seriously, I'm on 2 loans for school (thank God, the interest rates are low), and so I need the cash to start saving up by the time I graduate so I can pay back the money I borrowed, since UST's tuition is sooo expensive. So April, maybe you'll see me there some time?? *wink*

Anyway, I'd love to meet all of you guys here on Blogdom, but talk about the measurement called DISTANCE! Whew! *giggles*

Well, it's been a long week. Yes, I'm always on the go (so great of you to pick that up, April *wink*), even though I'm at times restless and exhausted simultaneously.

Did I also mention that I miss people? I haven't seen my high school close knit of friends for almost 2 years already!! *cry* Such is life, but I'm optimistic. I know we'll cross paths again.

Toodles for now, everyone! Think I've rambled enough. *grins* Take care!

2004-11-06T14:30:00.000-06:00

I AM absolutely exhausted. I wish the weekends were longer. Then I have enough time to sleep, sleep, sleep, read mystery/dark horror novels for leisure, catch up on watching movies that I haven't seen in a zillion years while the whole world has already seen it, and so on...aside from doing homework, projects and whatnot...

This Service Learning (think community service, but it's for a class grade) project is at ESCAPE, where it not only gives support, help, and enrichment classes to build better families and relationships, but I am almost physically tired from playing with the kids. (It's fun, but geez, sometimes I forget how EXTREMELY active they are!) Gosh, it makes me wonder how kids can go thru so many conflicts with just their parents going thru divorce and stuff. I'm glad it's almost Thanksgiving, and I am more than thankful to have both of MY own parents living in the same home... Divorces are scary. Kids being stuck in the middle of divorces is twice as scary...

I am way behind in bloghopping again... and updating as well, and I miss everybody here in Blogdom. It seems like the remainder of this semester is going to be extra busy for me, especially Saturdays like today... I enjoy it, but I wish I have more of a social life at times. I miss my friends a lot. I am barely at home. In some ways, that's both good and bad. But still, I can imagine myself doing things for people 10 years from now. And I have already begun to look into grad school... Clinical neuropsychology is my area of interest...

Hey, April! I love the layouts you've done to your blogs. So creative. If I send you a pic of me, would you like to do a layout for me with my pic??? *pouts with a puppy face* Pllleeeease?? :)

Hehe, and yes, my birthday is coming up next week, everyone... so... I'm gonna treat this blog with a layout of a picture of me, so you guys will all know what I look like aside from my Lotus doll. *wink* Hehe.

Tchao, everyone! And have a great weekend!

P.S. How exactly old is 20 years?? I particularly don't feel like I'm 19 now. I feel like I'm 10 on days when I'm extremely happy (even without a reason) and 16 on days when I think life does things to you and you say that it isn't fair...

2004-10-27T12:01:00.000-05:00

Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday dear Blog...

(takes a deep breath)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Ah, what do you know? My blog is adorably 1 years old today and my loveable and huggable home, where I can have all the fun I want!

And while we're on that subject, I've treated my blog to another online quiz, because it sums up what kind of blog this site is, aside from the fact that I love making fun of things in a light tone, of course. I mean, why take life seriously, right? To my close loved ones and the like, they all think I'm too serious---a complete goody-two-shoes, but underneath it all, I just want to have fun and enjoy life. I love adventures; I love what life has to offer me. There are too many possibilities and opportunities to experience it all! (But really, I think too much, and sometimes I stress myself out more than I really need to...)

You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.
If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

What kind of blogger are you?

Anyway, I haven't the slightest idea when my next update will be, but I'd like to wish everyone a very safe Happy Halloween! My Halloween holiday is filled with exams to study for, projects to work on, and presentations to prepare for... And papers... *sigh* No trick-or-treating for me. Oh yeah, and also my Service Learning project I have to do on the eve of Halloween, so I can get those service hours as a psych grade. And working with kids and their families would be twice as interesting.

Here's an interactive make-it-yourself Jack-o'-lantern if you're interested. Kinda reminds me of that voodoo doll thing. LOL. Be good!

And here's another quiz, just because I think it's cute.

You Are a "Wink"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

Looks just like my kitty face =^-^= doesn't it?

A few days ago, I have this weird craving for corndogs... Gosh, I haven't eaten corndogs in so long that I've forgotten how they taste like. What triggered this craving is from watching The Princess Diaries, starring Anne Hathaway, since there was a scene that shows her eating a corndog with her grandmother...

I'm still looking forward to watch Hero, The Grudge, The Ring 2, and along with other movies of which I can't recall on the top of my head at the moment.

I've finished Visions in Death by J.D. Robb (aka Nora Roberts) and plan to finish all of the series. I like the paranormal romance---very much like the gothic dark mystery/horror fantasy novels I read. My brother says I read too much, and as a result of that, everyone in my extended family thinks I'm the nerdiest.

I wish I was a nerd. I would make more A's and don't have to worry about studying! Hehe. That's one good thing about being a "nerd".

I wonder how many times a day the average person uses the word "I"? I tend to talk more about myself when I'm writing then when I'm speaking to others... That's logical for me, because I'm not very open talking about myself to others until I get to know them... and trust them, of course.

I miss everybody on here. My apologies for not updating for so long and for also not updating my calendar. Whew! Believe me, I've been quite busy---or at least busy enough.

Yesterday, there was no theology class! Yay! I was more than happy to go home and sleep. I need those little , and I savor them all.

I love that song from Aladdin: A Whole New World.

I think I must've written a novel of an entry by now. So toodles, and take care, everyone!

P.S. I was unable to get into Blogger until now. Is it just me, or the server is going waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay slow??! (Very clever of me to have written this entry a bit early...)

2004-10-13T01:50:00.000-05:00

Today's entry:

My 2-day midsemester break was too short. I was bored all day yesterday, waiting for my mom in the waiting room just so her surgery process can be completed. She had to remove a lump of fat at her side above her waist, since it was bothering her. I'm glad that that lump wasn't some unfortunate sign of breast cancer or any other cancer, for that matter. But gosh, I feel really bad leaving her all alone today at home, while I'm at school. But she needs the rest and the nourishment of the good old sick-foods like soup, more soup, and water and juice, etc.

I designated this past Monday as the ultimate cleaning day for me. I sorted out my old clothes---discarded the ones I couldn't wear anymore, etc. Plus, I did chores. And now, my side of the room (I have to share with my other 2 sisters, so our room is huge, if it's not too cluttered) feels absolutely empty.

My parents are still house-hunting. *yawn* So I haven't the slightest clue when I'll be moving yet. So far, it's hovering to a place even south-er than where I am now (southeast Houston).

I've finished 4 hours of of watching TV for my child psych project, but I need to add in a children's educational program. Does anyone watch Barney, Sesame Street, or any of that stuff early in the morning? I'd watch it, but I have school, and since I was thrown off-schedule these past 2 days, I wasn't able to watch any. The purpose of this project is to document any deception, aggression, and violence the lead characters use in the TV program.

Okay, you guys, enough of my rambles. You can stop reading from here. LOL. A good day to you all! Happy Wednesday!

P.S. Last night, my car was completely vandalized and robbed, but not nearly as devastating as my 3-4? friends who accompanied me (they drove their own cars as well). Luckily, it was only a dream. My dreams are getting stranger by night and more difficult to decipher by day. Hehe.

1:50 am entry:

Gosh, I hate the night sometimes. Insomnia can also mean deep and depressingly morbid thoughts for me, because my thoughts are way TOO LOUD for my head or ears, even in the silence.

It seems as if I'm always emailing my heart out to a ghost, because I never get any replies back. Go figure. I always feel like I'm not important or worth enough to that person. I guess, even the word "friendship" doesn't exist in that person's vocabulary, and I'm on the verge of giving up trying to make things work. And it always makes me cry with frustration and that pang of heartache just kicks a huge dent at the core of my heart, and I don't think the heart mechanic can even fix that.

And just seeing those photos from the people I've crossed lives with, but don't know as well, of photos of people I DO KNOW, I am trying really, really hard not to bite and bruise my tongue literally, because it's a way for me to not cry too much. I'm just going to give up and back off for now. Let the person just come to you, whenever the need drives that person. I'm pretty sure I never did anything wrong, and if I did, it would have been pointed out to me a long time ago. And I can't live that long to make the same mistakes twice! But yeah, I'm just horribly frustrated, and I don't want to think about this way too much, because it always bothers me.

But lately or ever since the last half of this past summer, I kept myself extra busy---everything I do, it'll be a diversion from all sources of pain and depression. And so far, it has helped. I need to start worrying about myself more, because I sometimes forget to take care of myself when I worry about others...sometimes a bit more than I really need to.

Shall the word "jaded" be an appropriate word to the way I'm feeling right now? It could...more or less.

2004-10-08T13:21:00.000-05:00

10.06.04 entry:

Last night, I was a celebrity, adorned with a silky cherry-red ao dai, with diamonds glittering in my hair... I was perfectly flawless. (I definitely looked different---a bit older, that's for sure. I didn't recognize myself, but I knew it was me.) There were thousands of people---a crowd so big that I couldn't even count them all, but they were wildly cheering for me, and some were crying with joy. And strangely, I was getting married---getting married into a royal bloodline, and I was going to be even twice as famous than I was before, since if I were to marry, I will now be a princess, with a royal title now attached to my name. But even though everything was perfect, I sensed that something was wrong at the last minute. I felt like I was a pawn in some kind of conspiracy---for that word, conspiracy, kept flashing like big RED warning signs in front of me, and I was suspicious and I did not really want to get married. I kept asking the people who arranged this wedding for me if they knew something was up, but they refused to respond, which confirmed my suspicions even more that I know that they were somehow a part of the conspiracy. I haven't the slightest idea what was going on and I couldn't figure it out, so my frustration grew until I nearly found myself almost falling off of a windowsill of a tower, and hands reached out to help me up to safety.

And I finally found myself led to the main stage---the altar and the mysterious groom both waiting for me. And I was not ready. I did not want to get married until I figure out what the conspiracy was. In my gut, it told me that it was a political conspiracy. And since I'm horrible when it comes to history and politics, I pieced together my own hypothesis: if I were to get married into this royal bloodline, this would not be for love, but for political purposes or for status; ergo, I am the pawn.

I stood there stubborn, seeing everyone, my family, friends, relatives, my fans (yes, I was already famous before this unfortunate wedding) waiting for me to complete my own dreams of a romantic wedding. No, I will not. I will not marry, I kept saying to myself. I will not give up my values and moral principles and the things I treasure and cherish most that are important to me. I will NOT marry........................................................................

And when I woke up, I was glad that it was only a dream, for I was like, "Huh? What kind of dream was that? It doesn't make any sense. No sense at all."

Got interpretations, anyone?

10.07.04 entry:

I am Progressive Girl
Click on the picture below to read more:

Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com

Thanks, April for the interesting quiz. You rock, babe. This made my day.

Today's entry (without any further ramblings.. lol):

I think I got a total of 3 or so projects/presentations to prepare for and work on. A midterm English exam to study for. More poetry to read. A Service Learning Program (or community service for a grade) to start on. Stats homework to complete... And now Poker Nite at UST. No, I'm not going to gamble. It's for a charity we're trying to help out, so it's for a good cause. So I'm busy, busy, busy. I'm sorry for not updating. But I'm still here. So no worries! So yeah, TGIF and it's Poker Nite! So I think I'll burn off some steam today. It's been a heck of a week. Midterms, studying, reading, writing papers... Argghh! No wonder my head keeps getting these little twitches of migraines... I'm glad my head didn't do this: just yet... But oh, how I adore thee, Sweet Slumber! I need you now, for Fatique has been my company these past several weeks, and she's been wearing me down. I'm happy to have a 4-day break! Woohoo! So I'm not going back to school 'til Wednesday, but I got lots of stuff due when I get back... Great. *sarcasm* Just great...

Well, hope you guys have a great weekend! *huggles* Be good now!

2004-09-27T19:20:00.000-05:00

3am. entry:

It feels good to have finally deleted all of my entries on LJ. I feel as if my past pains have been lifted away from me. Yeah, basically, LJ was like a high school journal for me. It went from happy-go-lucky to severe depression. Gosh, I just skimmed thru some of those entries, and it brought back a hell-load of heartaches. I can't believe I went thru so much... A total nightmare.

REMINDER (or at least a note to self): I'm going to have to go back and do that for Blogger. There are some of the earliest entries I really want to delete or at least modify.

3:30pm entry:

Today was absolutely pretty. Warm sunshine, a light breeze. Swirling leaves on the ground. Perfect feel of autumn. I feel as if I'm floating on Cloud Nine. Why is it that it is always this kind of time of year when I feel mushy enough for love? Now who would be my Prince?

I think I made an A on my stats exam.

Oreos with double cream are soooo good , especially with milk.

I am home really early today. It feels unusual. I'm never home THIS early.

My legs are sore---can't seem to stand up or walk correctly. They feel like lead. I think that's because of all of my running around at the Elephant Toss Booth at the church bazaar Sunday... 2 hours or so minutes went by really fast. There are lots of people, and the kids are soooo adorable, especially when they win prizes from those games. I had fun though, despite the juices of perspiration running down me from head to toe. A good bath washes all of that gunk away though. LOL.

Lately, I've been dreaming about past relationships and friendships with people in a bizarre, surreal way, but I forget by the time I wake up. The only thing I can remember from those dreams is my longing to be with them.

Is anyone good at dream interpretation? What does this mean: a person is attempting to kill (and actually performs the killing, like strangling) newborn puppies, feels guilty and panicky about nearly killing those helpless puppies, but manages to revive all of the puppies and feels a whole lot better---relief? If anyone is good at dream interpretation, give me a ring. Seriously, I dreamt this, and that person who's the "puppy killer" was ME. *gasps* I was more than shock to have this dream and then to wake up and remember this. It was scary. I wouldn't do anything like that; it's just so cruel!

P.S. Today is Monday. I usually don't post on Mondays. Uhhh, did I miss something again? *scratches head*

Toodles for now, everyone!

2004-09-22T22:45:00.000-05:00

Bah! I keep getting side-tracked whenever I'm on the computer. The nagging Internet keeps calling me, urging me, luring me... and I just couldn't resist to check my email, blog, or mostly surf... LOL. And shhh, don't tell anyone, I'm SUPPOSED to be working on my psych paper, and I've attempted to start on it 3 days ago, but I keep getting distracted. *sighs* So... this would be a short entry.

Today, I got a chance to meet Brad Barkley, a really interesting writer at the Lit Society meeting I went to today, and plus we got a chance to interview him. I also wanted to go to his reading at 7pm, but I'm a busy person, so I couldn't go. I have to get my psych paper done and other miscellaneous things... Anyway, we discussed a bit about his new book called Another Perfect Catastrophe and Other Stories, and since those books didn't arrive on time for us to see them and stuff, my English prof made us copies of some samplings from Barkley's new book. I quickly scanned a couple, and I think humor is one of the hardest things to write about or at least using humor when writing, and his works are funny and witty. I mean, you might think that what you write is funny, but other people might think that what you write isn't. So, I'm going to read more from his new book and see what else is new. :-D And the coolest thing is that he gave us some really good writing tips. Hehe. You guys are looking at a crazy obsessed poet (Me me me!), who is also thinking about doing a collection of short stories or even novels... (I've attempted the novel over the summer. Didn't get anywhere close to being done.) :P

Well, but for now, I gotta focus on one. thing. at. a. time. SERIOUSLY. I used to have my brain do all sorts of multi-tasking, but errr, it doesn't work anymore. I think I've over-exhausted my poor brain at least a few years ago. I hate being the overachiever sometimes, but I can't help it. I hate extending myself, challenging myself way too much, but I can't help it. I'm so interested in so many things. I'm like a big gigantic absorber--maybe a sponge perhaps? Hehe. But now, I've learned to control my crazy brain... So it's pretty good now, at least for now... :) *wink*

Yes, I'm lazy putting up cute smileys on the page. So I'm doing the manual emoticons... LOL.

I seem to be getting this line from Friends flashing like a big neon sign in front of my mind right now, and I know I'm going to go thru this some day this week or some day next week... or just soon! Remember the line with Rachel saying, "I'm erotically charged, but I don't know what to do with it...?" Well, that's when Rachel is pregnant and she's telling Joey how she doesn't want to be in any relationship at the moment because of the future baby she's going to have. Joey then looks at her and says, "Is that a college word for horny?" or somewhere along those lines. LOL. Anyway, I know the PMS fever is Mother Nature's rule for bodily chaos in women, but gosh, that's how I'm feeling right now, and Rachel's words put it very nicely for me. What the heck do I do with all of this charge?? And since I'm not in any relationship for that matter (and it seems like I will never ever be in a hundred years from now), dealing with this erotic charge is so difficult at times. You see, I'm a horrible romantic. That's the other thing. I go towards poetry, mystery, dark horry/fantasy/gothic, and romance novels (err, not too sicky-mushy-extreme erotic romance novels). And then, sometimes I wonder if these stupid astrological signs mean anything. I'm a Scorpio, and those profiles say that Scorpios are Sex Gods/Goddesses, and are really deep true lovers or something like that... Extremely loyal, tend to stick to one relationships, long-term relationships, love only once, etc., etc.

If only some of these things are not true. But gosh, some of these profiles are almost accurate. I find it funny though. Not that I believe in these things, but I already feel like those things/experiences I've just mentioned above for Scorpios describe me pretty well.

Now back to what I was saying, what the heck do I do with all of this erotic charge at the moment? No, I'm not attracted to anybody at the moment, and even if I am, I can't do anything to them (haha), but what do I do? I don't even have a significant other so I can do all the huggles and smooches I want, so that option is long-gone dead... But I can certainly rant on here all day about it, and I don't think you guys would want a 10-page essay on bodily urges and the anatomy of women, right? But oh, I'm so contradicting myself when I said that this would be a short entry! You see, I'm distracted again! Look what you guys made me do!! :-D LOL.

