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Friday, November 07, 2003
somehow i'm coping (more or less) with everything, although i'm trying to get over what happened last year. forget that it ever happened, forget that it even existed. i just want to go back and somehow destroy it all, cuz it made me so depressed, which led me to almost go into drastic measures...
but somehow, i've kept my sanity because suicide is a sin. and i believe in living life to the fullest. i don't want to put the burden on anyone. and because i love everyone so much that i can't just bear to lose them all. and even though i have, some way or another, my heart loves them even more and i can't stop thinking about them everyday, every minute... and i want others to be happy... isn't it always so horrible for me to be selfless? i dunno, but i value others over myself...
anyway, time is rushing things at me again... i'm looking at my planner to see how my life in college is speeding like crazy, and the semester is almost ending... and then i have to keep in mind how i'm giving things a chance...
i'm sooo nervous about everything now... really nervous... i just hope that this time, things will be happy for me... this sunday will probably be interesting for me... i'm nervous, horribly shy, but happy...
// rambled by A~Lotus at 5:33:00 PM
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