Ok, enough of my rambles. Just an update for your amusement from yours truly. :-D

Love you all, until next post! *wink*

2004-09-17T11:30:00.000-05:00

A couple of days ago, my poor arm was slighty singed by a cigarette. *gasps* I know, but it felt like a tiny electric shock to me. What happened was this girl who was smoking and talking loudly to her group of friends while I walked pass by her on the walkway on my way to class. UNEXPECTEDLY and SUDDENLY, she flung out her left arm and managed to burn me with her cigarette. Everyone heard the loud hiss from the contact of flesh and the cigar, and voila, now there's a black smoky imperfect dot on my right arm. She was mortified and was asking me constantly if I was okay and that she was so sorry. I nodded and gave a chuckle, and just went quickly away from her, so as to not only draw more attention to myself and my "injured arm," but it didn't hurt until I went home and nursed myself. Gosh, now I know how victims of house fires feel like when they're burned, but fortunately for me, it's only the butt of a cigar. I had enough cream on my arm to last me for days if it is necessary... But it still looks disgusting...

Anyway, I've been a lot busy these days, and I haven't disappeared yet. School has kept me busy! But I love it, and *crosses fingers* I do hope I passed that psych exam yesterday... Oh, and guess what? I think it seems like I've managed to land myself a part-time job at the downtown church as a bilingual receptionist. How cool is that? I need to contact the pastor there though... Anyway, somehow I've managed to bloghop and post at least once a week, so that way, I won't have to miss you guys so much!

TO ALL STARRY FRIENDS (on my buddy list here, of course) :

1. There are some of you who have been changing your URL blog/site addresses, please tell me that you've changed them so I can edit my template, ok? I hate not knowing where you guys are and let me cry about it... *sniffles* So please check my links.

2. There are some of you whom I've been bloghopping and visiting for a really long time, and I don't even know your real names. I'd like it very much if you would tell me your REAL names. This is only optional. I know some of you probably prefer aliases or nicknames, but would it hurt if you could just give me your real names? I like it more personal if you know what I mean. And NO, I have no intention of stalking or even bothering to go after you guys... I have a REALLY BUSY LIFE!! LOL.

And for those of you who don't already know, my name is Kathy, but I go by A~Lo (thanks to Ric) and A~Lotus. I have the FAQ's on the sidebar if you care to look/know. Hehe.

Well, I think that's that. And HA! I didn't forget what I was going to say this time! Other than, TGIF! I think tomorrow I may be heading over to AstroWorld for a nice free BBQ cookout + lots of ice cream sandwiches, popsicle sticks, etc. for families and whatnot, sooooooooo... that'll be a great stress reliever!! Woohoo!! I'm gonna go check out the new rides! Yes, I've ridden mostly all the "scary" ones. I'm that crazy... (Dad's company got us free tickets... The company gives tickets out 2x every year.)

Take care, everyone, and hope you guys have a nice and safe weekend! (You see, I told you I got a busy life. That's why I'm constantly an organized planner so I can minimize stress...)

P.S. Abhi, it's Emoticons 4U, where I get all the cute and funny and crazy emoticons for this site.

2004-09-11T17:37:00.000-05:00

Your treasure is a Diamond. You're elegant,
refined, and have good taste.
What's Your Treasure?
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Hi, everyone!! I'm sorry for disappearing for so long! I've been doing that lately---and it feels like I'm neglecting you guys, but I'm not! Been really, really, really busy lately.

Sometimes, I have to tell people that I'm no super girl, even though I want to be... or try to be, for that matter.

If you guys have been looking at my Bravenet Calendar as of late, then you'll definitely know and SEE how busy I really am. Club meetings, errands, etc. Aside from homework, I now have Service Learning added to my crazy schedule! Service Learning at UST is a program for students, depending on certain classes, that gives students hands-on experience to some kind of career (just think of it as internship/community service), but it counts as a GRADE for that certain class. And since I have child psych, I now have Service Learning, which counts as 1/3 of my final grade for this semester! EEEK! Well, the upside to it is that I get to work with kids---tutoring, playing with them... So, I'm really excited with that!

Anyway, yesterday I took care of tons of my personal errands, and I'm so surprised that I've finished it all yesterday, of all days!! And usually, one will never get things done, especially when you have set aside a day to finish everything, you can't finish them all; whereas like yesterday for me, I didn't even set aside that time to finish some things, and yet I did! Life is so ironic.

I also went back to visit all of the people I've worked with for community service over the summer at this local church. I'm so happy that they were happy to see me. It was so funny how Sister Zachary (she's such a sweet goofball-nun) was talking on the phone and told the person on the phone that we were not having a party... LOL. It was because that everyone was welcoming me back, giving me hugs, and asking how I've been doing, etc. And that was why it was so loud, and the lady on the phone thought that we were having a party... But anyway, I miss them, and I told them that I'll try to see them every so once in a while on Friday's, since I think that's the only day I'd be able to see them.

Father Paul was also surprised to see me as well and told me that the CCE director needed my help, and Chris said that he'd like a secretary for website-building and making posters for organizations and working on creative projects like that for the church. And Jaclyn has also asked me to email Father Troy at this other church, because they needed a part-time Viet/Eng receptionist... And now I have a Service Learning project for class, and I want to be able to read more poetry at TW more (I miss that place terribly)... And I want to go to the bazaar (or carnival or whatever you want to call it) at this local church and be able to volunteer and man the booths and see people! And have fun! I haven't been to a bazaar/carnival event thing for so long, and I miss it!

and, and, and, and...

and, and, and, and, and I'M NO SUPER GIRL!! And I want to be, or try to be...

Oh! And I want to see April and Kris as well, since we live in the same city!

*sniffles* Anyway, I can only hope that somehow my schedule can go back and be in a stable or at least some predictable condition...

No, you guys, I'm not sad, just kinda going crazy, because I'm sad that I have no idea how things will work out, you know? There's so much to do, and little time to do it all! But other than that, I'm happy---errr, will bouncing off the walls work? Yeah, cliche, I know... But this year is my special year---I feel like I am a master over my past depression almost 2 years ago... And I feel almost free---because you guys are there, because I'm doing the things I love doing.

And I can't ask for anything better than that.

P.S. Today is the September 11th tragedy. Let us give a few moments of silence as we pray for those who have passed away and for the families who will remember this forever. Amen.

2004-09-06T23:59:00.000-05:00

Boredom and idleness go hand in hand. Luckily for me, this is the end-product of both of those things. (And I feel a whole lot better already, you guys!! No more sniffling and sneezing!! )

How would you do on American Idol? by geela
Name
Age
Simon says	Superb
Paula says	Wonderful! I love it!
Randy says	DAWG! I'm feelin' ya
Success level	You are the American Idol!

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Now wouldn't it be nice if I WERE the NEXT American Idol according to these results?? Hehe.

Generate your Anime Style by Jena-su
Name:
Hair:	Ridiculously long, usually tied up in ribbons.
Clothes:	School boy/girl uniform.
Powers:	Control over the weather
Special Features:	Unusual, yet natural markings
Sidekick:	Small dragon.
Attitude:	Sarcastic as hell.
Weapon:	Mallet of DOOM

Quiz created with MemeGen!

And this one was fun. I like my cool anime style. The school girl uniform would definitely suit me perfectly, because I talk about school a WHOLE LOT!! And I'm thinking about that Chinese? girl on Kill Bill I...

What Makes You Sexy? by eva71
Name/NickName
Gender
Sexy Body Part Is	Your Eyes
Special Talents Are	Looking Innocent

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Hehe... This one was... interesting to say the least. Muahahaha!!

I finally have my hair dyed once again---it's flaming red black!! And me like it, because it gives my hair a full blast of energy especially when I go out in the sun!

Errr, I've lost my train of thought again. Oh well. But aside from that, Labor Day was a big relaxing day for me... although I caught up on lots of zzz'z and reading for my classes...

And well, I'm ready for school tomorrow!! Errr, even though it's almost 1 am!! Past my bed-time yet once again; I'm such an insomniac!!

Okie, I'll be a good little and get to bed now!! Bye, bye!! And happy Monday to you all!!

P.S. I hope you guys love these little emoticons! I love them, because they're so cute and fun! Hehe, maybe I should start using them, because well, I DID say that I was going to make a few NEW changes to this site, right?

2004-09-04T01:43:00.000-05:00

Hehe. Fortunately, I've finished with my psych reflection paper, which is just about 3 pages, so all is good, needless to say, despite the fact that I've pulled up an all-nighter for it. I'm so happy that it's a long holiday weekend! I need to catch up on some zzz's. Labor Day. Hmm, does anyone out there who REALLY celebrate this day? I particularly don't, for I just see these kinds of holidays as sleep days.

Anyway, my siblings brought up an issue with school (cafeteria) food. They said that the kids just trash the food (besides, they come in nice little plastic boxes for you) on the floor or sadly, dump them in the trash without even bother with the fact that IT'S FOOD! My siblings were more than just mad at these disrespectful kids (at their high school), and I'd be mad too. I mean, don't they realize that they're wasting food, when those same food boxes could've been given to the homeless or even feed the entire Third World countries on the other side of the world? I mean, it's too bad that there's no such thing as famine or anything that major over here, but I'm sure that they'll never experience deep starvation until they would either be poor or homeless or end up like those unfortunate families in African countries, for example. It's just so unnerving how these kids don't even give a second thought to their pathetic actions. How inconsiderate. How reckless.

Sorry, but I just had to get that out. With my siblings mentioning it earlier today, it made me remember the times when heated food fights blew up at my first high school. It's just so sad. I mean, you would also think that parents would teach their kids that they're fortunate to never have experienced these kinds of things, right? That they should be grateful with what they have in life, right? Or is it just me, or we don't have good parental skills anymore?

Anyway, but for a bit of a stress reliever, I'm so glad I've finished 3 more dolls from my FACTORY!! Hehe. *drum roll, everyone*

Let's give a round of applause to Silver, Ric, and Tab, respectively!

Silver, Ric, & Tab:

Gosh, the hardest part was trying to go thru a suitable wardrobe for everybody. LOL. Enjoy!

Anyway, have a great weekend everyone! *huggles* Take care! *smiles*

Addendum: Sil, as a gangsta gal?? Hehe.. *wink*

2004-09-02T02:55:00.000-05:00

I'm in the middle of a writer's block for this stupid reflection paper for this 17-paged psych article I'm supposed to be talking about, and I have no clue what I'm supposed to be "reflecting" on, even though the assignment has 4 options---all of which sound the same to me. Maybe my brain is just screaming at me to go to sleep, 'cause it's way past my bedtime, but I gotta finish this! I gotta pick one of the 4 options so I can "reflect" my godly views on this article... Hehe. =P *yawns* *thinks why the hell is "developmental theories of the 1990s" in psychology is important at this very moment, when all I can do is just hit the backspace key for the past 2 hours...*

Anyway, it's Thursday. Wow... This week went by pretty fast. *gawks* Is it me, or everyone has died in blogdom?? Okay, maybe I'm being a bit dramatic---I mean, did everyone just took an invisible blog-leave and didn't tell me? It's sooooo quiet around here that it's all scaring me!! *cry* Where is everyone??? Boohoohoo... I think I'm gonna go hide in a turtle shell until everyone starts coming out of their shells as well... =P

P.S. Html Help WANTED!

Okay, how in the world do I make text area boxes? I've gotten lots of suggestions from lots of people who look forward to the spicy-ness of this site of mine (I'm awfully flattered, but humble), but I don't know how to make these crazy boxes... =( Help is always appreciated. Gosh, I wanna meet you all! I love you!!! *huggles* Ok, I'm a nut, but I love you guys. You know, just visiting and bloghopping thru your sites every other day have given me the chance to be so much happier than I was a year or two ago. =) Thank you, thank you! Oh, wait... Did I speak too soon? Sorry, not Thanksgiving yet, but hey, it wouldn't hurt right?? *wink*

Buh-bye, till next post, mes amis! *smooches*

P.P.S. I've just noticed that it's September already... I'm so slow on time... It's kinda sad and funny...

Oh, yeah, did I ever tell anyone that I was a goofball?? Or is one, for that matter? Or maybe you guys have already figured that out, eh?? LOL.

2004-08-30T16:26:00.000-05:00

Hi, everyone! I must say that I love my classes this semester! :) I know, I'm such a "geek" according to Martin's definition, but I love school! It's so much fun! All of the professors are awesome and lenient, and all the stuff I'm learning is soooo interesting. Yeah, go figure, despite the fact that I have many papers to write this semester for philosophy, English & modern literature, theology, and child psychology... oh yeah, plus statistics homework! *makes a face* Anyway, yes, everyone, I did enjoy my weird adventures and everything else over the summer. And thanks for everything, you guys. *huggles* I need to go back to blogdom more often.

Anyway, just last week, I found out that one of my classmates, Maria Cruz, passed away this past summer (August 3rd) because of a car accident. I didn't much know about this until I've read UST's newspaper. I was shocked and sad to know about this at the last minute, and so I didn't even get a chance to say good-bye, or much less go to give respects at her funeral. I had many fun times hanging out with her, and she was even in my biology lab class last year, too. Gosh, she was just so young to die... *cry* But of course, we have to die some time---Carpe Diem, one death... She'll always be a friend in my heart. (I'm going to save the newspaper clipping of her.) Oh, and I also keep forgetting that I don't deal with deaths of anyone I know that easily either. Maybe it's just the letting go part of it that makes it so difficult.

But anyway, on a brighter note...

There will be little changes to this site again! No, I'm not going to change the layout out again, for I'm going to keep this for a while, because I love it so much. I'm gonna put up new blinkies (another special friend has made me more blinkies, even though I didn't ask for any) for this site, plus a photo gallery, maybe a little scavenger hunt for this site... and some other fun stuff. :) So watch out, mes amis! :)

I think this entry is long enough. If I keep on rambling, it's gonna be even longer. LOL. Have a great week, everyone! Until the next post! :) *huggles*

2004-08-26T17:43:00.000-05:00

My 8/18/04 journal entry that was never posted up for last week, now revised:

I should say that this was a rather interesting yet a weird adventure...

Starting from a regular boring plan to be a model for my aunt's facial exam at the Texas Cosmetology Center in Austin, Texas, the day ended with a slide from getting a speeding ticket and telling riddles to pass the time. And thankfully, we both got back to my house, exhausted, at one in the morning, safe and sound.

I love adventures---always have since I was a kid. But most of all, I love looking out the window during any car rides, assuming that I won't get motion sickness...

Anyway, my aunt joked that I should write a book about this, but hey, at least the cop was nice enough to let us go---with a warning instead of a ticket. I mean, driving on the interstate is creepy. Dark as a blackhole and occasionally, we'd see big 18-wheelers... Other than that, there were barely any other cars driving around so late at night.

But after that exam, we wanted to go to Wonder World in San Marcos, TX to go see that earthquake-formed cave, but it turns out that it was closed early when on the brochure, it said 8pm. So, disappointed, we went to the Natural Bridge Caverns, and well... that was closed too, after our 1 hour drive and getting lost, we couldn't go to see that cave either. Finally, we decided to go to the Riverwalk in San Antonio. It was nice---the place donned up with jazzy neons signs and whatnot. Wow, what a nightlife! Another version of Houston, I must say, but the air is so much cleaner to breathe compared to Houston. Anyway, we browsed a bit through the Riverwalk Mall too, but of course, since the exam ended around 4pm, by the time we got there with many miscellaneous stops along the way, most of the stores at the mall were closed...

But it was an adventure nonetheless. We entertained ourselves reading street signs because they got the strangest names... And just "car-touring," a new term I coined, because we were on the road most of the time, and with me looking out the window.

I mean, it's funny enough that we were in 3-4 cities in Texas all in one day, given that we had around 5-6 hours of leisure time after that nearly-all-day exam.

What "bugged" me was this stupid fly that kept making track marks on my skin tickling me. I have to be still so as to not get my aunt to lose points on her exam, and so I couldn't swap that darn fly for 3/4 of that time. It was so annoying anyway. I'm so glad that with that long hot bath I took when I got home, it got rid of those tickling fly sensations on my skin plus the sweat I've acquired from walking and shopping at the Riverwalk.

Now, PMS rules me, and I'm sneezing and wheezing... At least one good thing is that I don't feel bloated now or yesterday, for that matter.

What a day, huh? I love to have adventures like this. It knocks out the stress and keeps life a bit more interesting. *smiles*

But sadly, given the time frame that I had to pack (at the last minute), I forgot to take a camera with me, so no pictures. *cry* And besides, I was clueless as to what the day's plans were anyway. All I knew I had to do was be a live model for my aunt for that weird facial exam. But yeah, it was fun being pampered and being made pretty with all the make-up and whatnot. It was so girly, although that stupid big black fly was a pest...

Well, that's that. That was the entry I've written that time, but never posted up. Hope it was funny for you guys. It really DID happen, too: the fly and the episode with the cop. LOL.

Anyway, school now is actually really interesting. I'm thrilled to be back in school, for my brain was nagging at me (it's so impatient), and sometimes it seems like I need to feed it all sorts of info constantly--junk, useless info, or whatever it wants to feed on. LOL.

Have you ever seen a priest writing on a pink legal note-pad? I thought they only come in the color yellow! That was such a strange sight for me today in theology class.

I've lost my train of thought about a half an hour ago. There were lots for me to say and now I just forgot. Maybe I'm just tired and worried about my stats homework, for I really need to get started on it...

Arrrghhh!! I hate it when I've forgotten something important!! *cry* Oh well. Hopefully, serendipity will grant me my wishes, eh?

Take care, everyone! Happy Thursday... eek!! It's a Thursday already?? *gawks, gasps* I must be REALLY slow on time...

2004-08-23T11:30:00.000-05:00

Hi!! Oh, I missed all of you so much!!! *huggles* Thank you so much for waiting patiently for my return!! *sniffles* After coming back from my little vacation, I had to make another detour to get back to "life" and get situated for the back-to-school madness! *gawks* Whoa, the days are passing by really fast for me, and I'm now at school, waiting for my next class, which is STATISTICS! Eeep! After one full year without math, I wonder if I even REMEMBERED anything, aside from the basics of +, -, x, and /.

Anyway, I have yet to go bloghopping again, for I really do miss you guys. And I still gotta do more dolls, for it is so much fun. Thanks Tab for my awesome blinkie! I'm gonna put it up once I get a chance! Luv ya, babe! *huggles* Thanks Maddie for Ric's pic. I haven't seen it yet, but I'm gonna have to dig thru my emails again, and then turn him into a cute little doll to add to your doll collection! LOL. Hehe. *wink*

Hmm, I think that's it for now. Oh yeah, I'll definitely talk about my adventures later. You'll get a kick out of it! LOL. *wink* For now, bye guys, until next post and of course, you'll get a visit from me! *huggles*

Happy Monday!

2004-08-15T12:56:00.000-05:00

Yay! My last post before I REALLY leave! *smiles* I'll miss you guys... only for a few days, not too long. I'll be back though.

Anyway, I've finished reading my last novel for the summer before back to school! It's Nora Roberts' Remember When. Pretty good. It's got a good diamond treasure hunt with a good murder story to it. And I think that's how I got the idea of planning a small treasure hunt for my sister's birthday and leave all the clues for her to find (which will lead to her REAL present) while I'm in Austin. Hehe. I can't wait to hear about the aftermath when I get back! I got all of it planned out! *wink* I'm so excited!!

I'm keep forgetting that I'm horribly creative at heart, and lots of people kept reminding me. Yes, I'm the ultimate MISTRESS OF SURPRISES. I got tons of ideas for everything. Hehe.

Oh, and don't let me forget. Mike-chan, Silver, and Ric---Need a pic of you guys to do dolls (except for Silver.. hehe). Don't worry too much about me doing voodoo on any of you guys. I'm such a goody-goody, although if you're REALLY interested in performing your own fun voodoo ritual, you can go here, and get a whack at it. *wink* LOL. Have fun.

Let's see, I think that's about everything now. Bon voyage to me, and I'll see you guys later for bloghoppin'!

P.S. You guys should also go to this site for a good laugh. It's twisted, but hey, they're just commercials, right? LOL. Advertisements or Not?

2004-08-13T17:15:00.000-05:00

Happy Friday the 13th!

I took a day off today from working. Besides, I'll be gone next week, and I might as well take my sister to the movies as a part of her birthday present since I won't be there to wish her a happy birthday. Instead, I'll be in Austin. I watched Catwoman with my brother and my youngest sister, while my other sister watched Yugioh. (She's still ranting about the movie after all this time, plus she got a trading card along with the ticket stub. She's driving me nuts.)

Now just thinking about it, I'm really glad I had today off, plus the weekend and the next 2-3 days after that, since I'll be in Austin... LOL.

Anyway, now for this weekend's finale!

Ready?

I've finished with the next 5 dolls from my good ol' factory (with a few minor adjustments)!! Yay!!

Mishi, Jess, Martin, Jen (Angel Tears), & April

Mishi, I just had your hair up. I think it's totally cute that way. *smiles* Jess, I love the skirt and the boots, so I had the doll wear that for you. Martin, you're such a difficult challenge! I couldn't put on the glasses, the long hair, and the facial features to fit it all (without making such a mess), but imagine this doll "wearing contacts" and without the other facial features that make you such a really interesting person appearance-wise. *smiles* Plus, I'd made you a bigger softie with a cute little canine next to you. Hehe, but I love your doll. Jen #2 aka Angel Tears, now that's the doll for you. LOL. April! Your doll is sooo awesome! I love the hairdo and the whole doll cuteness to it! I'd imagine all of these things and other little things I'd made for each of you guys to somehow reflect a bit of your style and your personalities, hence... I really hope you guys like these dolls. I had lots of fun making them! *huggles*

Have a great weekend, everyone! I'll be doing my last round of visits to your blog/sites now before I log off! Take care now! *smooches*

2004-08-12T01:30:00.000-05:00

Smile-O-Mania!! Woohoo! Here's a story to talk about:

Background Story:

Every day when we wake up, we're always rushing. We gotta get to work/school, gotta get the kids to school, gotta go to this important meeting, gotta get ready for a date, gotta do the laundry, the dishes, the cooking, the lawn mowing, gotta go grocery-shopping, gotta pay the bills, gotta, gotta, gotta...

And yet, sometimes we never stop to think or even enjoy what life gives us. And then by the end of the day, our faces are as wrinkly as raisins, and our moods are as grouchy as the Grinch on Christmas Eve. And trust me, EVERYONE is like this every so once in a while, even me. (Once I nearly made my sister cry because I was so busy with my work.) The other side of the world, kids are already back at school stressing their brains out and people are still twice as busy juggling work and family life. But at least their lives aren't probably as hectic as the Western Hemisphere, because those Easterners value and actually set aside a time for leisure, which we Westerners don't, especially Americans.

And who wonders why the stress level is the highest in Americans? Go figure.

Challenge #1:

My challenge for you is to pick a random place you normally go to throughout your normal daily routine and SMILE at someone. Note down that person's reactions to your smile, and post it here.

My Results:

Today (this past Tuesday), I was so bored mechanically putting needed things into the shopping cart that I decided to let my eyes wander just to amuse myself.

What caught my eyes was this little baby girl about 18 months-2 years old sitting in front of a cart, with her toothless mouth attacking a ripe red apple.

I stared at her fascinated as she was doing this for a few minutes, until I felt her eyes resting on me. I winked at her, wiggled my nose, and gave her the biggest-toothiest-jack o' lantern smile I could muster, and she smiled at me, giving a bubbly gurgle.

I laughed and said to my mom, "Aww, hey, Ma, I made a baby girl laugh. She's so adorable."

"Well, you always have a way with kids, you know," was my mom's reply (or at least it was somewhere along those lines).

I shrugged and thought to myself, "Hey, at least seeing someone smile brightens up my redundant days for a change."

THE END.

Now, it's your turn to do that challenge!

Hope it cheers you guys up too!

Updates as usual:

I finished reading Sue Grafton's Q is for Quarry, and now I'm debating against myself whether or not I want to finish another novel before school starts. I really like the creative stimulation circulating through my nerve cells.

Anyway, I'm getting busier as usual. And now, all of next week, I'll be busy with being a temporary facial model for my aunt for her cosmetology/beauty exam in Austin, TX next week (see calendar). I'll probably be back at least Tuesday evening or early Wednesday. But for this coming weekend, she'll be doing all the make-up, etc. to my face for practice and for me, especially, to get used to it... My, I wonder...

Oy, I'm gonna have to put off the Wednesday Mind Hump for this week and the Monday Mambo next week and probably the Hump again next week... until I get everything situated. Arrggh!! I knew August would be a crazy month for me, and it's just only the beginning! I wanna go back to my creative flow and get my Dollz Factory runnin' and my poetry pennin'... Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! *cry*

I'll miss you guys, because I don't know when I'll be coming back to the Blogworld and get back to blog-hopping over by everyone's sites... I just hope it won't take too long, or else, I'll go crazy!!

Note to self: I really NEED to stop being an insomniac. *sigh* You can't beat your internal clock, can you? It's bad for my health, because I want to FEEL and BE rested for school soon!

Bye now!! *huggles*

2004-08-09T01:03:00.000-05:00

Forget about abducting Maddie and Candy, because they were my first 2 experimental victims at the A~Lotus' Dollz Factory, which I'm really happy that it turned out to be a major success. And now, I think I must've turned into the mad Dr. Frankenstein (or Computer-stein?) with 4 more creations of doll-sized-computerized humans. MUAHAHAHAHA! Please enjoy. (Please forgive me if it takes me forever to make your doll. It's saved on my PC, but I need to do the finishing touches. *wink*)

Voila! My creations:

Zero, Jen, Jarrod, & Abhi (respectively)

For Tab: You can get really beautiful graphics and backgrounds for your blog/site at Moon Pixel Graphics. If you need further help, you can always ask our devoted HTML technicians here on my buddy list: Martin and Abhi. They're really friendly, helpful, and such awesome people! =)

Other than that, the layout of my blog was my design. The sunset photo was taken by a friend of mine, and I asked him permission to use it (see "Credits" section). The blue starry graphic and the spiral-stars graphic were taken from somewhere (I forgot where) on the net (freeware), unless if anyone has come forth claiming that they're both copyrighted. I manipulated those 2 graphics a wee bit by using Paint Shop Pro 6 and PhotoImpression 4, merging the layers together. And finally, the few phrases that are on the sunset photo came from a poem that I've written. =) Hope that helps, Tab! *huggles*

Updates:

I've finished reading more books:

Keith Ablow: Denial, Projection, and Compulsion
Maggie Estep: Soft Maniacs

I've also read other books, but I never did finish with some of them. So I'm not going to list them here.

Every day has been busy for me. Volunteer hours are building up. I feel really refreshed and happy. Friday was the church's staff luncheon. Experimenting the tastes in all kinds of food is always good. =) Saturday was a major shopping day---yeah, you guys can go to my Bravenet Calendar for info. My feet hurt---I never had a foot massage before, but that would be nice if I had one. Reminder to self: I need to check my email more often. *guilty* I feel bad for not responding to people. Sunday was a bit relaxing for me. I wanted to go to that Young Adults Group get-together at Gaby's (some restaurant or cafe or whatever that place is), but I had too much going on... I feel bad for missing those meetings with them twice or was it 3 times? *sigh* Ah well. There's always a next time.

I think I need to refresh a new to-do list. I'm so behind on LOTS of things... *gawks* Happy Early Monday, everyone!! or the beginning of the week, rather! LOL. I'm an insomniac once again... =P

Tchao, until the next weird post from me!! *huggles*

2004-08-05T17:34:00.000-05:00

* I'm still making the next Jen, April, Abhi, and Martin dolls.
* It's my first time today to ever hear a priest calling something "cute." It's kinda funny.
* My eyes are tired from staring at maps too long---gosh, those little scrawly-typed names of streets on those maps can make you dizzy and a bit of cross-eyed. Oy.
* Photobucket's being really nice to me. Does anyone know how much space it offers?? I probably use less than 500MB. But if it goes screwy on me again, I'm going to call on Ric and Abhi, okie?? *smiles*
* My buddy list is getting longer... *gawks* I love you guys!!! *huggles* You guys are so much fun!!
* Hmm, I got a pic for the next blog/site design... I'm gonna work on the layout later whenever I find the time...
* There are 13 more days till school!! EEEK! I'm excited! Summer went by so fast!
* Today is Thursday?? But my brain is a little jet-lagged... or time-lagged... I thought today was still Tuesday... It feels like a Tuesday.

If I don't post any more this week, then I wish you all a happy and safe and silly and bubbly and fun weekend!! *smiles*

P.S. Got rice, anyone?? *groans* I gotta go to the Asian grocery store down the street to buy some more rice for dinner. *sigh* And did I aleady mention that I'm tired to even walk or stand?? *groans*

Tchao, mes amis!

2004-08-03T01:44:00.000-05:00

Okay, you guys will probably think I'm a nut! Ahhh, help me!! I think I'm becoming an online doll-maker-aholic, using my powers to make all real-life 3-D humans into dolls!! *gasps* You guys better run for it, because my first two victims are Candy and Maddie, respectively!! MUAHAHAHAHA!! *evil grin*

I actually uploaded these hot doll pics of Candy and Maddie onto my Ripway account, so yeah, I'm using my space, but it's not like I'm gonna use all of it! Besides, I haven't even finished using all of the 15 MB they gave me at Geocities! And now with 30 MB at Ripway, it sure's gonna take me forever!

Anyway, without further ado, let us give a nice applause (esp. guys if you're gonna whistle at these ladies, go ahead... *wink*) for Candy and Maddie!

Candy & Maddie

P.S. Due to insomnia, I'm still up, and I gotta get up early tomorrow for work! And surprisingly, this is, I think, my first time in months that I've updated almost nearly every day now... Wow, I'm amazed...

2004-08-02T13:10:00.000-05:00

From BD Insanity:

Music related:

1. Jazz: Stevie Wonder
2. White: Christmas? LOL.
3. Goodbye: Uhhh, there are lots of sad songs out there, and it makes me too mushy. I don't want to cry now!!
4. Summer: "Cruel Summer" by this singer... Forgot her name.
5. Avenue: Of what? Can't think of any...
6. Hungry: Red Hot Chili Peppers, although I don't have the guts to really EAT them. LOL.
7. Blue: More Stevie Wonder
8. Moon: Ayumi Hamasaki... She's always in some nature sceneries in her videos.
9. Fire: BoA. She has this video with fire...
10. Bird: "I'm like a bird. I wanna fly away. I don't know where my heart is. I don't know where my soul is..." Gosh, I feel awful forgetting who sings this... LOL.

5 bands that you can't live without: Linkin Park, Evanescence, Thrice, Flaming Lips, and some other bands I keep forgetting their names....

4 albums that are important to you: LMAO. Sorry, I'll skip this one. Horrible with names.

3 of your favorite songs: "Crawling," "I Turn to You," and "Imaginary."

2 albums that you've bought recently: None.

1 Band [or Artist] whose music would be described as writing the soundtrack of your life: Shockingly Christina Aguilera's first album... That album is soulful and most of the lyrics hit the main points of my life---I can just go back and relive those memories again and again in my head.

Well, I just finished with lunch and grocery shopping a while ago. Man, it's so hot outside, and humid too.

I'll be at the eye doc's later today picking up my glasses and hopefully my contacts. And there goes the rest of my day. Whew, volunteer hours for today = 0. But that's okay, usually they don't have anything for me to do on Monday's because they're really busy. But I'll be definitely busy tomorrow.

Thanks to Tab, the website under my "Credits" section, and the inspiration from Bella, I'm having lots of fun making these diva dollies. Reminds me of the good ol' days when I dressed up paper dolls myself. I played with paper dolls more than I played with Barbie dolls. I don't know, but it seemed as if those paper dolls had more character than Barbie dolls. Hmmm... anyway, I had fun. I'm planning to make some more if I find the time. *smiles*

Sometimes, I forget how sleeping is an addiction. My whole family thinks I'm a sleepaholic, but I'm not. It's just that I have a horrible case of being an insomniac at night, and then I'm sleepy-dead during the day, and I wake up at the latest around 2pm, with the assumption that I DON'T take naps during the day. I hate taking naps anyhow, because I'm restless, and I'd rather find something for me to do.

Have a happy week, everyone!! And you know what? Maybe I'm gonna make a doll for everybody on my buddy list!! Hehe. *wink* That'd be fun!

2004-07-31T00:27:00.000-05:00

Pichu, our 1-2 month old puppy is growing up big now. He's so adorable---snowy white when he's clean and not dirt-muddy, who loves to run around your legs trying to trip you and can now learn a trick---when you put your hand over his back, he'll crouch down with his tail wagging, giving you the most cutesy puppy-happy face ever. I've forgotten to mention him in many journal entries before, but gosh, just today, Pichu is just insanely bubbly and frolicky. You can't get away from him, and I was trying so hard not to trip over him... LOL.

We now have a total of, I think, 5 more eggs in the little birdhouse we've made for the parakeets, two of which grew feathers and are now hopping about the cage. Now we have a grand total of 10 birds, and I think we need a bigger cage soon.

Have you ever woke up one morning just to find that there are 2 and a half inch scratch marks on your right arm?? That's the weirdest thing in the world, because I now have those scratch marks for about a week already. The first few days, it hurt and stung whenever I wash my arms with antibacterial soap and water. Now, those marks are quite healed and closed up, but they are still visible. I'm trying to figure out how and where in the world did I get those marks from?? And I don't remember scratching myself, or hurting myself, or any of that in any way!! *gawks at the marks* Gosh, I know that I have a pretty good memory, but hopefully, I did not have any memory lapses, because it's just plain shocking and a bit scary on my part to know that I don't know where those wounds came from... *shrug*

Volunteer Hours: This past Monday = 30 min., Thursday = 0., and Friday = 5 hrs. My schedule is getting a bit haywired again. This coming Monday would be something new, due to the fact that I'll be seeking that position for teaching for CCE---this time, getting paid so I can save up more $$$$ for school-related expenses. And I'm a modest spender really. I have to buy something that I'll actually use, and it's kinda hard for me to buy something I don't have my heart set on, because then I'll forget that I've bought it myself. And the things that I don't use at all end up sitting in a pile of dust... Ewww. I think I'll avoid that one, because I'm allergic to dust.

Oh, and I'm thinking about submitting in another application for a scholarship. Which of these following categories do you think my interests as a "clinical neuropsychologist" fit under exactly?? I'm having a hard time, because what I like to do combines art, math and science, and public service... and maybe a bit of education too. HELP ME!! (I have until August 11th to submit other miscellaneous stuff that goes along with the aps.)

The categories are: Art, Business, Education, Nursing, Math and Science, and Public Service. It would be a dream to actually be one of the scholarship recipients attending that conference and get to meet some really well-known people like TV anchorpersons, or journalists, or writers, or psychologists!! Well, the site is here if you want to visit it. =^-^=

*huggles* Have a great weekend, everyone! Take care now! =^-^=

2004-07-28T20:48:00.000-05:00

From BD Insanity:

My characteristics from HAMBURGER:

H - hopeful
A - always outside the box
M - morbid in thoughts (frequently)
B - babbler (whenever I feel like it)
U - uprooting everything till truths are revealed/understanding
R - reminiscent
G - grateful
E - ever strong
R - rowdy soul

Strange questions from the same place:

01. Mix & Match--- i.e. a sundae with pie crumbs on the ice-cream and blueberries, etc.

02. Now what could be on my auction block? I don't have much of anything that is strange. I'm pretty much a practical person.

03. Gooey flour!!

04. A utopian world filled with people and fairies and maybe werecats and wereswans and elves and everything else living together...

05. Umm, return home and foget that I'd ever gone to jail?? LOL.

So how's everyone?? I hope everyone is doing fine. I miss you guys so much! (And for those of whom I usually--more or less--talk on any instant messengers, I miss all the talks! Always fun!) It seems to me like everyone is busy nowadays. I have 26 more days till school starts! *gasps* Whoa, this summer went by so quickly, and I'm more than anxious to see how my classes are like.

And guess what? For a couple of days already, I've been so tired. I keep falling asleep. Eeep, I'm turning into a workaholic now... That's not so good, but other than that, I'm still a schoolaholic.. hehe.. *wink*

Uhh, actually, I just had dinner... and my physical needs right now are quite satisfied---food, nap, rest, etc...

So my apologies if this entry was short. LOL.. Take care, everyone!! More posts later! *smiles*

2004-07-26T00:31:00.000-05:00

I've finally finished the Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella. (Thanks, Mishi!) Needless to say, I'm glad that I'm NOT a shopaholic, but I do understand that little "annoying need" that craves and gnaws at your inner gut. (Seriously, I enjoy shopping once in a while, but I can't stand it ALL the time.) But these books were great---really funny and... in some episodes, very touching. I like the Manhattan one---my favorite. Very heartfelt and romantic. Gosh, if only romance could be as sweet as that... *sighs dreamily*

I know I haven't been updating for almost a week already. My, how time flies.

There's been too much going on as of late. One of my church school classmates passed away some time this month (July 2004). He's only 19 like me! *gasps* But unfortunately, I've been trying to find out whatever happened to him without any luck at all. If anyone who's really good at finding this info on the net for me, please look up CUONG DO, and tell me what has happened to him. He's been in my prayers. I've even attended one of the Mass services for him. But gosh, I feel like it was only yesterday that I've seen him every Sunday at school church and when he was the altar server for Masses... It's all so shocking now to know that he's just... gone...

Anyway, on to a more lighter note, I've done lots of working at the church's office. I'm now pretty good with organizing the parish newsletters and bulletins. And laughing and getting acquainted with everybody and everything. I find it all so creatively fun. Also, I've attended a little 2-hour Young Adults' meeting today. Very refreshing and inspirational. Father Marty talked about his trials and tribulations and travels over here to the U.S. from Vietnam and his vocation and journey to become a priest... Very interesting. I'm finding myself wanting to get more involved with the church and the community and giving things back to people---helping others. I have so much to look forward to.

Also, I'm booking (hopefully) another job as a Catholic Christian Education (CCE) teacher. It would be a very interesting adventure to experience and wade into. Sometimes, I wonder how teaching's like, but you know what? I've done a bit of "teaching" here and there---tutoring, helping others with homework, even conducting a poetry lesson for a creative writing class back in high school, etc.

You know what's sad? Sometimes, I feel like I'm being left out of a zillion things. *sigh* I'd better not get into the major details now. I'll just leave it at that.

I called C today and his father told me that he's in Boston. He also informed me that I shouldn't worry about him, for he's "doing great." What the hell is that supposed to mean? He sounds very sincere over the phone, but I get the feeling that C just doesn't want me around anymore. I give up on our so-called friendship. You know what? I'll just let him come to me whenever he feels like talking. I'll just back off, but damn, it's so hard to.

Like the author, Keith Ablow, says, I'll be a "burrower"---just keep on digging (discreetly) until I find the answers to every single nagging question buried deep inside of me. Gosh, sometimes I need to stop the psychoholic side of me---but underneath it all, it's just the pure selfless need to care for others. I feel like a total hypocrite.

And another thing. I'm so disappointed with the fact that I'm not traveling this summer---my weapon of escapism.

Sadly, my dad is on another phase of depression again. (So he won't be able to do some of the driving for road trips.) Gosh, I feel as if though having "depression" is hereditary, because I'm just as depressed as he is (or at least I think so), except that I'm underage to drink and that I'm not planning to pursue an alcoholic career and that I'm depressed about different things...

Maybe that's also another reason why I want to pursue a career in psychology. And you know what? Kinsella has inspired me to start writing on another novel called Confessions of a Psychoholic. (I hope that title isn't already taken. Hopefully, it'll be my book someday.) Gosh, I feel so bad, you guys. I now have 2 novels to start on, and I've barely even written anything!! I have tons of jumbled ideas---but it irks me that I can't express it on paper. It sounds so lovely and absolutely flawlessly perfect in my head, but when writing it on paper, it somehow transforms itself!! Err, correction, you guys mentioned that this blog of mine could turn itself into a novel?? LOL. I'm flattered, but then that means I'll have 3 novels, only one of which I've managed to write in! LOL.

Anyway, I'm gonna end this crazy ramble of mine with a little quizzie. Oh yeah, after all this time, it has rained in July! Wow, because in Houston, it's nearly dry in July thru August!

A~Lotus

Guppy

Agility
5

Strength
5

Stamina
2

Battle Rating
12

Origins
A~Lotus was purchased at a local Pet Store

Toodles, everyone! Take care, and have a nice week... until next post, of course! *huggles*

2004-07-20T19:45:00.000-05:00

Updates:

*Removed nail polish. It feels so weird, knowing that I'm not really a painted-nails girl type.
*Eye exam: now with clear contacts
*Sick with allergies; now feeling a whole lot better
*Volunteer: 6 hours; did over 100+ phone calls within that time slot! *gasps*
*Hair is layered... and well, simply shorter. It was long near my waist for so many months already.
*Very excited to see the St.Therese movie coming out October 1st.
*Nearly done with blog/site layout. I'm putting in links, graphics, and whatnot. Won't be as fancy, but it suits me nicely.

Things to do (some time in the future, more or less):

*Finish reading the rest of the novels I've checked out from the library.
*Finish washing my car
*Go to TW soon.
*Write a child-like poem for TW's poetry contest.
*Email resume to Sacred Heart Co-Cathedral for part-time Eng/Viet receptionist position during the fall.
*Look at scholarships and financial aid packet and figure out when is what, and where things should go, etc.
*Figure out what books I need to buy for low prices at least 2 weeks before school starts, 'cause new books are expensive, and it's not like I'm gonna take those classes again anyway.

Happy day, everyone! I'm tired, and it's been a long day... Take care now, and I'll update soon!

2004-07-17T16:03:00.000-05:00

More books I've read these past couple of weeks:

Maggie Estep: The Love Dance of the Mechanical Animals and Hex
Philip Pullman: The White Mercedes
Nora Kelly: Hot Pursuit
Nora Roberts: Sacred Sins
Keith Ablow: Psychopath
Parnell Hall: Strangler
Sue Grafton: "C" is for Corpse

Yesterday, I went to Anita's with the people who work at the church; it's an Italian restaurant, and this was a farewell party for Ruth. Now, she's going to work at this other church, and I'm gonna miss her. But anyway, the food there was pretty good. I had Angel Hair pasta with salad. A light meal in the middle of the day won't make you feel bloated, that's for sure. I love Italian food... Yum.

I feel kinda stuffy at the moment. I kept sneezing... Arggh, probably my allergies are acting up again. Oh, and the weather is so damn hot today---and HUMID!!! Ugh.

Oh, and here are some really nice quizzes (apparently, I'm bored):

What type of Anime Personality do you have? (for girls)
brought to you by Quizilla

Chinese Fan! Beautiful and dangerous in one! Don't
laugh. The pretty, metal fan was also a
dangerous weapon in old China. If someone know
how to use it, it's a lethal weapon!

What's your Weapon? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
brought to you by Quizilla

Take the Spirit Quiz and visit Castle Diqueria.

Well, I'm done for now. Need to go back and do chores and then cook for dinner! Bye everyone! Hope you guys have a nice weekend!

P.S. Volunteer: Friday - 5 hours
P.P.S. Thanks everyone for your comments! *huggles*

2004-07-15T12:23:00.000-05:00

Yesterday's entry was re-edited, because Blogger didn't want to post this entry, and so I'm combining it with today's entry...

Church volunteer hours completed:

--Tuesday: 6 hours
--Wednesday: 6 hours
--Thursday: 1.5 hours
--TOTAL since Monday: 16.5 hours
--Results: Completion of billing/invoice documents categorization and putting together some 800+ parish newsletters, which are ready to be shipped to the post office.

Tomorrow, I'll be at this farewell luncheon dedicated to Ruth. She's going to be leaving now that she has completed her 3 year work for her transcript for her upcoming job of some sort. Awww, I'll miss her; she's been so friendly and open and funny to me---helped me feel right at home working around the office and introducing me to everybody. *sigh* Ah well, but at least I met the person who's going to take Ruth's place today; she seems just as nice.

The "Jaded" Talk:

Ruth just suddenly brought up the talk of jade a couple of days ago after seeing me wearing a jade bracelet on Monday. Now, I want jade earrings and jade pendant necklaces... I told her that according to the Vietnamese "superstition," so to speak, if you break a REAL jade bracelet, bad luck will come to you. Other than that, wearing one is good luck. *shrug* Don't ask me if that little belief is true or not, but well, as it is, some people believe in it anyway.

Man, I love cookies 'n cream ice-cream. Yum. And soft sugar-coated gummy worms are interestingly tasty for some reason... *scratches head* Or maybe after 4-days worth of work, I'm just constantly hungry...

I need a full-body massage. Everything is sore or tensed...

Yesterday was counted as the 4th year anniversary of my grandmother's death. She was always the sweetest grandma in the world.

Today counts as the 7th year anniversary of my sister's death. Gosh, how time flies. So long ago, but I don't nearly miss her as much anymore. Sometimes, time heals all things, but yet I know she's in a wonderful place...

But the only thing left is my struggle to heal within that same amount of time, knowing that being head-over-heals-deeply in love with someone who won't return that love at all is just a total waste of time.

I should put a stamp on my forehead that says, "The Ultimate Rejected Queen of the World." I know that I sound horribly bitter with a slight spiteful tone, but it's still true...

Anyway, I'm kinda tired, so I'm going to chill out those weary muscles in a nice hot bubble bath and then curl up with a good mystery novel. Until next time, everyone. *huggles*

Oh, and a P.S. to everyone: No, I'm not depressed at the moment. I'm actually content with the fact that I've done my share to help the community. It feels really refreshing. Anyway, I also have my eye on my next assignment. I'll be working with kids after school at this community center near St. Thomas. And who knows? I can move up to be a counselor later on. Yay! I'm excited!

Salut!

2004-07-12T15:57:00.000-05:00

Whew! Tis has been a while. Thanks everyone for giving me such "colorful" suggestions for my soon-to-be contacts. I was looking at the "blending" selections (I forgot the name of the brand, FreshLook or something), but my eyes are on the dark gray/blue, hazel/green, violet/gray, and of course clear... I can't wait for my upcoming eye exam. And I NEED that checkup too. Sometimes, I feel like I have double-vision...

Anyway, I'm building up another volunteer log for myself, seeing that my nearly-desperate job hunting attempts have failed. I need a job to pay for books anyway. Tis no wonder college expenses are a real pain... But as I was saying, I'm now an office volunteer at the local church near my house. These people are really friendly, even Father Paul. He's extremely nice, and my favorite---how he always starts his homily (lecture or sermon) by saying this: "Jesus Christ is our joy and our strength, always in our hearts and in our minds..." Even before he walks up to the mic on the lectern, everyone would already know that those words would come out of his mouth, before he starts saying it. LOL. It's funny, but it's true.

But yes, sadly, volunteering means no $$$$, but that's okay. My volunteer experience would look impressive on my resume. I'm skilled enough when it comes to the office. I can do secretarial work, and I'm nearly a perfectionist, meticulously about any little task I do, plus I double-check things too. Like today, I was going over stacks of bulletins, which were dated back to 1985. Wow, I was 1 years old then... But I had to arrange the weekly bulletins from 1985-1991 and then noting which weeks are missing. These were the years that needed to be sorted out, because these bulletins are not binded in a hardcover book. I asked what was the purpose of doing that, and Ruth, who's an educational psychologist, says that they wanted to keep a record of the community and the church's history. That's amazing though. So after 3 hours, that's all I had to do, since Monday's are the busiest days for them.

Fortunately, I gotta come by around 10am tomorrow to begin my next assignment. I can't wait! I love adventures, and I can smell them drifting in the air... and I also met Victor, who's a seminarian, who invited me to come to one of the retreats that is coming up. It'll be at the local nature center. That's cool---maybe I should come.

Anyway, that's it for now. Hope you guys have a fantastic day or the beginning of the week, rather! LOL.

2004-07-09T15:31:00.000-05:00

I just finished watching White Chicks, a recent comedy flick, and it was so hilarious. If you'd already watched Mrs. Doubtfire, then well, this movie is just another twisted version. You have two African American FBI agents, Marcus and Kevin, dressing up as two ditzy blondes (the wealthy Wilton sisters) in order to find out who's behind the drug dealing, cheating and fraud game. While doing so, these agents enter a girly world filled with shopping, competing with the Wilton sisters' childhood rivals, and learning what it means to be in a committed relationship... or friendship, for that matter. This movie isn't entirely original, for it reminds me of a cross between Rush Hour and Mrs. Doubtfire, but it sure boosts up a few good laughs, especially if you had such a really miserable day.

Updates:

Funny how my tooth pains vanished the day before the doc's appointment, but I sure feel a whole lot better now, plus my teeth are sparkly clean. Time to smile!! =)

But I have another doc's appointment---got to go to the optometrist, because it's now my 2-year checkup. A change of style really---I'm thinking about getting contacts---but the problem is, what color(s) aside from clear?

I have 45 more days or so till school starts. I'm bubbling with excitement. I'm happy with my schedule this semester---another year of psych!! Yay!

I forgot today was Friday, because I thought today's Saturday.

Yesterday, I was watching the news. An intoxicated man just stumbled in front of the tracks of the MetroRail, and now, he's in critical condition. Thank God, he's still alive. Geez, if you hear the bells ringing and stuff, you should've heard that the train is coming!! Here's a nice photo of Houston's MetroRail at this website: here. I see them go by everyday...

I wonder when we're going to move. I've lived in this same house for 16 years (my brother's age). Before that, however, I'd lived in apartment complexes next to some really weird and drunk neighbors, although there were a few who were caring and really friendly. I could still remember those times when I was surrounded by drunken guests who frequently flocked to my apartment late at night and tried to smother me with their awful beer-smelling kisses, while my dad was the host of this little drunken party. Gave me the creeps, even to this day. It was a good thing that my mom stole me away from those drunks and wiped my face clean and tried to calm me down, while I was crying hysterically. Hey, I was about 3-4 years old, what'd you expect me to do? Tried running and they grabbed me. Grrr, even to this day, I still hate people when they're drunk. You'd never know what unexpected things may come from them. *shudder*

But anyway, my parents are still discussing the "idea" of moving somewhere. Don't know where, but I'd like a change. Would be nice. I need to know another place more. I know this place enough---forwards and backwards...

Well, that's a bit of a story there, eh? LOL. Good day, everyone! Take care! And hope you guys have a nice weekend!

2004-07-07T17:19:00.000-05:00

Hi, everyone! Well, I hope you all had a wonderful holiday... And for those who don't celebrate this day, hehe, not to worry, you had your reasons---and besides, it was interesting to know about each country's holidays anyway. And to tell you the truth, I don't really celebrate the 4th of July as most Americans do---going to a big barbeque cookout with fireworks display at the beach, etc. I just stayed home and the 4th of July just passed by like any other day, but yeah, I did hear some firecrackers exploding in the distance. My dad tried burning some firecrackers himself, but unfortunately my mom's 2002 Honda Accord kept wailing its alarm system for the whole neighborhood to hear. I cringed every time. It's even worse when we had a couple of days' worth of raining. Lightning flashes, thunder strikes BOOM!, and off goes that darn car's alarm. LOL.

Anyway, for a couple of days already, my back tooth hurts. I thought that this was the mere beginnings of having cavities. I mean I never had cavities before, and with the various confessions from my friends and other people I know, I'm downright paranoid of having them myself. I brushed and flossed daily, and well, I didn't see any holes, which was a big relief. But after chewing on that chicken drumstick yesterday, my gums hurt. And when I poke my finger in my mouth trying to feel the lump in the back of my teeth, it felt like a new baby tooth is about to sprout out of those gums. And it even felt the same when I run my tongue over it too. Teething. It's no wonder how I felt like biting on things as of late. Martin suggests that I start chewing on cloves with water, etc. *gags* I'm always having oral problems every so once in a while---speaking to people ('cause I stutter quite often and I'm shy), swollen gums (and so the doc said for me to gurgle salt water for a few days), wisdom teeth always growing on the upper right of my teeth, and now this!! This!! Arrghh!! *winces* It hurts, can't chew on my left correctly. And kinda sadly ironic how my dentist appointment is scheduled conveniently tomorrow. Ahhh!! Why? Why does this always happen to me??!!

Anyway, here are some fun sites:

This site is quite addictive. If you love online games, this is the site to go to and have fun: Smilie Games. It kinda helped me with my boredom back then when I was writing my last English paper before the finals. LOL.

But this site cracked me up a lot. Have you ever tried to talk like a moron, a hacker, a redneck, or in Pig Latin? Just type in a sentence or two for it to translate: The Dialectizer.

What's in a name? You might have to scroll down a bit to type in your name for the generator to analyze the meaning of your name. Mine was somewhat interesting... Kabalarian Philosophy: What's in your name?

This is what I got (the ones that apply to me and are true, I put in bold):

Description: Kathy

"While the name Kathy creates the urge to be creative and original, we point out that it causes procrastination, lack of confidence, and the inability to realize your goals and ambitions. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the fluid systems, and tensions or accidents to the head.

"Your name of Kathy gives you the ability to be creative along practical lines of endeavour. Your ideas can be very original and inventive. You enjoy being with people in a social environment. Your personal appearance is important to you, for you desire to make a good impression on others. Your pleasant manner attracts people to you with their problems and you are capable of offering practical advice, though you may not follow such advice yourself. This name causes you to be somewhat too concerned with the personalities, problems, and activities of other people."

Okay, now a quote to end this entry:

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness; nothing so gentle as real strength."---Francis DeSales

Have a great week, everyone! *huggles* Till next time!

2004-07-03T12:22:00.000-05:00

Hi, everyone!! Well, it's almost the 4th of July!! Yay!! =) Fireworks time!!

I know this is such a short post, but well, I haven't had much to say for the moment, aside from the fact that I'm really hungry and so my stomach is growling at me... LOL. But I wish you guys have a safe, but fun holiday!! Hmm, come to think of it, how come there's some big holiday for each month except June?? Are there any MAJOR holidays for June?? *shrug*

Well, Happy Independence Day (for you, Americans, that is...)! And as for those outside of the U.S., do you guys really celebrate this holiday? And if not, what do you guys celebrate that is close to this??

Bye, everyone! Until next post! =)

2004-07-01T19:36:00.000-05:00

Again, I think I might have broken all of my previous reading records. I've read 7 books in less than a week, given that each novel is at least 200+ pages with fairly small font size. These books were awesome:

Caroline B. Cooney: Prisoner of Time and Tune in Anytime
Sophie Kinsella: Can You Keep a Secret?
Parnell Hall: Murder and Trial
Laurell K. Hamilton: Seduced by Moonlight and A Kiss of Shadows

I just watched Spiderman 2, and I thought that it was a pretty good action movie---so much more action than the first one. I didn't like the first movie as much, because all they did was talk and talk and talk some more, and it just drilled me off to sleep. This new movie, however, is like another funny version of having a bad luck day, with the protagonist, Peter Parker, finds that he's nearly failing his college courses, forgetting his own birthday, never showing up to any of his best friends' important occasions and events, not keeping his promises, not being able to pay rent, not being able to have money, and then, what's more shocking is that his sticky spider web abilities are slowly diminishing. Is he still Spiderman anymore? Can he still save the world one day at a time? Anyway, if you guys haven't watched it yet, I won't spoil the ending for you! But all in all, it wasn't too bad; it was fun!

I just finished deep-boiling another 2 and 3/4 batches of eggrolls. Hot oil splattering on human skin is one of the most painful things ever... It's a good thing I'm careful enough not to end up in the hospital with 3rd degree burns, although at the moment, I have to nurse my small wounds with a few packs of ice. Big ouch.

You know, sometimes, I'm an email-checker freak. The first thing when I get online is to check my email. I'm then greeted by hundreds of junk email and then I start emptying out my junk folder from all of the excess. Yep, all goes in the trash.

Wow, just wow. It's finally July! I can't believe it! I mean, a month of summer just passed by! Well, and then I'll be back at school around the 20's in August...

I keep forgetting what I was going to say every single time I get on here. Am I the only one? And so to make up for what I've forgotten, I ramble---like I'm doing now... *shrug* Oh well, my short-term memory ran away from me again... I'll catch it later if I'm in the mood for it... *wink* Happy Day, everyone! =)

2004-06-29T23:51:00.000-05:00

ambiguitylotus' Highway

Tower of Commitment	6
Mt. Happiness	21
Hobotown	66
Lake Love	155
TravelWorld	317
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?

From Go-Quiz.com

ROFL. Okay, so it seems like the main foci here are traveling and love... Hmmm... I wouldn't disagree with this road sign I have, but it's something to ponder about, eh? (I'd always loved seeking adventures and going to places I've never been to before, despite my sometimes-queasy stomach not being able to withstand that dreaded motion sickness...) *wink* Hehe. This is cool. Now, Hobotown?? Uhhh, that would be something I'm confuzzled about. =P Now, why should I or you guys visit Hobotown? Maybe it's an epiphany that I'm helping the unfortunate and that it'll be nice if you guys stop by to give a little silly salutation, eh? Hehe. Works for me. *wink* I'm bound to be helping the poor myself... There's so much to be grateful for, and their eyes hold so much pain that sometimes I just wish I could just reach out and touch them and let them know that things will be all right in the end... But that would be an understatement, wouldn't it?

Anyway, my brain feels a bit lost at the moment. I haven't the slightest idea why... Maybe I'm readjusting back to the core of reality---this blahness of this world, because I was reading a novel as usual. (I do that before I go to bed. Helps me sleep better for some reason. Does anyone know how reading some novel of one's choice affects a person's brainwaves or matter of thought before they go to sleep? Now that would be really interesting to know.)

Back to updates of reality. Hmm, I haven't posted here for a few days. I've been busy---well, not as busy as some of you near-workaholics, but I've been giving my out-of-town cousins a little tour of Houston and whatnot. Tomorrow, I got bigger errands to deal with, like grocery shopping and maybe yell at these Netzero company some more, because we've canceled our Internet account with them long ago and they're still charging us... *sigh* And I've called them 4 times, and they're still charging us, when we already switched to a different service provider... Those bastards... *clench fists* Don't worry, I'm gonna give them a piece of my mind in a polite way before I'll take the drastic measures like maybe suing them or something---just for a threat. Sometimes, what's sad about this world is that people don't take kindness as a good thing, and so, sometimes you have to resort to playing cruel instead of playing nice, you know? But even though these Netzero people are very slow with customer service, I have to stop this charging-on-our-credit-card thing before it really goes out of hand, even though we've stopped using their service several months ago. In plain words, I'm accusing them of dishonesty to the customer and theft because they're ripping us off. Tsk, tsk. Should they be punished?

It's kinda ironic, in a sense, because I've just realized something just some time recently. To most people, I'm the sweet, compassionate, merciful young woman (or girl, depending on the person, because I look way younger than my age) who has a BIG heart, but sometimes, my stubborn, yet practical will rules over it all and makes me into this almost ruthless, but fair and judging sort of person, who considers that justice is needed in this world. And recently, I've been the latter. The nearly cold, emotionless, judging person. Kinda scary, but somehow it's been like my shield to protect me from all of the hurt I've been going through during the past few years, you know? I'm sure everyone has their own sense of defense mechanism, no doubt. But I, for one, need to take a HUGE break from reality and just immerse myself in not complete bliss, but just a bit of it to ease at least some of my pain away for a while...

And about that novel I'm working on. I'm glad you guys are all interested. =) I just have to warn you that the protagonist may sound like a bit of me, but there are surprises ahead. *wink* You'll see soon, when I finish at least 3 of the chapters. LOL... Don't know when, but hopefully soon. Thanks for the patience, you guys. *huggles*

Well, that's all for now, mes amis! And now, I'm gonna scramble off to read your nice little blogs/sites for my sheer and dedicated amusement. =) Oh yeah, didn't I just mention that if we could put together a piece of everyone's blogs/sites together to make a smashing hit anthology? Now, that would be way awesome! I don't think anyone can beat our way cool talent! *big smiles*

*waves* Bye bye for now! And take care! *huggles* Oh yeah, maybe good night too, cuz I should be in bed, instead of being a restless insomniac!! Hehe.. =P

2004-06-25T00:41:00.000-05:00

I am The Empress

The Empress can refer to any aspect of Motherhood. She can be an individual mother, but as a major arcana card, she also goes beyond the specifics of mothering to its essence - the creation of life and its sustenance through loving care and attention. The Empress can also represent lavish abundance of all kinds. She offers a cornucopia of delights, especially those of the senses - food, pleasure and beauty. She can suggest material reward, but only with the understanding that riches go with a generous and open spirit. The Empress asks you to embrace the principle of life and enjoy its bountiful goodness.

For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate.

I've always been fascinated with tarot cards... Not that I believe in them, but it's very interesting to read... LOL. I think it's because of the pictures---the way how the tarot cards are meticulously drawn and whatnot...

This is fairly accurate... hehe.. *blushes* More or less... I also find it kinda amusing really---or at least amusing to know...

You'd just have to wonder why and how and maybe when people make these funniest meme's or online quizzes...

ROFL's Forever!!!

Ok, now that's that. I'm currently working on a novel. *gasps* It's true!! I've never written a novel in my entire life... Well, sorta... But that one was for a class assignment, so that doesn't count (and besides, it was under 100 pages)... A real novel is at least 100 pages in U.S.-typed manuscript, or at least remotely close to something like that... But anyway, I won't let you guys read it, until I'm done with at least 3 chapters. =^-^= Aside from that, it's been raining... as always... That darn weather is a bore...

I was going to say something else, but my mind ran away, so I forgot... For now, I'm signing off, until my next entry, mes amis! *smooches*

2004-06-22T22:55:00.000-05:00

Whew! Where to begin! I've been out all day, and I'm tired, but it was a nice workout for the most part.

Went to Baybrook Mall and just browsed thru the stores. And this is weird. Whenever the weather is extremely hot, my skin gets really dry and dehydrated, or at least my body gets dehydrated. Thus, my skin starts peeling off (now I feel like molting off my skin as a snake does that when it gets old). Anyway, so I went to Bath & Body Works and bought some moisturizers and lotion and body sprays to keep my skin from drying out. Now, I feel like a bee attracted to all of these flowery scents and some type of amphibian (maybe a salamander? or a frog?) trying to balance the crazy oil/moisture skin production... (Sorry, I don't know the technical terms for the human skin... maybe oil glands, right?)... Hopefully, you guys know what I'm talking about... hehe.. =P

And yeah, so maybe now, my poor skin can survive for the rest of the summer. But I LOVE LOVE LOVE my skin during winter (unfortunately, it doesn't snow here.. =( *sigh*). Anyway, my skin is nearly flawless during winter.. The skin glands are perfect.. no drying out, no peeling, etc. =) ...Of course, no complaints.

I saw Gabe today at Circuit City. It's kinda cool and comforting and surprising to meet a few of your friends back in high school in the places where you least expect them to be. I'm so glad that he's enjoying himself at Loyola University. I still keep forgetting where that is... But he gave me a friendly hug.. Awww, such a sweetie... He's known as the "biggest baby" ever in our little circle of friends. In a good way, that is. He's like a big child at heart and his laughs are full, loud, and hearty. When you're around him, it makes you feel like CARPE DIEM... I mean, REALLY, that's how you feel around him. I guess it's because of his laughs that make ME feel that way, at least. =) *sigh* Ah, memories, friends... I missed them all...

I'm afraid of paper cuts, needles, and knives... They're horrible... I hate pricking myself or getting cut by those things... *shudder* Very painful...

It's raining... again... today... Boy, I guess it'll be a month-filled forecast of nothing, but rain. Blah, blergh.

My friend, AZ, and I are sharing ghost stories via AIM. That's both interesting and scary...

Guess what? The wedding photos are finally developed!!! *squeals with excitement* They're lovely! I'm gonna post them up later!!

I've been watching this sci-fi anime lately. It's called Kitty Grade. Tis interesting. And I've also been reading this funny manga too... It's called Eerie Queerie!. I like it so far, even though it's new. =)

Ok, signing off for now, everyone!

P.S. You will have to describe what you do and what's it like for that internship, Mike.. LOL... =) =^-^= Hopefully, I'm assuming you're reading this, because you're a frequent visitor here!! =^-^=

2004-06-20T23:05:00.000-05:00

Well, it seems that now lately, I've been online at the weirdest times of the day. And yes, you guys...as you already know from before, even until 3am. =P LOL.

Anyway, not much has been going on, except that I'm enjoying summer. I gave up on the job hunting for now unless there's an all-out sudden miracle... *yawn* Thinking about taking up an internship somewhere maybe when school starts, and I know a good friend of mine might know one. =)

Aside from that, I've just finished talking about PMS on my last couple of entries, and guess what? now I'm on PMS, and I'm in Pain, vacationing in Moody world, and Sick for the first couple of hours due to stomach and leg cramps and then strangely, I was cold, shivering like crazy---as if I have the cold or something. That was scary. After taking Advril, I was better like an hour later. Whew, I didn't have any more problems that day or the day after that. I'm a girl, and you'd think you'd know everything, but seriously, you don't... Good old human anatomy and biology...

Today's Father's Day. *big smiles* My siblings and I surprised our dad with 2 nice expensive microfiber dress shirts.... They were sooooo smooth and soft--a whole lot silkier than silk dress shirts... It's a good thing that my whole family are smart shoppers, because we bought those shirts on sale. =) And our dad loved the shirts... =)

And later in the evening, we had guests coming over and had barbeque, crawfish, buon bo hue (very spicy Vietnamese noodle soup---that's what I can think of for the best translation... I think I need to read more of those translated menus if I were to go to any more of those Vietnamese restaurants again...), and some other side dishes, like a veggie dish, etc. It was good. I'm stuffed... =) But since I'm on PMS, it's kinda hard for me to even have a LARGE appetite... or maybe I'm just too brain-tired to even think about eating, but sleeping. I've been working on 3 poems lately---trying to get them to perfection, and I'm glad I've finished one!! It's called Renewed Promises of Return. Enjoy! I've gotten lots of great reviews on this poem, and now, I'm embarrassed, but happy... The phrase "awww, shucks" come to mind... =) =P

Well, happy end of the weekend everyone! Hope your Monday starts off a great week! *huggles*

2004-06-18T17:46:00.000-05:00

How to make an ambiguitylotus

Ingredients:

1 part friendliness

3 parts craziness

3 parts empathy

Method:
Layer ingredients in a shot glass. Add curiosity to taste! Do not over-indulge!

Username:

Personality Cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

This pretty much describes me well.. hehe.. =) *wink*

More books I've finished reading:

Manslaughter, Puzzled to Death, and With this puzzle, I thee kill by Parnell Hall...

...and Narcissus in Chains by Laurell K. Hamilton.

It's raining... again... Boy, I'm beginning to hate this crazy rainy weather... Makes everything so dull... *sigh* I'll update more later, everyone!! *blows kisses, huggles*

2004-06-16T14:47:00.000-05:00

I'm amused by a variety of things:

TOP 13 THINGS PMS STANDS FOR:
~ Pass My Shotgun
~ Psychotic Mood Shift
~ Perpetual Munching Spree
~ Puffy Mid-Section
~ People Make Me Sick
~ Provide Me with Sweets
~ Pardon My Sobbing
~ Pimples May Surface
~ Pass My Sweatpants
~ Pissy Mood Syndrome
~ Plainly; Men Suck
~ Pack My Stuff
~ Permanent Menstrual Syndrome

hehe.. This was on the Today's Woman Forum. I find this list true but amusingly hilarious. You guys can add to the list if you want. =P

I also found this amusing e-card to make a friend laugh---and I mean, REALLY laugh. Have you ever wondered what Bush would look like if he were a girl (even though I hear most people saying that he already looks like a monkey with big ears)? Well, check this e-card out.

And this site... Nothing is really moving, but you know illusions can play sensory tricks on your eyes... This is cool though: Rotation.

Well, can you tell the difference between real photos or computer graphics? I can 'cause I got a 7 out of 10 right!!! =) Take this little image quiz, and you can find out: Fake or Foto?! =)

Well, this is the greatest HOT eBay story of the year! If you're having trouble selling items on the Internet, especially on eBay, here's what you do:

1) write a sappy story to get readers feel horribly sorry for you
2) add in a little blog-like humor---witty but true
3) and well... if you need more help, go ask this guy who got divorced by his ex-wife...

You guys should read this really neat story here.

And to end this odd chunk of amusings and since I've been far too long interested in the Japanese culture, I've found this quiz... =) It's a Japanese Name Generator and this is what I got:

My Japanese name is Sakamoto (book of the hill) Michiyo (three thousand generations).
Take your real Japanese Name Generator today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Name Generator Generator.

Ok, now for updates. I've been scraping lots of chunks of skin off lately because of 1) my sandals and 2) from carrying a this heavy box and I scraped a large chunk off from the car... Ouch, I know, but gosh, it hurts so much. I hate getting skin scrapes... They hurt when you put them in a nice hot soothing bath or whatever...

And it seems as if it's been raining for a few days now, and I think it's gonna rain for the rest of the week. Blah.

Monday---hanging out with C at the Museum of Natural Science... I haven't been there probably since either junior high or somewhere in elementary... Can't remember. Tuesday---very tiring, lots of grocery shopping because there's nothing left in the fridge... Good old one-day of the week grocery shopping...

I've recently written a poem from a spur of the moment a couple of days ago. I need to polish it to make it shiny to read. =) And I've been reading lots of Parnell Hall and Laurell Hamilton's novels... I think I've finished like 2-3 novels this past week. =) I need to feed my restless brain really.

I still need to keep in shape. Not that I don't need to, but after all of that past weekends' chaotic houseguests and a wedding and then going out to eat in buffets and restaurants, oh yeah, I rather lower my fat build-up, before I could really feel like my arteries are clogging up to a point where I can't breathe. And besides, I find that working out is actually refreshing... Does make me feel a whole lot better---mood-wise, body-wise, and brain-wise...hehe.. Works for me... Oh yeah, and we Americans NEED a nation-wide body workout, that's for sure. We need to cut down the alarming number of people who are proned to obesity...

Well, that's all for now folks! Hope you guys have a nice day! =)

P.S. Added to today's entry: Let us pray to those who have recently died. May God grant them peace and give them eternal life. AMEN.

1) I don't really personally know Tiffany Davenport, but I've seen her around when I went to Jones High back then. And yeah, I knew she was bubbly enough, but I don't know HOW she died...
2) I don't really know my EYS youth leader's relative well either, but his relative passed away just a few days ago.

2004-06-13T22:16:00.000-05:00

Massaging the temples of my head was a good idea...plus the archs of my eyebrows and my forehead... I just realized that I'm in pain all over... sore...everything aches... and I REALLY REALLY am in NEED of a good full-body massage... But wow, massaging the temples of my head eases a lot of stress and anxiety-related thinking and excess tension of the muscles and even a slight headache... Wow, you guys should try doing that... It's really soothing and makes you feel alert and well, actually, think a whole lot better and clearer too... lol... Kinda funny how this one annoying guy back in high school whom everyone hates told me one time that I should be a massage therapist, because I just happened to "have that magic touch and feel of and for people..." I smiled and took the compliment with a "thank you." Guess what? Because everyone just happens to hate his guts... (really he was that annoying), he happens to graduate a year ahead of us, which was fine by all of the people who've graduated in my class... and oh well, I've never heard from him since... *shrug* Now that I'm a happy bound-to-be sophomore at UST, sometimes, I wonder how my high school class reunion would be like... I guess no one will ever know, huh?

Anyway, it's been raining on and off ALL day today... which was kinda annoying, because I wanted to go out... Thanks to where I live, the good old Atlantic Ocean just loves to bully its way through the southeast coast and tear us up with these crazy thunderstorms and well... floods here and there... I'm just lucky that I live in a neighborhood where much of the residential street construction is high enough to avoid at least a one foot of floodwater... I can't say the same to those of the unfortunate though... But yes, I do see people on TV everyday trying to wade thru those waters, and it's just scary. Cars get stalled, etc. What's even more horrifying is how little kids can be swept away by the strong currents and get sucked up in the sewage drainage at the sides of curbs... So KABOOM! a long-process of fishing those poor kids OUT of the sewage system below the city streets... Kinda creepy, don't you think?? And you'd think parents would be smart enough to watch over their children like vultures, but unfortunately, sometimes it's exhausting and even more difficult to restrain a bubbly kid who looks at the floodwater as if that was the coolest thing in the world. So, with one glance away, next thing you'd know, you'd be hysterically screaming for 9-1-1! Kids do the darndest things and say the darndest things, don't they? LOL.. So unpredictable, and why do we always lay a finger on teenagers and say that teens are part of the rotten apple in the crop... I think not. I guess every growth stage, there IS something to say and to stereotype that everyone can be unpredictable sometimes, you know?? That's why I like psychology so much. It's so amusing... Oh, and what do you know? I'm taking a course in child psychology this fall... I'm excited... Oops, there goes me rambling about psychology again. Hope you guys don't get tired of that... hehe... =P

Cracking up with Commercials

K9 Advantix is one of the coolest TV commercials ever! I love that cute little white retriever lip-synching... It's so adorable, plus there are other cute puppies running around as well... hehe...

The next hilarious commercial is that catchy "Priceless" phrase featuring the Master Card with the guy dancing in front of an all-girl band... And then he goes, "I was thinking more of something like that... You want me to do it again?" And the girls look at him funny and said, "NO!" because he was a lame horrible dancer (supposedly he posed like a choreographer for the girls)..hehe... That commercial cracks me up every time! Somehow I never get tired of this commercial... *wink*

Is it just me, or am I the only who finds that commercials are one of the greatest art of stupidity and retardness ever? And that it just kicks the funny bone in you just because they are just... simply... retarded?? What a way to add to comedy... =P

Anyway, to conclude this entry: Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com! (courtesy of Sam). Yeah, it's about the weird stuff on me, but it isn't hard... I was bored... and I'm blaming it on last night's insomnia... =P

Chao, everyone! And I hope you guys start your week a fresh and happy one! =) Oh, and boy do we have lots of fresh faces here... I need to visit and maybe tag Tab, Cat, and Casey... =) You guys are welcome here anytime! And get a cup of cocoa, or coffee, or whatever... and sit and have a nice time reading thru these endless blogs of entries.. *wink*

2004-06-11T02:21:00.000-05:00

This made me really really really hungry:

find your inner PIE @ stvlive.com

This was interesting, and besides, I like trees:
I'm a Chestnut Tree. What's yours?

Since I've been reading lots of dark fantasy/horror books lately, I thought this was cool. I just had "Ambiguity Lotus" as my first and last name:

I'm Angelique d'Angouleme. What's yours?
The Great Archives determine you to have gone by the identity:
Angelique d'Angouleme
Known in some parts of the world as:
Kiku of The Flesh

The Great Archives Record:
A sensual one who knows the flesh - and knows the blood.

Weird Stuff:

I guess one of these days we'd probably put together an Olympic event for women to run track and show off their chests... And besides, there's a contest already called Thorough Breast Racing. You can check out that site. Boy, oh boy, shall we add this to the entertainment world?? And I thought porn was bad enough... tsk, tsk... *shakes head* What a world.... What a sick, twisted world...

And here's a laugh for the day. You guys should check out the Name Humor website, because these are funny names of real people! Imagine that!! hehe... I mean, I don't think you could go thru life without knowing at least one funny name of a person you know. For example, my algebra teacher's (back in junior high) name was Mr. Clewis, and people have mistaken his name and thought it was Mr. Clueless!! LOL... hehe... Names are funny...

My life as we know it, errr, or maybe as I know it:

Guess what?? C called me today, err yesterday (Thursday) around 4pm---right out of the blue... Weird... It was nice talking to him, but it's been far too long since I've talked to him on the phone. And if I remember correctly, this is like the 2nd or 3rd time he's ever called me, because I was always the one calling!! And yes, he wants to see me... sounded disappointed and upset when I told him that I can't go out today. I needed a rest and a break from reality... so I really wasn't up to any socializing... Said he wanted to see me today or tomorrow or whenever. But I told him that I'll be able to see him next week once everything has settled.. Well, I guess we'll see where this journey leads me, huh?? Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to see him. Much of it, I still have feelings for him---and the other part, well, I just plain miss him...

More on that later... For now, I'm a crazed insomniac... I guess I'd better be off to bed... Nighty!! *huggles*

2004-06-09T17:02:00.000-05:00

IMAO. It's been a little more than a week since I last posted. Lots of things have been going on, and I have a good enough share of drama and comedy and so much more in-between.

Thanks everyone for leaving nice comments on my tagboard and I certainly enjoyed the nice discussion on my comment form to my last journal entry. LOL. Seriously, it DOES give me a headache to read blogs that are ALL in slang or alternating between upper and lowercase letters or worse. If I stumble on those, I try to avoid them as much as possible. LOL. And if kids go to school, turning in papers that way to teachers?? Boy, they are really gonna be humiliated in the academia world.

But anyway, I MISS YOU GUYS!!! *huggles* I think I'm back for now--at least for the time being. LOL.

As promised, I'm gonna post photos from my cousin's wedding later, once I get all the films developed, that is. hehe.. *wink*

Let's see, so far, I've watched The Day After Tomorrow and Harry Potter 3. I really enjoyed the whole idea of survival thing: man vs. Mother Nature. It was an impressive movie. Kinda reminded me of that other movie I watched some years ago called Volcano, except The Day After Tomorrow involves global warming, ice meltdown, the world turning to solid ice. A total opposite, if you ask me... LOL. A big shocker for those who think saving the world is not as important as building and increasing economic uses of natural resources. I'd say it's waaay more important than the economy. Harry Potter wasn't that bad either. Most of the scenes take place outside in nature settings a whole lot. And for those who didn't read the book, yeah, you'll get lost as to how if anything made sense in the movie, but it was pretty good.

I also finished reading 3 novels: Guilty Pleasures by Hamilton, Cozy by Hall, and Burning Marguerite by Elizabeth Inness-Brown. The last of these 3 books was amazing. It was like reading poetry, except it's a novel. Very emotional, profound... Wow, Inness-Brown really has a way with words---the world in that book just seems too real to believe. Anyway, come to think of it, sometimes, I have no idea why I document the books I read. Maybe from sheer pleasure or just waiting for someone out there who has read these books and share their thoughts with me? Or maybe I just like to document it as to take note of all the favorite books I've read in the past just in case I come across it sometime in the future, or if I've forgotten about it and just want to remind myself that I've already read it? hehe. LOL. I guess it may be a combination of all of them---more or less.

Anyway, aside from going to the movies and reading novels before bedtime, it was a big family reunion indeed. I'm surprised how everyone can change so much---physically and perhaps mentally? LOL. Because my cousin (Tr.) was a bridesmaid for my cousin's (L.) wedding, she told me that the fiancee (Th.) was mean and arrogant and egocentric and downright condescending, because she thinks that she's the prettiest of all Houston girls, etc. Well, *big shrug* thus my cousin (Tr.) and the bride (Th.) were both having an ongoing cat-fight ever since my cousin (Tr.) got down here from Amarillo. It now makes me wonder if my cousin (L.) wants to marry just for wealth and status and out of desperation because his ex-girlfriend was already engaged, instead of love? I don't blame his desperation, because he's an all-out nice guy, whom everyone labels him as "the pretty boy." Yes, he's attractive and all, but can well be blind to the true nature of his now new wife. Where did I get this from---mostly from my cousin who was the bridesmaid, but frankly, her story can be corroborated by my other cousins who also have the same opinion of what a she-devil the new wife really is. *shrug* Arrggh, I would have liked it a whole lot better if my cousin (L.) would just wait for the right girl to come along---and yes, he's just only in his mid-20's... That's not old... Enough with that drama. I'm just glad that I'm not involved IN it. That would just be headachy.

Aside from that, my Amarillo and Baytown cousins went to the mall. Also, we also went to Brookside Cemetary to visit my grandmother and my sister. To top off the whole week, the weather was downright raining and gloomy the last 3-4 days of the week. Glad to know that there had been 2-3 tornadoes around southeast Texas from watching the news. *note the sarcasm here*

And what do you know? I've been meaning to write some more poems, but never found the time. That's disappointing. Also, I think I may have upset a friend of mind who called this morning. Oh well, I guess I can call him later. I'm just not the greatest phone-person in the world. I just dislike phones. *shrug* And besides, it was like 11am, and I was grouchy all week because everything was hectic...wedding, family reunion, and I had to provide hospitality to my out-of-town relatives... So yeah, I tried catching up on some zzz's. And also, I'm DEFINITELY NOT a morning person at all.

Also, the wedding reception was kinda fun. And we went out to eat at a buffet restaurant the following day (Sunday). So yeah, I think I may have stuffed myself enough already with seafood and lots of good Asian cuisine! And like Candy, yeah, I think we gals need to go on a workout plan. LOL. Jogging, day 1. Yoga, day 2. Basketball, day 3. Push-ups, sit-ups, etc. Boy, I need to burn these excess calories. I've already gained like an inch of fat!! LOL.

Oh, and going to the mall, I felt like the strings in my heart just pulled when I walked by an attractive guy at the mall when I went with my Amarillo cousins on Friday... and he was smiling. That's really weird. I must've felt really mushy and boy-crazy that day, because that isn't normal for me. And my Amarillo cousins also saw another guy (he was Asian) checking me out when I was playing around with these little snail/spider looking little creatures in their colorful shells... or so they told me. Hmmm, what am I now?? A guy-magnet?? Really, I'm really picky with guys. I would very much like it if the guy has enough wit and can either outmatch me with his intelligence or can suffer and learn and even gain the virtues of trust, honesty, loyalty, and caring I value so much. heh, that's kinda hard to ask for, huh? Well, I don't mind the wait. I have tons of patience, garnered from years of practice. Yeah, but the thing is, I'm focused on one thing right now---having fun in college. *smiles* Hey Silver, what is that little spider-snail-like creature thing I described earlier? I'm asking you, because you already took zoology and I know you've seen these kinds of animals. But hey, I saw them at the mall, and they were crawling in the sand at this little tank at this booth. LOL.

Well, I think I got my whole week covered---most of it anyway. And we took lots of pictures. And I even loved that nice fancy limo my cousin and his wife rode in. I wanna ride in one. I hate driving, really. I'd go for a chauffeur any day, instead of me being the chauffeur and me driving around to do errands. Blah.

Until next time, mes amis! *waves* Tis good to be back!!

2004-06-01T01:13:00.000-05:00

More quizzes... hehe...

Well, I finally saw Mean Girls, starring Lindsay Lohan... As my brother puts it simply, even though he hasn't watched the movie, "It teaches you how to be a slut." LOL.. Actually, when I finally watched it today, he wasn't entirely wrong. LOL.. Yeah, it's about this new girl Cady, pronounced "Katie" (Lohan), who moved from Africa to the U.S., because her parents were working on their dissertation as zoologists, in order to socialize with the real world of high school, because she has been home-schooled all her life. Going from an innocent quiet shy-girl to an all-out wannabe slutty plastic Barbie doll, she learns the trials and triumphs of living in both worlds of what true friends are and that being in the most popular all-girl clique of Northshore High School doesn't add up to make you any happier. This movie is hilarious and surprisingly, it's PG-13. Why am I surprised with this? Well, it has a whole lot more curse words than I expected... Hmm... It seems to me that the younger generations will be learning how to curse a whole lot earlier AND by the time they reach their pre-teens. Tis sad, but frankly, I started to learn, or rather, hear curse words when I was about 10-11 years old.. I guess the kids who already watched this movie will learn how to curse when they are like, what? 5 years old?? *sigh* And we wonder why kids grow up to be very defiant, rebellious, and aggressive... Heh, the irony.

Anyway, one other thing I have to point out: in this movie, some minor actors are Asians, specifically Vietnamese!! That's so awesome!! I mean, Vietnamese people are pretty good in the entertainment world, but they aren't that big in American movies, you know? But really, these Viet girls were talking in Vietnamese and I understood it!! That's so cool! But unfortunately, the translated subtitles were in French!! And I was like: WTF?!?! This isn't right!! The language they are speaking is Vietnamese, and why would the movie be giving us subtitles in French? Furthermore, not everyone who has watched this movie can READ in French!!! Arrggghhh!! That's why sometimes, I feel so inferior because we are minorities!! And we SHOULD have subtitles in Vietnamese. I don't see any difference with Vietnamese, because we use the alphabet and the accents just like the French does. The only difference is that when we speak in Vietnamese, it sounds like Chinese...

That is that. I went shopping today. Hmmm, no I didn't buy anything. I just like walking around and browsing thru and even window-shopping. hehe... Besides, I went hunting for shoes for my sisters, because we need to look pretty for the wedding coming up. And then grocery shopping at Walmart. Whew, we really filled the cart. Twas heavy... Tons of food, because guests will be coming over pretty soon from out of town!! Yikes!! Yeah, my cousin's wedding will fit as another family reunion... LOL... Think of it as my family feeding a zoo of hungry animals..Teehee!! =P

And if I don't go back to blog, I'll miss you guys, but don't worry, I'll be back! And guess what?? Maybe I'll post pictures of moi from the wedding...hehe... =P

Chao, everyone!! And take care! *huggles*

2004-05-29T01:14:00.000-05:00

I've made 2 and a half batches of eggrolls for tonight's dinner... So if you count all the eggrolls, it's almost like some 200 something of them plus the big-sized ones... And you eat this with vermicelli (that's a type of fine and thin white noodles), which is served with fish sauce and veggies. Yum! I'm glad everyone loved it! And this time, the eggrolls didn't burn black!! hehe.. =P Well, at least I've mastered my culinary skills by not starting a fire alarm with those eggrolls! I guess when one gets older, you get more experience, and ergo, you do things without that many problems... LOL... But it was good!! I'm stuffed!

Thanks, everyone with your coolest html advice.. I'm gonna play around with it later.. *huggles*

This quiz cracked me up! Am I really that poisonous?? =P

ambiguitylotus is poisonous! Induce vomitting if ingested.

N
POISON

From Go-Quiz.com

*whistles* I'm impressed. This was somewhat an accurate description of me... Although I must add that only sometimes I'm loud. LOL.

A	Amorous
M	Mysterious
B	Bold
I	Intelligent
G	Gentle
U	Unreal
I	Innocent
T	Tough
Y	Yum
L	Loud
O	Overwhelming
T	Talented
U	Unnatural
S	Sensational

Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com

TGIF!! Whew!! Wowzies!! It's a weekend already!! Hope everyone's doing good!! =^-^=

2004-05-27T00:40:00.000-05:00

Update: Well, I managed to finish a new archive to my co-home website at Geocities, which is called Laughable Moi. Enjoy! My favorite is the Leprechaun one... teehee... *winks*

Well, here's another html challenge I'm yet struggling with:

1. "http://URL/#top" is a good way to go to the top of a page (assuming that one is at the bottom or somewhere near), but how about going to the bottom of a page (when one is at the top)?

2. Now how would you do that if you want to refer readers to a certain text on a certain page (i.e. subtitle of a section on a page, etc.)?

3. Same thing as #2, but how would you do that to an image on a page??

4. What I'm doing to #'s 1-3 is NOT on Blogger.

Have a nice day, everyone!! =^-^= Thanks a bunch! I'll do a real update of ma vie later... *winks*

2004-05-25T16:38:00.000-05:00

Butterflies are some of the prettiest insects ever!! Butterflies use passive ways to defend themselves against their enemies and predators. In doing so, their colorful wings have special features designed to fool predators. The wings can sometimes look like the eyes of a creature or even a sly fox! This function through the use of wings is called Batesian Mimicry. You guys absolutely HAVE to check this website out! It features awesome photos of butterfiles: Faces & Figures! (Yeah, I know I'm excited! But I was mitigating boredom by surfing the net! *grins*)

Yes, I feel a bit better everyone! Thank you all for your wonderful cyberhugs and lovely words! *big hugs*

Well, when June 5th rolls around the corner, I'll be attending my cousin's wedding. Whew! Another family reunion! I can't even keep track of all my nieces and nephews!! Too many!! But I'm just glad that I'm not one of the bridesmaids. I mean, I love to play dress-up every so once in a while, but being a bridesmaid?? I can't even imagine myself being one, or even a bride, or even getting married, or even having kids!! When people ask me about it, I'm like: "Uhhh... I... I'm not sure...yet... Me having kids?" *faints and face becomes pale* LOL. You get the idea.

I'm still job-hunting... Before you guys know it, I'm gonna get really annoyed and become a vicious job-hunter... Whoops!! *shush* Did I say that?? I think all of Hamilton's Anita Blake Vampire novels are getting to me... ROFL.. =P *wink*

I wish someone can teach me how to do crossword puzzles. I'm such a linguist. I absolutely am IN LOVE with WORDS. I play around with them all the time. My mom said that back in high school when she came over to the U.S. back in 1983(?), she used to do crossword puzzles in the Sunday newspapers and she used to be the best poet in her class back in Vietnam. Now, she can't write poems anymore or at least don't remember how to write poems in Vietnamese, which is disappointing because I can write poems in English and French, and I wish I know how to do so in Vietnamese. Ah well, it looks like I've stolen my mom's childhood talent! LOL. =P As for crossword puzzles, I'm aware that you can fill in the boxes from the clues, but I wish I know ENOUGH to do them, but I don't. Whenever I try them, I can figure out at least ONE or NONE of the words to fill in the boxes. And you know what? It just happens that I came across an interesting crossword puzzle novel by Parnell Hall when I went to the library yesterday, and so far, I've finished 2 of the books of the Puzzle Lady series. I ABSOLUTELY love a good mystery. =) Umm, I know, I know, I can be such a nerd, but I love a little brain workout, just as a good physical body workout... hehe.. You guys can go to Ric's Exercise Blog for nice articles and tips and stuff on exercising! =)

Well, signing off for now! I hope I have amused you!! *winks, hugs, blow kisses* Until my next post, mes amis!! *waves*

2004-05-22T18:09:00.000-05:00

Maybe I'm an insanely nervous, emotional wreck... I can't find myself to let ANYTHING go... =( *cry* I cry when people I want to talk to don't want to talk to me. I cry when I'm just sitting there swamped in sentimental bitter spirits. I cry when I don't get a response from someone. I cry even for absolutely no reason. I feel like I'm a crybaby at times. But SERIOUSLY, I have a somewhat small history of abandonment, and that's a phobia for me. I think that's why it's just making me over-react to even the smallest things. I don't know how to say good-bye or to even accept one. And yeah, I'm taking it badly... but really, it's a phobia... and I'm finally getting myself to accept that. I've been livng in denial for years, and now---I'm beginning to know myself---a WHOLE lot more...

I really don't want to be abandoned by the people I love and care about. I just CAN'T. Sometimes, I feel like I'm too dependent on people, but then again, when one thinks about it, I've been an independent young individual all my life, and I can't carry all the burden on my own like this. Doesn't anyone understand that?????!! I need help. A shoulder to cry on, some physical touch of re-assurance... like a hug, and my world would be perfect.

I would not need anything else.

2004-05-20T15:48:00.000-05:00

100 Awesome Stuff, Part Four:

61. this little kitty face I always use--> =^-^=
62. sending and receiving email, letters, & cards
63. Jackie Chan & his movies
64. Ayashi no Ceres
65. Butterfly by Tsukiko Amano
66. magic & magic tricks in general =)
67. buttery toffee popcorn with nuts-->yum...
68. Hamilton's Anita Blake novels
69. having accomplished or achieved a long-term goal, and knowing that all the hard work/efforts had paid off
70. pockets! lots of pockets! I like backpacks with pockets, purses with pockets, pants with pockets, etc. (I know, I'm strange. lol)
71. good quotes (i.e. like the ones Maddie sometimes post in her blog)
72. guardian angels
73. arm-length-sized (and the right sized) teddy bears/stuffed animals to squeeze tightly when you need some comfort late at night
74. playground swings!!! Tis the next best thing to flying for free, other than taking off in an airplane, which requires money!! (weeeeeeeeeee!! yay!! lol, I know I can be so child-like at times!)
75. prayer
76. stickers!
77. good humor--even sarcastic, wise-crack, or smart-alecky ones... They're all funny... =P
78. video games
79. solving mysteries & sometimes puzzles
80. locks and keys... I dunno, but sometimes I'm obsessed with locks and keys--Perhaps I'm afraid of people prying into my private life at times, and then again, I'm a very secretive and private person. I like to keep everything locked. It took me a long time to open up to others.

Whew! 20 more and I'll be done! I know this list is taking me forever! LOL.

Anyway, the two parent parakeets now have 5 more eggs, or so I've been told. That means once the eggs are hatched, we'll have a total of 10 flying parakeets. We probably would need a bigger cage, plus I'm afraid of opening the cage, because then it's tiring to try running around the house catching them when they fly out of the cage.

I finally found the time TODAY to go and visit everyone's sites/blogs. I miss you all, and my, I've seen some changes here and there... hehe.. =P

I don't think C wants to see me anymore. I took it badly, I know, but we were supposed to meet yesterday (Wednesday) and hang out. Turns out that he had "something" and he "can't make it." It just hurts me a whole lot when I make plans with the people I care about and they change it at the last minute. I think I should just block him from AIM and not talk to him for a while. I need to pull myself together...again---for the life of me.

I'm still job hunting, still trying to type up these resumes for these interesting internships. I hope I can get somewhere. I really hate being idle. I'm probably like the worst restless person ever!! Probably why I'm a sufferer of insomnia. heehee. =P

On a lighter note, I finally registered for my classes. And I was waiting forever due to the financial paperwork that wasn't getting processed on time, etc. Stupid problems.

I was upset with two of my grades: chem and bio, but I passed nonetheless. *sigh* I love bio, but I guess I'm struggling, because the professor is tough---she's a wacko, even though I really like her. Her exams are insane! As for chem, arrgghh, it was driving me nuts, but I'm glad I passed. I nearly failed, even though I studied for that class like crazy. But other than that, I'm relatively happy with my classes for this fall. I'll stick to one major at a time: psychology! At least I made an A! Other than that, I'll retake chem and bio later.

Ok, I think that's it for now. I think I was going to talk about something else, but I forgot. *shrug* Ah well. Good day everyone!! *smiles*

P.S. Hey cool!! They have a new movie coming out for the famous newspaper cartoon, Garfield!

2004-05-17T23:40:00.000-05:00

Well, it's already 3 days! And the phone line is still dead. I'm tired of calling these AT&T folks. Can't they just fix our phone line already??? There's still no dial tone, and we need to use the phone!!! Also, no one has been able to call us at all!! Should we switch back to Southwestern Bell?? Grrr, these phone services get on my nerves sometimes...

Had fried fish for dinner some nights ago, and almost burnt them. Seriously, I'm the worst cook in the world! The only advanced cooking skills I have is when I deep-fry those nice homemade eggrolls... =P Other than that, I'm horrible at culinary arts...

I am finally able to register for my classes for this coming fall semester... I'm gonna drive over there to UST this Wednesday to do so---otherwise I've been waiting ever so patiently, because they were trying to get my financial aid paperwork processed and verified before I'm able to register.

I've just gotten the nice opportunity to tell a dear friend of mine that I think my family is cursed. How? Well, we have a family history of people drowning. Therefore, I'm not entirely hydrophobic, but I'm very much afraid of just taking the risk of learning how to swim, especially whenever summer rolls around. My sister already passed away in 1997 because she drowned at Lake Conroe, and no one was able to save her. I, on the other hand, love water... I love being near it---it soothes me, and it sparks much poetry in me. I never had any problems with water, but sometimes the fear of death crosses my mind. But as it is, I think a person drowns for every generation, so of course, it'd make sense that I won't be Time's next drowning victim. Thus, I think my family is cursed in that sense. And I'm just glad to know that I'm not only one with this kind of creepy history in my family. I've heard worst.

I sometimes do things at the strangest times. For example, I wash the dishes 2am, when normally, most people do that right after dinnertime. I'm beginning to eat my meals backwards: dessert first, then veggies, then side course, then main course... *blink, blink* I'm weird. LOL. I like reading novels backwards at times. It's fun. I eat everything with spoons... even spaghetti... when you're supposed to use forks, I use chopsticks. =) I put on shoes and socks left first, before right... I do that even with earrings... left first, then right. Oh yeah, my nails grow perfectly on my left hand, but they're usually chipped on my right... hehe... Cheers to the Union of the Weirds. =P

Have a wonderful week everyone!! *waves* By the way, what is up with my tagboard?? *blink, blink*

2004-05-13T14:47:00.000-05:00

I skipped breakfast, because I'm not a breakfast person. It's already past lunchtime, and I should eat, but I'm working tirelessly away on these poems I've written and also on my abandoned website at Geocities: Ambiguity Lotus V.I.. I love the new layout now, plus I've learned enough html skills from you guys in order to create a more sophisticated website! I remember having so many versions and that it was all disorganized and that I loved putting little animated images here and there and was focused on the aesthetics of a website. But now, I'm happy making it easy to navigate for visitors and to keep it short, sweet, and simple. =) Enjoy!! :)

It was nice talking to Candy around 1pm on her time, and 3am on my time today... hehe... Yeah, I suffer a lot from insomnia due to restlessness and that my mind never seems to rest. I'm always thinking of creative things or daydreaming... hehe...

It's been raining for days now, and I'm feeling gloomy just looking at the rain. I'm in a happy mood now, and I should see at least the light tint of warmth from the sun and feeling the playful breeze around my hair, but no, it just HAVE to rain today. Thunderstorms, tornado warnings.... oh, goody... FLOOD alerts!!

I was having a weird, freaky dream last night or a couple of nights ago. I was yelling at my last temporary significant other, T, because he was hitting on my youngest sister. I was cursing at him and calling him a jerk... Boy, was I mad. And besides, he's not worth much, suffice to say...

C is coming home from MA again---this time, for the summer. I've got butterflies again... I'm always so nervous and shy around him...

Well, I'm off to eat. I'm starving!! Bye everyone!! =)

2004-05-10T11:00:00.000-05:00

Hi, everyone!! Sorry for not updating for a while! And more BIG apologies for not being able to visit everyone's nice sites... *cry* I've been busy, trying to study my @$$ off for all of these exams! I'm nearly done! Just one more to go---and tomorrow I'm gonna kick @$$ with that psych exam. =D

And pretty! I'm in awe with the new changes to Blogger. I like it. =) teehee... Yeah, I'm so amused.

Thanks everyone for leaving messages for me on the taggie and on the Haloscan comment form... =) Makes me feel really happy that I'm so glad to have come here to Blogger to make it my OWN personal home... unlike the weird confusing html and in-some-cases-trashy Livejournal... But anyway, I miss you guys!! A WHOLE LOT! And now, I'm here to post, and just looking at the date of my last entry, *whistles*, wow! almost a week ago!!! Yikes! Sorry about that!

Anyway, let's see what has happened to me this past week or since the last time I updated... LOL...

1) I finally watched Finding Nemo! Awww, I like the story and the graphics... Tis awesome!
2) I'm so glad that the local library near my house is finally open! Otherwise, I had to go down MapQuest just to find other libraries in Houston! I mean it's so insane. They renovate that building, what it seems, like every couple of years!! GRRRRR... Can't you just leave it as is, you know? There are people who need to check out books here!!
3) Guess what? I have 5 haiku published at UST's literary magazine called Laurels! I'm happy! =) And my English professor really liked my haiku and told me to keep on writing! =) And some of my friends who've read the magazine said that they really liked it too... I can't wait to decide what to write so I could submit it to the next issue.
4) Mother's Day was nice. There were people at my house, and it was loud, and I found it very difficult to study for my chem exam (which I took today), but I'm glad I've studied like 5 hours worth before everyone showed up. I made a nice flower-pressed art piece for my mom. Glad she liked that. Worked really hard on it too...
5) Exercising is nice. It works wonders for my aching back... I know I need to take care of my back, because I've sprained it before...pulled a muscle or something a couple of or so years back...
6) Hanging out with new friends is cool. =) And after tomorrow, I've finally finished 1 year of college! I'm gonna miss everyone over the summer, though... But then, I have a stretch of summer ahead of me! =) Woohoo!!! *bounces around*
7) I have some of the freakiest dreams lately... Come to think of it, I can't even remember what I dreamt about now... *shrug* Ah well...
8) The weather has been humid... Ewwie, ewww! Tis so bad to live in Houston over the summer. It's not an ideal summer visiting spot for tourists/visitors, but hey, I've lived here all my life! =P
9) Tomorrow's my brother's birthday... It's always so hard finding a present for guys, in general... But knowing my brother, he likes electronics, technology, computers, etc... You get the idea... LOL... I got him this nice thingee-majigee that opens up automatically when you press this button, and it shows the time, date, calendar, etc... It's really cool... Not a PDA though, but ah, whatever... Don't remember what it's called... hehe...
10) I'm such a bookworm as of late. Well, I'm reading another book by Laurell K. Hamilton, and it's called Cerulean Sins. hehe. Can't wait to finish it.
11) You know that 100 AWESOME List I have yet to finished? I only got like the next 5 for now, but I'll post 20 each time... and it's taking me forever to think of the things I haven't listed yet! =P
12) Being a moderator of TW is actually tough and easy at the same time. Tough, because sometimes you have to delete posts that are inappropriate or answer a member's questions---and easy, because you get to make the forum fun! =) And it's a very interactive forum too.
13) I think I'm gonna end this "list of happenings" here... LOL. Other than that, I've been very much content with life and busy studying for those torturous exams! And yeah, some moments between those two that I sometimes feel like I'm a loner---or the loner of all loners... But to think on it, I know I have friends and family and people out there who never cease to make me laugh and smile! So thank you!

Well, tis a long post! A week since! If I were to ramble on, I think I could write a novel out of this entry (but I won't)! *winks* LOL. Have a wonderful Monday/Tuesday everyone (depending on where you are in this world that is, considering the difference in time... LOL)! *hugs*

P.S. Happy Birthday, Thu!

2004-05-04T14:30:00.000-05:00

Heartbreak or Heartbeat?

I sometimes do not know how
to tell you that I miss you...
While I just long to hear Time,
breathing another moment
for the both of us, it feels
like I will never stop my
constant heartbeat for you, Love.

I sometimes wonder why I'm always the last to know things. Do people think I could just break that easily? I hate being the last person to know something, and maybe I can break easily... But that doesn't mean that I should be the last person to know something, especially when it's important. I hate it when people don't tell me these things in person. They just have to break my heart and make me cry over instant messenging or thru email. (In fact, it's not even over the phone!) Are they afraid to see me or hear me cry? Maybe they don't want to feel guilty, when they know they're in the wrong, if they do make me cry? I hate it when people delay the time when they're supposed to tell you something important right away. I hate it when people don't want to communicate---they don't want to talk thru things to clear out any misunderstandings or any ambiguity.

That's why even now, I still don't understand why my relationship with C was broken. All I know is that he broke it off over some lame excuse and made it seem like it was all my fault, even though he said it wasn't, but I still feel like I have to take some small parts of the blame. *sigh* I hate things, especially something like this, to confuse me. I hate being stuck in the middle of something I want to get out of or of something I want to understand.

May 2nd, Friday night---(the date was this past Sunday)---was actually the good ol' anniversary of the senior prom. Seeing C, with his arm wrapped around his new girlfriend, broke my heart. I should've never gone to that prom. It hurt so much. I cried in the restroom. I was glad that no one noticed. And it was a good thing I left early too. The aftermath was interesting. He said (over AIM) that he wanted to ask me to dance before I left, and I was thinking, "Yeah, right. You would only talk to me when your girlfriend isn't around. And how long would you wait to ask me to dance? Like, never??" Anyway, he said (over AIM), "Oh well, I guess I'll never get the chance."

And I was thinking, "Damn right, you won't. First, you broke off our relationship a couple of weeks before Christmas. Then you went out with someone else during that Christmas. Next, you were having major problems with your new girlfriend and then coming to me whining about it---wanting a sympathetic ear and knowing that I was one. And then you gave off ambiguous hints as if you wanted me back and tried to 'hang out' with me. And finally, you went to the prom with her, and do you know how long I was miserable?"

Arrghh... Even now, I'm still frustrated. I don't know whether if we are still friends or if we are somewhat mending our relationship whenever we see each other, because it had always ended up with some physical contact like a regular relationship would (i.e. holding hands, kissing, hugging, etc.). And that's why I'm frustrated, bitter, confused... Mostly, I hate him for breaking my heart, and yet loving him at the same time, because I've come to care about him and accepted him more than anyone has done (he did admit this too).

Well, that's the Cliff Notes version of me and C. And I'm just talking about it, because of May 2nd. I wish I knew where I fall in my relationship/friendship with C. That's why I hate being stuck in the middle.

Anyway, I have to get this paper done for English. Good ol' Hamlet. I'll post a happier post later, everyone! Sorry, for such a miserable post. I guess I'm just stressed out.

2004-05-02T18:19:00.000-05:00

100 Awesome Stuff, Part Three:

41. making scrapbooks
42. creating collages
43. unexpected surprises (hopefully good ones!)
44. traveling & vacation!
45. anime art
46. fantasy art
47. chatting with people online thru instant messengers (AIM, etc.)
48. giving advice
49. helping others
50. looking at my watch or looking at the clock! (my weird habits to keep track of time!)
51. lava lamps
52. snow globes of any kind aside from X-mas decorations
53. eyes (seriously, i love looking at the colors)
54. crystal balls
55. fashion jewelry (gold, silver, or even with birthstones!)
56. biking
57. roller-blading/skating
58. foreign languages
59. website designing & graphics
60. stars!

To be continued... (Hey! I'm nearly done!)

I've been very unproductive this week. *sigh* I guess the semester is almost over, and all I want to do is slack off. But I'm gonna be very busy this week---an 8-page paper to write, finals to study for, eep!! The list goes on... *panic attack!*

Anyway, this past Saturday, I thought I'd lost $L when I went to Walgreens and this little Vietnamese market down my house for a bit of grocery-shopping and to pick up some meds. Half an hour later, I was home, panicking, wondering whether I'd lost the $L bill. I frantically looked everywhere, and then I decided to call the pharmacy at Walgreens. They looked for it and said that they didn't see it. I told them that perhaps the Hispanic guy behind me must've picked up the bill when I took the prescription papers out of my jean pockets. I went back to both stores, retraced my steps, trying to find the bill. I finally gave up, went home, tired... and finally, resolved to believe that I've lost it. I'm glad that I didn't lose my mother's credit card though... But $L is a lot! I mean, here I am, trying to save up money for college, and if I lose it, well, my little lifetime savings is a wee bit too broken. And besides, I'm still looking around for a job if someone would give it to me. I hate job-hunting, because then I feel as if though prejudice is always there lingering... Anyway, I cried out of frustration and went to sleep that night, beaten. Next day (Sunday), guess what? The bill was snugly resting in the pockets of my denim purse!! *smacks forehead* And to think that I've gone thru that much trouble!!

Anyway, I'm now a moderator of the famous TW Forum! This is awesome. And remember the online tutoring I've signed up for as a job? Well, I've been waiting forever to get my training from the person who runs the site at Greater Paths, but she always seems to be busy, and I feel like I'm being a burden to her... So, I think I might email her later to just quit, and to tell her to take down my photo-profile page. Oh well, I guess I'll never be able to tutor students online, huh?? I think it's better in person though.

I'm glad everyone is enjoying each other's sites/blogs. =) Makes me melt with happiness. ---> Hehe, just something I want to get out there. Fun, fun, indeed!

I'm so glad that the semester is almost over! After finals are finished next week, I plan to hang out with people I haven't seen for a really long time! Don't know what will happen though. I hope I could spend time with C as well ... *crosses fingers*

Well, hope you guys had a lovely weekend, and hope your new week starts off wonderfully!! Until next post, everyone! =)

2004-04-30T00:37:00.000-05:00

100 Awesome Stuff, Part Two:

21. origami
22. flower-pressing
23. theology
24. Tru Calling
25. knowing about gothic culture & style
26. laughs & smiles
27. long heart-to-heart talks & sharing secrets and ideas
28. dreams & daydreams
29. Nestle's Drumstick Caramel Ice Cream
30. A Little Snow Fairy: Sugar
31. listening to storytellers, artists, musicians, science & psychology lectures of research, etc.
32. technology (computers, PDA's, laptops, etc.) Where would we be without them?
33. learning about health-related issues
34. Charmed
35. autumn leaves
36. romantic sceneries (i.e. water fountains with great light effects, a nice ballroom with scented candles, etc.)
37. hugs
38. love
39. strength
40. faith

To be continued...

2004-04-28T17:42:00.000-05:00

Some quizzes of the sorts:

What poison are you?

Your Life Line reveals that you are a very passionate person that possesses an imaginative and romantic nature.

Your Head Line reveals that you lack confidence, but have a sense of grievance. You carry a chip on your shoulder, but will vent this emotion through participating in political activities.

Your Heart Line reveals that you have a very masculine or physical nature. You tend to choose your partner based on his/her social status or financial earnings. (*snorts* As if!!)

Your Fate Line reveals that you will have an early and independent start to your career, and will be successful in your life's work.

You have a Water hand. You are a person who is quiet, reserved, dreamy, insecure and intuitive. Your optimal career choices are to work as a nurse, psychiatrist, chiropractor and psychic.

You guys can take this quiz HERE.

And here's another interesting quiz. We all have personalities, right? Great! Now our own blogs/sites have a personality as well. I like this quiz because it backups with a psychological view and briefly discusses some of those concepts---actually, it's Carl Jung's neo-Freudian views. (He's a famous psychologist.)

My Bloginality is ENFJ!!!

Is someone taking my online identity? Check out the familar name and motto of ambiguity-ness at this site: Yambiguity.

And I'm still working on the 100 List. It's harder than I thought!! =P

Happy Weekday(s), everyone!!

2004-04-24T17:57:00.000-05:00

This is the list I've been meaning to do since for... who knows when? LOL. I'm going to do it by parts though...

100 Awesome Stuff List (as seen on Michael's site on 04.09.04), Part One:

1. poetry
2. seafood
3. psychology
4. Ayumi Hamasaki
5. friends
6. family
7. God
8. flowers
9. my blog/site
10. everyone's blogs/sites
11. paranormal stuff
12. Linkin Park
13. Evanescence
14. His Dark Materials trilogy
15. movies
16. summer fruits
17. waterfalls
18. nature
19. dogs
20. birds

To be continued...

Well, happy weekend, everyone! So far, I had a pretty much uneventful Saturday. Nothing new is going on, except that I'm working on my poster project for biology lab. Aside from that, I'm writing reviews for the Today's Woman Forum as well as for my psych class and my own amusement. =)

I'm thinking about getting a minor in creative writing (just from reading through the course catalog of UST), so I'm working on all genres of writing for now! =) I'd be so thrilled if I get a book published one of these days! =)

Aside from that note, I think I did pretty well with my bio exam yesterday. The chem exam---I think it was too long... It was just nothing but work out problems of calculations! No multiple choice whatsoever! Yeah, everyone thought it was pretty overwhelming...

Yesterday, I talked to my friend about getting an undergraduate degree. Yeah, she's crazy to major in chem, but she wants to be an optometrist, so I had to console her, telling her that she'll make it! And of course, it's kinda funny if you give someone advice and you end up not taking your own advice, isn't it? Ah, the irony, but really, if I'm not going to pre-med, I won't sweat it, because I find the world of psychology the greatest place for me to be in. There's so much out there. Furthermore, I'm planning to conduct an undergraduate research and have it presented to the entire school campus and the community! That'll be so exciting! I don't care if it looks good on applications. All I care about is putting myself out there and seeking and discovering something new to not only improve medicine, but health. Psychology is just as important as medicine. In fact, did you guys know that Americans are ranked one of the top countries with extreme levels of depression and stress? It's really sad, but true... And with me working on reviews and doing research for my further future studies, I hope to contribute my findings to promote good health for not only Americans, but for the world.

Anyway, enough of that. You'll read about it more once I finish my reviews and other things. Also, yesterday was supposed to be my online training for my online tutoring. How does that work? It's like an almost private online chatting with a nice network to all the works plus email. So whenever the student ventures into the realms and ask for me, the tutor, I help him/her. Unfortunately, the server is down, so I was unable to even get my scheduled training. *sigh* Ah well, but I did email the head manager though.

Today is raining---horribly. I had to take my siblings for dance practice, because they will perform later for the Marian Day celebration. In case you guys don't know what that is, it's a Catholic Christian tradition honoring the beloved Virgin Mary, Mother of God. So the dancers wear pretty dresses, flowers in their hair, etc. I think it's more of the Vietnamese Catholics carrying out this tradition though. =) Yeah, so it was raining, and I was scared of driving, because I couldn't see anything!! Well, southeast Texas is known to have floods and hurricanes anyway. And you ask me how I survive all of that, eh? Let's just say that I'm grateful to still be here!

In the meantime, take care, everyone! And I better expect to see some of you bloggin' again! hehe... =P Have a lovely and hopefully, an un-rainy weekend!!

2004-04-22T16:24:00.000-05:00

a) I've finished another interesting review. Check out A~Lotus' Reviews on "why good guys always wear white." (It was for my psych class anyway. I enjoyed this article very much, and besides, I made an "HP", meaning that my review rocks---that it was a "high pass"!)
b) My two parakeets have 3 baby parakeets---and now the baby parakeets are all grown-up and looking so adorably chirpy!
c) Sporks are the greatest eating utensils ever!! =) Of course, the traditional chopsticks are cool, too. You can't beat that!
d) I have bio and chem exams tomorrow. Wish me luck!! *paranoia is starting...*
e) Tomorrow is my online(?) training session for being an online tutor. I get paid per session, I think, so I'll start working right at home on Monday... I'm not really sure how reliable this job is, but we'll see. I only work 3 hours a day, 3 days a week. =)
f) I'm disgusted just driving thru Houston freeways and streets... I mean, do people have any respect? Do you expect people just to clean up after them all the time?? It's so pathetic! I mean, here I am, just driving home from school to see a big 3-seat sofa on the side line of the freeway! At times, I see scattered plastic bags and bottles floating around! Ugh! Which reminds me to say...
g) Happy Earth Day, everyone! Do something to take care of our environment! Really, we need to take care of it before we lose more than what we bargain for! We can't afford to lose our only home... not unless the planet Mars is habitable any time soon. Huh, it'll be really sad if we DO even end up polluting Mars as well... *shakes head*
h) That's all folks!! =^-^=

2004-04-19T12:14:00.000-05:00

Wow... I'm impressed with my lack of updating. I'm blaming it on my insomnia for all the late-night-staring-at-the-computer-while-trying-to-finish-my-endless-projects motivation. Hehe. Anyway, I should be going to the library to study with my buddy from chem lab in a few minutes, but oh, I'm so tired to even get up off of this nice and comfy wheeling chair in this computer lab at UST. *yawn* I love these chairs with wheels... I mean, life is so much easier with them!!

Now let's move onto other topics, shall we? I've recently finished updating a new addition to the Christian Archive with the famous, most-talked-about-film ever: The Passion of Christ. It explains some really good symbolism throughout the entire film, and biblical references were used and the Jewish tradition was explained behind it all. I encourage that you guys check that out if interested, but be warned that these are notes taken based on a conference and that it addresses 16 points (symbols) of the film---so it's kinda long...

Also, a fresher addition to the A~Lotus Tour: I've added A~Lotus' Reviews not only for entertainment and amusement purposes, but to illustrate the artistic and intellectual bases of whatever the abstract is, be it video, art exhibit, music, etc. I guess I'm exploring more of my writing skills, so to speak. But I'm a member at Today's Woman Forum, and I'm refining my skills as a writer. =)

Well, it's a Monday, and I guess I'll update later. I think I've bored you guys already. LOL. =)

2004-04-14T12:38:00.000-05:00

Now this was supposed to be the continuing PART 2 of my other entry, before Blogger chopped off half of my entry when I "published" it, and my entry wasn't even posted for the public to see!! I'm just glad that that problem is solved! Whew! Should we also thank St. Isidore of Seville, who's the patron saint of the Internet and computers?? hehe. Thanks Martin for enlightening me, knowing that I'm always amused. =) And while we're still on that subject, Martin found the article I was talking about in one of my earlier entries. Remember those Shinto priests giving blessings to those computers that were infected with viruses and other computer-related problems? Well, here's the article.

Ok, now back to my PART 2 entry:

Now time for a little switcharoo... My siblings now are either asleep or playing video games, and my parents are at work... Other than that, I love the feel of a comfortable silence every now and then. I can hear myself think for once. LOL. And a nice relaxing weekend is all I need right now---no, what I need is a vacation. A total change of scenery. Yeah, I can't wait to travel the world someday... And just in case you are wondering: No, I haven't been outside the U.S. yet, so I don't even know how my ancestors' country looks like either, but only in videos and photos. =( But someday. I'm not worried. I have a lifetime...

Now, is anyone up for a few quizzes? Lol. Sometimes, I find that these quizzes can make any rotten day smile.

How stuck in the past are you??

How sensitive are you??

Well, have a wonderful blessed Easter everyone! And remind me to finish The Passion of Christ symbolism notes... I'll put those up soon. It's an interesting read though. I can guarantee that. =)

Anyway, today is finally Wednesday, and this semester is almost over! I have to start studying for final exams really soon, cuz my classes end the first week of May! =) hehe. *jumps excitedly* I don't even know what my summer plans are---maybe traveling, hopefully getting employed somewhere by then... LOL. Seriously, I need to survive my finances by the time I finish undergrad. Let's see, going to the movies (like physically be there, cuz I've been watching movies from VCD's and DVD's... hehe.), maybe compose a novel, more poems and short stories, doing more flower-pressing and origami?... ah, the plans are never-ending!! =) Oh yeah, I need to see my ol' friends too... I miss them lots! Summer, summer---I smell the summer... Oddly, it's been wet and chilly these past few days because of rain. Normally, you'd think Easter Sunday would be sunny and warm and pretty, but not here in Houston... Easter Sunday this year was wet, gloomy, and COLD!! ---which was weird... LOL... And I find that ironic, cuz last Christmas, it was hot and humid---instead of cold like normal winter holidays should be... LOL... Houston weather is so unpredictably capricious!

Okie, everyone! I did my post---happy now, Candy?? LOL... And Maddie, I already answered your question, which is already in the FAQ's. Thank you so much for visiting it and emailing! I love emails and emailing people. =)

Well, back to work! Sometimes, it seems I do so much better under pressure... hehe. Which is kinda bad health-wise, but I'm putting a deadline on myself so I won't have to lose so much sleep later on! Buh-bye, till next post, my dearies! =^-^=

2004-04-10T17:13:00.000-05:00

I'm disgusted... Either Blogger is taking forever to "publish" my entries, or I'm impatient... I'm going to post my entries in separate parts... So bear with me...

Part One:

Well, it's finally a Saturday, and tomorrow is Easter Sunday. My, the week went by so quickly! *blink, blink*

I have a pile of papers to write and books to read for my classes. *glomps myself* But, ah, Distraction, oh how I love and detest you at the same time. LOL.

Anyway, the Christian Archive has yet to be fixed whenever I could find that time, plus the other little things I need to fix up... all with html... Thank you, everyone for your help! The last time I asked for help, I ended up meshing together everyone's html suggestions... hehe... But it was fun. I learned a whole lot. =)

Well, this past Wednesday was quite... errrr, interesting. I'll write up something about it later when I don't feel so rushed at the moment. A day with C, well, technically it was only several hours with C. Enough said, but all the details... later. I'm much too overwhelmed at the moment---wait, scratch that, maybe I'm much still too overwhelmed.

Aside from a pile of work, I'm currently reading Obsidian Buttefly by Laurell K. Hamilton, which is like my type of book: the smart-alecky humor, gothic, supernatural, magical, detective, forensic kind... Of course, the protagonist in the book is this smart-alecky, tough 26-year-old, dark-haired pretty girl, who's a vampire hunter... Kind of reminds you of the hit TV series of Buffy, but I think this book is way better. Why am I always attracted to these kinds of things? I have no idea. I love mystery and puzzles and things with a good brain-workout. Maybe that explains why I'm a total workaholic at times? Maybe that's why I never cease to crave for all sorts of knowledge no matter how unbelievably strange it may seem? Maybe that's why I never seem to fit in with the normal Asian cliques these days? *cough, cough* Not that I'm anti-social. I always love the mix-up assortments of people. In fact, I always go for the personality, and I'm totally blind to skin color and ethnic differences. I can relate to everyone and anyone easily. It's funny, but the more I think about it, the more I really want to become a psychologist/psychiatrist... or maybe a forensic psychologist wouldn't be such a bad idea. I like working in labs. LOL... Anyway, I'm rambling.

But yeah, the reason why I want to talk about C later is that I'm going to compose a romantic story. *gasps* I know, I know. It's weird, but I've never really written a romantic story before and come to think of it, I still have my high school creative writing teacher's voice at the back of my head asking me why I haven't written anything about C or any romantic stories for that matter, even while I was still dating him. *shrug* I'm not sure why. Maybe I'm not like most girls, who would come home and write about their lovely days with their sweeties in their diaries late at night, and maybe, I'm just a way-too-private person who doesn't like to share her personal life with anyone. The best thing I could ever do is to write romantic poetry, and yeah, my poems are glittered with the come-on's here and there. But a romantic story? Never tried it, but it would be interesting. And besides, I need my poor soul to rest. I've been confused about everything with C for a really long time, and I need to figure out where I stand and how I feel about him, love, life, and so on. (to be continued in Part Two...)

2004-04-07T01:05:00.000-05:00

LOL... Well, here's another html challenge for you guys... =) How do I make a drop-down box for all of the titles (that have already been archived) at the Christian Archive? I now have more than 20+ entries, and I think it would be a bit more convenient for visitors to use a drop-down menu than trying to scroll down on the "Links" section. And also, if I were to have this drop-down menu at that site, would that affect the "to the top" link that I already have on there? If so, how can I edit the html so everything can work?? You can email me notes and explain it to me if the comment form (Haloscan) doesn't fit!! =) Thanks a lot you guys!! *hugs, big hugs* I can't believe how helpful you guys. In fact, I'm much more comfortable sharing bits and pieces of my life with everyone on here than back at Livejournal! *big hugs* Oooh, I feel so mushy now... *blushes* Now, I'm off to bed!! I have a big day tomorrow! *wink* I'll tell you guys about it later...

2004-04-05T11:31:00.000-05:00

Yeah, so it's been a while since I last updated. One thing's for sure: I definitely did fail my chem exam. Ah well, at least I can drop that one and do better on my next exam. *sigh* Arggh... I can do chemistry, but I feel as if though I'm getting stupid, ya know? Maybe school is getting to me or something, cuz you know you go to school to get an education and have a really great career you want to do for the rest of your life... but at the same time, all the knowledge you're acquiring seems to be making you feel dumber and then you feel like you don't know anything?? LOL. Does anyone ever get this feeling besides me?? Well, if you do, you can understand my situation at the moment. I like chemistry really, and I like it a whole lot better than high school chemistry. That's for sure. *wink*

Next thing. Supposedly, C is coming home from MA... this time, to see me. Yeah, it's really weird cuz his ex just moved back from NY and is now enrolled at the local public university here in Houston... and he wants to see me??? *blink, blink* Me?? Just me?? He even asked if I can find time to hang out... Oooh, wait, I just remembered: He is in town now, and he's waiting for me to get off school and hang out. He pouted (over AIM, of course) and asked if there are any days earlier than this Thursday (cuz that's my official day off for the Easter break). I gave him my schedule saying that he can come visit me at school if he wants to, but not today, cuz Monday = chem lab until 5pm!! I'll be moody, grouchy, and tired, etc. by then. LOL. Yeah, but me?? He wants to see me?? I know I talked about this in some earlier entries, but I still find it's all happening too soon. I don't know... We'll see what happens. And then I can organize my thoughts on here... hehe...

In the meantime, however, I want it to be Easter now!! Palm Sunday was pretty... But it rained early in the morning a bit before we went to church, and it was black-out foggy!!! I mean, the fog just swallowed everything!!! I was amused.

I don't have anything else special planned for this Easter, except that I'll be hanging out with C and a few friends probably from church and of course, my family... Oh yeah, I gotta do some extra credit for my other classes, so I can keep up with my GPA for my scholarships!! Eep!! But I wish that there were some extra credit stuff for chem though... =( *sigh*

One thing different about college is that your grades are based on essays, research papers, tests, and quizzes. And I'm the worst test-taker in the world!! Essays and papers--oh yeah, I can ace those, but exams?? Ewww... I do badly for like maybe almost half of the time, even when I study every day for that certain exam... =(

Well, I'll post again for later updates, everyone! Hope you all had a nice start of your week!! =)

2004-04-01T16:12:00.000-06:00

THE SWAN
Soul, Love, Beauty.
The Swan Brings us the qualities of soul-of love
and depth, grace and beauty. Getting the Swan
may indicate that you will recieve inspiration
from the Otherworld, or that love is entering
into your life. It is auspicious to get the
swan if you are preparing to write a song or
poem, for the swan's skin and feathers were
used to make the bard's ceremonial cloak, the
tugen.

Find your inner Animal! (MANY result, Awesome Pictures!!)
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which pleasure are you?

In addition to these quizzes, I also took a "death predictor" at this site: Death Clock.

My results are so freaky... hehe... So I either have to be "normal" or "optimistic" to live a bit longer... =P

Sadistic: Saturday, Jan. 27, 2024
Pessimistic: Monday, Dec. 25, 2045
Normal: Sunday, Jan. 27, 2064
Optimistic: Friday, Mar. 20, 2082

What Kind of Geek are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
Your IQ is	frighteningly high
You are a	word nerd
Your strength is	you never need to sleep
Your weakness is	chocolate
You think normal people are	aliens
Normal people think that you are	deranged

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